Every time I get a job, I manage to screw it up. The relationship between myself & management becomes damaged beyond repair and the only solution is too either quit or wait until I get fired. IMHO, much of this 'damage' is because of their perception that I do not have the ability to do the job. So, it becomes a vicious circle where I feel bored, unchallenged and coworkers are mad at me because they are working 12 hours a day doing work I should be doing & probably can do, but management won't let me within 50 feet of.

I am the classic ADHD type but never formally diagnosed with ADHD. Many job in the past ten years. My longest job held was from 2002-2004. I get bored easily, have poor attention to detail, ask 'too many' questions, somehow alienate coworkers.

I even eliminated the first four years of my resume, moved up college & grad school graduation dates, and stretched some dates of jobs recently held.

Now, I am in this situation again. I have recently 'partially relocated' to the boondox of suburban CT 2 hours from NYC for a position in my industry that I thought I would do well in. Well, I made it past the 90day probationary period. Do I think I have a future here & they are happy with me?? Hardly.. My supervisor hates me & is very unapproachable & standoffish. Except outside of NY it is done in a very passive aggressive, two faced fashion.

So I am paying rent on two apartments. The one I am subletting here in CT and my apartment in Queens which is rent stabilized and I return to every weekend. It is still empty five days a week.

To deal with the anxiety I have taken various SSRI's & anxiety drugs over the years. Now I am on Prozac -- 80MG a day which seems to working well, but I just can't cut it at work.

By no means am I an authority on this but, I would suggest two plans of attack. One would be getting a formal diagnosis and looking at your options for dealing with what my lie beneath so to speak. Second, I would suggest going to see a career counselor. You may not wish to change jobs but, they might be able to help you find a niche within your field or give you some ideas on how to streamline your work ability and perhaps deal better with employers, co-workers, etc.

I'm on a career counselor kick at the moment myself and it seems to be helpful. One thing I have found in dealing with most any situation is being proactive is the way out of bad situations.

And if I may make an observation. From what you've written it seems you're pretty bitter about your experiences. That can certainly hurt your professional standing as well as cloud your judgement. I'm speaking from experience here. I'm still working on my negative thinking. It can lead to a me versus them mentality and can strain relationships quickly. I'm not trying to say you are completely at fault here but, whatever the reason you may have gotten into a line of strong negative thinking. That's certainly one area many of us could work on.

Trouble dealing with Frustrations and disappointments seem to be strong with those of us with ADD/ADHD.

My 3 cents, hope some of it helps.

i feel ya with your problem happends to me to

I second what mcinny just said. I've been there. I went from being a total disaster at every job (rebellious, "lazy", bored, frequently absent--unmanageable!) to being a much more model employee. I don't call out of work now. I don't procrastinate like I used to, and I actually get more work done. I'm taking Provigil.

I still obsess about my work and worry about my performance. I also still have trouble with interpersonal issues and my careless errors are in greater number than I'd prefer. But compared to how I used to be.....it's much much better. Go get diagnosed and get some meds. It could make a world of difference.