I'm an ADD inattentive that has not had a problem keeping jobs. I start out awesome winning praise and accolades but after a few years I'm nothing special. I've lost interest but have enough self control to not quit or do anything to jeopardize my income.

But I want so desperately to not be at this level. I want to be really good at my job or anything (hobby, running, etc.). I never stick with something long enough to develop that expertise level. For my own satisfaction but also for the admiration of others. And not just for the results but also for the inner joy of a job well done and given 100%.

If I could just regenerate or even maintain the level of enthusiasm that I had when I started a job, I could be stupendous, but boredom and procrastination sets in.

Is this the point where I must just accept who I am and move on to another job so I can at least be excited about work? I would really like to stay where I am and get motivated to hyperfocus again.

I totally get what you are talking about. When I first got out of school I though I had the coolest job ever. I was really motivated and super productive. I ended up leaving that copmany to go to a much bigger one and do the same thing there, and yeah....at first I was still really motivated and productive, but one difference.....I'm not nearly as busy there as I was at my last job.......when I get bored things fall apart....I do not tolerate boredom well......

So now I procrastinate, I'm lazy, unmotivated, disorganiozed, easlity distracted (so bad that it takes me 20 minutes to make a simple photocopy). I would love to just quit, but since I'm been in the industry for six years now, I have moved up in the ranks, and I am very used to my income......so changing careers isn't an option. I try moving my desk, or my lab bench to another one in the lab, thinking a change in scenery will motivate me.....this doesn't work....

I can't really offer advice since I'm right where you are. Maybe a new job would excite you.......

I could have written that first paragraph myself....well, the whole post actually. That is the hardest part of all of this for me!! I want to excel, I do excel, but only as long as I am intersted!! I took off work a year ago to spend time with my infant son (and because we moved)..and I told myself that I will not go back until I have this under control and feel like I can go to work and be who I need me to be and who my employer needs me to be. My last year of work (before I quit), I was sooo bored and it showed in my work performance. My boss's never said anything and still put me up on a pedlestool, but in my mind, I knew I was slacking and personally, I wouldnt want someone like me working for me :P

I dont know what the answer here is, or if there even is one, but right now I am prayer this Adderall can help me get to atleast a level that I can be proud of myself when I go back to work and not walk out the door at the end of the day feeling like I didnt earn my paycheck!!

You are definitely not alone!