lurker
06-29-07, 06:32 PM
I am finally going to see a psychologistt. I managed to get support formt he uni and the lady who is working with me is really just wonderful, a godsend. I have this essay which takes up 40% of my total.... I've tried and tried to do it but just couldn't and I managed to get an extension.... the problem right now is that i have passed the absolute final deadline because the lecturer's contract ends so even if he wanted to he can't wait any longer........
I so wanted to do a god essay but now i cant even seem to do it... i feel like a fool.... i was averaging well in that course and really wanted to do it but now im going to fail it... worse still it means out of 4 subjects i woudlve only passed ONE,,, if I'm lucky................
I dont know what to do now.... im wondering if i could try to finsih it and send a soft copy to my lecturer but im really to mentally drained to do it......
I dont know if my problem might be ADD... might be anxiety... point is... I dunno. I just hope they test for everything when i go.
But right now.... it means I am nowhere near completing my degree which i should have completed by now. My father has been paying for my really expensive uni fees and i feel horrible.... he doesn't know whats going on and I'm not close enough to be able to tell him either....... i feel ive really let him down becaus ehe has been so generous.... i thought i cld get a part time job and at least pay for some of my own things but with my time management being this bad there is no way......
Now i dunno what im gonna do..... im too far in to quit now but too far away from finishing to continue..... I'm living abroad and I like it here and i want to continue living here but if i cant even complete my degree ho am i supposed to... i have never been so scared im my whole life... dunno where im going or what im gonna do.....
I so wanted to do a god essay but now i cant even seem to do it... i feel like a fool.... i was averaging well in that course and really wanted to do it but now im going to fail it... worse still it means out of 4 subjects i woudlve only passed ONE,,, if I'm lucky................
I dont know what to do now.... im wondering if i could try to finsih it and send a soft copy to my lecturer but im really to mentally drained to do it......
I dont know if my problem might be ADD... might be anxiety... point is... I dunno. I just hope they test for everything when i go.
But right now.... it means I am nowhere near completing my degree which i should have completed by now. My father has been paying for my really expensive uni fees and i feel horrible.... he doesn't know whats going on and I'm not close enough to be able to tell him either....... i feel ive really let him down becaus ehe has been so generous.... i thought i cld get a part time job and at least pay for some of my own things but with my time management being this bad there is no way......
Now i dunno what im gonna do..... im too far in to quit now but too far away from finishing to continue..... I'm living abroad and I like it here and i want to continue living here but if i cant even complete my degree ho am i supposed to... i have never been so scared im my whole life... dunno where im going or what im gonna do.....