View Full Version : Have you ever felt like you just want to stop?


FightingBoredom
08-30-07, 09:35 AM
VENTING:

I mean, have you ever just gotten SO dang tired of second guessing or doubting your own sanity after countless times of feeling like you have Altzheimers with a side order of senility?

I'm in that space right now. It just seems like everything is falling apart.
Logically I can say that my family's health is good so I should be happy with that...even though it seems like life is just the full moon day from hell...every day lately.

I hate my house (that's nothing new) and I'm beginning to hate my wife.
So far I don't feel anything negative towards my kids but I've been curt and short tempered and nasty with them a few times lately.

I mean, my wife in the last couple of months keeps telling the kids "I work as hard as your dad does". She's a stay at home mom and there is NO WAY she works as hard as I do. She thinks she does but she gets up 2 hours after I do and goes to bed 2 hours before I do. She spends at least 4 hours a day watching TV and browsing the web. I work intently at my job for 6 to 8 hours straight only taking pee breaks and on a rare occasion get food. Then I work on the train into and out of the city. When I get home I do grocery shopping and usually feed the kids dinner. I fix anything in our house that is broken including the stupidarse cars we have.

I could go on and on...but this is just an example of SO many things that irritate the crap out of me lately.

NO! My meds are the same and I take them everyday. Maybe I need to ask my doctor for STUPID pills instead--since "ignorance is bliss". I see so many blissful idiots during my commute to work...there must be a STUPID pill that everyone is on, right?

Well, enough ranting...I'm at the office stinko farting up the area and need to go take a shamsky since the "blissful" people are showing up for work.

4gotAgain
09-05-07, 06:21 PM
farting up the area lol sorry that cracked me up, i have the same problem at work, when i know ineed to fart, i fart next to the same person and walk away, i know its mean but the stink like hell lol.
i feel the same like everything is going wrong etc and really depressed. ive considered suicide on 3 seperate occasions but i learnt recently to talk to my bro dean, he helps me out alot.
find someone you can talk to, it helps.

busyhermit
09-05-07, 07:30 PM
WIKIPEDIA:

Dysphoria (from Greek δύσφορος (dysphoros), from δυσ-, difficult, and φέρω, to bear) is generally characterized as an unpleasant or uncomfortable mood, such as sadness (depressed mood (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Depression_%28mood%29)), anxiety (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anxiety), irritability (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Irritability), or restlessness.<SUP class=reference id=_ref-0>[1] (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dysphoria#_note-0)</SUP> Etymologically, it is the opposite of euphoria (http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/Euphoria).
Dysphoria refers only to a condition of mood and may be experienced in response to ordinary life events, such as illness or grief. Additionally, it is a feature of many psychiatric disorders (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychiatric_disorder), including anxiety disorders (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anxiety_disorder) and mood disorders (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mood_disorder). Dysphoria is usually experienced during depressive episodes, but in people with bipolar disorder (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bipolar_disorder), it may also be experienced during manic (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mania) or hypomanic (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypomania) episodes.<SUP class=reference id=_ref-read_0>[2] (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dysphoria#_note-read)</SUP> Dysphoria in the context of a mood disorder indicates a heightened risk of suicide (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Suicide).
Ahhh that irritability/anxiety/restlessness/depression combo - not just one, but all as one - mixed in a great ugly mass - my constant companion for as long as I can remember. I have rarely dared to dream that life could be another way. But at my meeting w/pdoc a couple days ago, he tried to convince me of just that - that with the proper medication (plus therapy in my case) I could be depression-free within a few months. Seems unlikely to me, but when I asked "How many fail to accomplish this?", he said "just one, and even she showed marked improvement". So I figure it's worth a shot - I mean, even if he's exaggerating, I think I can muster up faith in the worst-case scenario - I'd settle for "marked improvement" :)

What was my point....?

I guess I just want to say - is this a bad mood or a way of life? If it's the latter, maybe you don't need to settle for feeling this way. Do you think that the people around you are just growing more and more annoying? Or has the joy and color simply been sucked out of your life?

In that case, maybe your dr can help.

Hang in there.......

Crazy~Feet
09-05-07, 08:25 PM
PMing you a few links to posts of mine, FB. Hope they help and by all means, vent when ya gotta vent!

{{{HUGS}}}

selby
09-25-07, 02:06 PM
Yes, I was thinking that earlier... I'm tired of seemingly no meds working out in the long run and sometimes want to give up, or go back on an anti-depressant... it's bleak.

Every med improves my condition but at the same time gives intolerable side effects... If only I could be normal without anything. Sometimes I feel like I don't know who I am anymore. Too many meds altering "me".