Wow.

I have been on medication for almost three months and it is a blessing thus far. Doc prescribed 200mg of provigil. In the beginning, it was perfect. It brought me out of my "add coma". However, as time progressed, I noticed I was a space cowboy, whining like a little girl, finally getting angry, etc.

Then I went to an ADD group. First Time. I found out that MILD DEPRESSION is a common side effect. I am not a depressed individual. I reduced my Provigil on my own accord to 100mg. Much better. The ADD monster has come back, but, WHATEVER!!!

Real quick funny sidenote- this lady kept BLURTING out unwanted comments and was fidgeting, acting like a know it all, annoying everyone, then she finally says my son had ADD! and I am thinking in my head to myself- STUPID BIT$% YOU HAVE ADD AND DON'T EVEN KNOW IT! I am sure people find me annoying as hell and wonder what planet I am from every now and then.

I am combo for sure. The inattentive does not seem to be that bad. I am able to regroup my thoughts quicker and get back on track. However, the OCD has been worse. I never knew I was OCD or associated symptoms before I came to this site. I cannot let go of something if I am "in to it". I would be a really good stalker!!! ;)

Anyway, the reason for the title- I have always been independent and never really needed or received help of any kind. I had to make adult decisions early on in my life because the adults- weren't!

Hmmmmmmm.... let me see.... letting a child with ADHD Combo make adult decisions... GRAND IDEA! :eek:

Hence, trial and error to the extreme. I have never really taken care of my health sans teeth, I have never understood the importance of diet, I have excercised here and there, but not hardcore.

My mom has alienated herself from all family. My mom has had ADD for an additional twenty years and who knows what she is taking for meds, but, I just do not want to end up like my mom.

I guess I am rambling at this point. In conclusion, I do not care if I end up alone, I really do just want to be happy.

Think big love with three hotties!!! ;) :D Seriously, Take care of your being at all costs. I have waited too long to finally make this realization. Life does not come with a manual. It feels good to finally take care of myself mentally, physically, diet, glasses after all of this time of just "winging" it!

CHEERS! :soapbox:

Welcome to the club. And you have seen the movie, Cool Hand Luke? Um, I have to guees you are not a kid, right? :D Your post was good to read, Thank you for sharing your experience and insight. I have struggled with many things in life, including ADD. Taking care of ourselves is top priority-because it effects everyone and everything else in our lives. Look forward to more posts from you in the future.

PS, I want a AD~HD t-shirt.

I guess I am rambling at this point. In conclusion, I do not care if I end up alone, I really do just want to be happy.


I think most do want to be happy, but exactly what does happy mean?

It is much like the age old I never reach my potential while having no idea what that is. . . .one never reaches their destination unless they first know where it is they are going. . . . .



Think big love with three hotties!!!

Ummm I think that would be lust, love is hard work. . . . . .

Wow.

I have been on medication for almost three months and it is a blessing thus far. Doc prescribed 200mg of provigil. In the beginning, it was perfect. It brought me out of my "add coma". However, as time progressed, I noticed I was a space cowboy, whining like a little girl, finally getting angry, etc.


My mom has alienated herself from all family. My mom has had ADD for an additional twenty years and who knows what she is taking for meds, but, I just do not want to end up like my mom.

CHEERS! :soapbox:
It helped me so much to read this post you wrote as it gives me hope. I haven't found meds that work and am trying to stay positive that something eventually will work!
My dad has alienated himself from his family. My dad has add with comorbid disorders at this point. I have always feared ending up like him too. So far I haven't gone off the deep end and cut myself off from my family but I'm far from perfect. Need to keep focused long enough to get this add under control! :o

Need to keep focused long enough to get this add under control!

{meadd823 scratches her head} Umm if you could control your attention span or consciously choose how long you could pay attention you would not have ADD.

{meadd823 scratches her head} Umm if you could control your attention span or consciously choose how long you could pay attention you would not have ADD.
Good point. I have a lot of guilt about my ADD behvior which is unnecessary but ingrained into my personality at this point. I am looking forward to getting an effective treatment underway as I am currently not treated at the moment.