.. I guess i just need to somewhere since I can't really tell anyone in the real world around me..
All my life ive been told that i have lots of potential and blah blah blah... so i never thought that i wouldn't make it in life.. i was always assured that i would be okay.
So now i have been rudely awakened by an expensive college education that i want to pursue but am failing... aand the fact that i am failing in every aspect of my life. my time management skills are so poor i cannot find the time to pursue any of the passions that i want to try and see if i might be any good at them and get some idea of what i can do. i cannot get a part time job because if i did there is no way in hell i would pass any of my classes... i tried taking on one with flexible hours but for some reason it didnt work out.. and it left me in debt even because of transport costs..
now i know potential really isnt everything... its only 1% of the deall... you have to have the drive, the skills and strength to bring it to life.. and i really find myself so incapable of all that. I'm so scattered. i can't even run some simple errands-- admin matters or whatever- without feeling mentally drained and unable to do much else. i feel i have so much on my plate to handle and yet there is in reality hardly anything...

what would you do if you were me? After your parents spending so much money on 3 years worth of uni-- and international fees, too, which you have only passed 1 years worth of credits for.... would you continue? if i stop now it would be such a waste of their money.... if i continue... it would be spending heaps more......

Are you takeing any medications?

no, im not diagnosed with add. i will be going for a comprehensive testing in a few days time. might be add might be something else might be nothing. im hoping its something, then i will at least have a chance of getting the problem fixed.

Well, reading your post is like looking at myself in the mirror, are you just about to grad? are you a senior in highschool?

Your post makes me think that you are, but im not for sure,

I am, for the record,

And like you, I don't have a diagnosed add, thingey...alltough I have all the hallmarks, countless examples that point to innatentive ADD...however my theripist is very stubborn because I'm not hyperactive...he should have seen me in texas after school,

but, about that one part you said,

i can't even run some simple errands-- admin matters or whatever- without feeling mentally drained and unable to do much else
I find this, very, very, very interesting...because when I started my concerta medication, I noticed a change in my "mental endurance" I could "last longer"

Kinda liek you, I have always been told that I'm full of potential, and everything else teachers have to say that belongs in the same bucket..

But, if I "ran at full compasity" I would be so "blah" for the rest of the day, I felt miserable,

and I would sit at my desk trying to squesse more out of myself, and nothing would come,

picture squeeseing a lemon, and nothing come out,

well, with my concerta I could get more juice out of that lemon

I was luckey when I moved back to arkansas, I got out of block scheduleing, so more shorter classes, instead of 4 LONG classes....

to pursue any of the passions that i want to try and see if i might be any good at them and get some idea of what i can do.
OH! can I relate to this, and MAN I HATE IT WITH A PASSION!

I like to draw, I like to do lightwave, I like to do all this stuff, but i'm procrastinateing so much, and dwindleing so much time away I end up getting nothing done........

I HATE looking back on my day and realizeing I haven't really done anything I wanted to do...

but I think is more of a lifestyle chagne, than something meds can really help with....


just some of my thoughts

thanks for sharing Vhan! im in university, supposed to have graduated this year but am barely halfway through completeing because i have failed so many courses.

for everyone who is knowledgable in these things... what are all the possibilities? although i am posting on an ADD board and previously had sort of half a diagnosis of ADD but not a proper one.... i dont know what it is... i guess i will find out tommorow which is when i go for testing.
i really hope something comes up bc if nothing does then there really is little way the problem can be fixed...

The behavior you described previously sounded similar to my every day experience and I have been diagnosed inattentive add in the past. I'm betting you're testing will show something and you are on your way to solving this thing. With that said, there shouldn't be any reason you don't continue your studies. Good Luck!


thanks for sharing Vhan! im in university, supposed to have graduated this year but am barely halfway through completeing because i have failed so many courses.

for everyone who is knowledgable in these things... what are all the possibilities? although i am posting on an ADD board and previously had sort of half a diagnosis of ADD but not a proper one.... i dont know what it is... i guess i will find out tommorow which is when i go for testing.
i really hope something comes up bc if nothing does then there really is little way the problem can be fixed...

If you don't mind my prying lurker, what ARE your passions?

Do you have any dreams?

what are all the possibilities?
Well, there is always the route of "self copeing" or, really, the things that you do, without realizeing it, that get you through the day, (this is were reading a book about add gets fun, you start to realize exactley what those things are)

but, it seems that you have hit a point in your life, were you ADD (disclamer, I guess you haven't been tested yet, but anyway) Has reaced a point were those copeing habbits don't cut it.

Simpley speaking, the smarter the ADDer, the later the ADD shows up in life, that "wall" doesn't appear untill the Adder can't cope with it on his own anymore.

You see, add slowey gets worse as we grow older, so the older you are when you hit that wall, well, I think you get the idea.

Then there are meds, these help, expectually when it comes to "mental endurance" it makes a diffrence, but knowing WERE that diffrence is is kinda key.

A lot of people have this idea "ADD meds CURE EVERYTHING" my dad was one of those people....

in reality tough, imagine in your current state, your sitting down in a chair, and everything you want to do is a walk away.

now, imagine you have bad knees (this is representing poor focus, and all the outher procrastinateing joys that come with ADD)

Getting up is a pain....

meds, help you stand up!

but they DON'T WALK FOR YOU!

as long as you understand that, I think your on the right track!

What does help you walk? Lifestyle changes, you have to suit your lifestyle to your ADD, leats face it, ADDers are not like NTers, our logic is totally diffrent.

doesn't it make sence to have our own lifestyle to suit that logic?

Consider lifestyle changes a ENABLER that will help you jog.

you have to have the drive, the skills and strength to bring it to life..
That my friend, is the running, but you gotta walk before you jog, jog before you run!

Hope this helps!

Getting diagnosed is the most important thing for you right now. Things will only continue to get worse if you don't, so I'd make that a priority.

Parents are such incredibly forgiving people. I have failed in so many areas academically, I was surpurised when my parents kept continuing to support me! But they did, and I got my diagnosis and am doing pretty good. Now I should point out that they're not completely aware of the ADD. But I couldn't have done it without them.

It will be hard thing to forgive yourself for what may feel like such a failure. But I encourage you to do so, and get the help you need. You may be surpurised at their reaction. Their anger may not come from the so called 'wasted' money, but that you had to struggle with something they knew nothing about.