Hi,

I've recently discovered this forum as well as books on ADD, and I'm now going through my habits trying to correlate them wth what's known to be ADD-caused behavior.

1. On some weekends I am virtually overwhelmed by the need to stop any
activity that requires planning effort or comprehension. Typically,
the best way to spend this time is to play in immersive role-playing
game or read a science fiction book. I feel pretty ambivalent about
this - on one hand, it's a huge waste of time, on the other hand, I
almost always feel "recharged" and calmed after this, even if I stayed
up very long into the night. I almost physically feel that this is healing something in my brain, even if it may not be good for my body. Has anyone else experienced that? I'd like to find a way to convert the downtime into doing something more useful, but the problem is that it's the deliberate avoidance of useful activity that my brain craves.

(In my productive/semi-productive mode, I don't have an addiction to computer games, it rears its head only when I'm tired.)

2. I was trying to distinguish the states of my brain during the predominance of theta vs low beta waves. Sometimes right before falling asleep (when presumably theta is dominant) I am becoming overwhelmed by completely irrational images coming up from subconcious. They are short flashes of incoherent sounds, images or thoughts, such as would occur during dreams, but my mind is somewhat awake. Feeling them come up is somewhat scary, but when I got used to them, I started trying to concentrate on them deliberately and ignore conscious thought in an effort to fall asleep quicker. It seems to work. Has anyone played with this?