mjpm
06-06-07, 10:15 PM
Ok so a few years ago I was diagnosed with Asthma...but i've tried 3 different inhalers none of them worked...and i was reading about anxiety disorders and it got me thinking.... there is usually little to no physical activities when i have an "asthma" attack and i constantly worry about things that i have no reason to and don't really notice how much i do it and also little fears get way bigger... like i'm a little scared of worms and but if it rains...even if there are no worms i picture or feel like they are there and are mad or something and i have an attack...it usually lasts a few minutes after i get inside...but its mostly just intense fear and a little hard to breathe but it does from time to time get way worse where i cry or scream or something...
as for Social Anxiety...I've always been shy and quiet...never made friends on my own (without being pushed or the other person even then i never really kept friends) i actually preferred to play by myself... i get ****y if people don't get what i'm playing or doing
anyway in grade 4 my parents took me out of school and homeschooled me for the year because i couldn't get in a special ed program and when i got back i forgot how to make friends and to be social but i still had some old friends but in grade 6 i had a surgery and had to re-learn how to talk and now i hate my voice...but I still had some friends but last year i don't know why but i blocked them out...just kind of made myself a shell...and now i'm in highschool... I only kept the friends i did make for a few weeks but only friends in class type thing... and i hate riding the bus because of fear i'll get lost or something bad will happen... i don't like talking in groups or in class i don't know why really i just feel weird and sometimes triggers my twitches and i also don't like talking or being around some people because they want me to look them in the eyes...i always feel violated everytime i make eye contact with most people like...its hard to explain
...sorry if some of this is incoherent... i had a hard day...i'm kinda tired
~ Megan
as for Social Anxiety...I've always been shy and quiet...never made friends on my own (without being pushed or the other person even then i never really kept friends) i actually preferred to play by myself... i get ****y if people don't get what i'm playing or doing
anyway in grade 4 my parents took me out of school and homeschooled me for the year because i couldn't get in a special ed program and when i got back i forgot how to make friends and to be social but i still had some old friends but in grade 6 i had a surgery and had to re-learn how to talk and now i hate my voice...but I still had some friends but last year i don't know why but i blocked them out...just kind of made myself a shell...and now i'm in highschool... I only kept the friends i did make for a few weeks but only friends in class type thing... and i hate riding the bus because of fear i'll get lost or something bad will happen... i don't like talking in groups or in class i don't know why really i just feel weird and sometimes triggers my twitches and i also don't like talking or being around some people because they want me to look them in the eyes...i always feel violated everytime i make eye contact with most people like...its hard to explain
...sorry if some of this is incoherent... i had a hard day...i'm kinda tired
~ Megan