View Full Version : My life is like dial-up


Desperate1
09-20-07, 10:03 AM
I don't have hyperactivity. in fact, I may be the most fatigued person ever, what with my innattentive add, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, etc.

And yet the world moves so slow it's frustrating. I can't figure out why, because it seems to contradict my diagnosis and how my body feels.

Waiting for microwave popcorn to pop is like watching paint dry. My super high speed internet isn't fast enough. I DVR every TV show I watch because commercials take too long. (And I barely watch TV anyway).

I'm the turtle, and I want to be the hare. Does this ring true for anyone else with primarily inattentive type ADD?

becka
09-20-07, 10:53 AM
Unless I'm hyperfocused, most everyday feels a bit like being stuck behind that person on a one-lane road that's going 15 miles per hour when the speed limit is 50.


Yes, I know exactly what you're talking about. I'm also inattentive type, and suffer from lots of daytime drowsiness (not related to sleep patterns, I have been sleeping like a babe for months now). I get more impatient when I feel the most sleepy - like hurry up hurry up, I have to keep moving or I'm going to fall asleep!

busyhermit
09-20-07, 01:54 PM
I don't have hyperactivity. in fact, I may be the most fatigued person ever, what with my innattentive add, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, etc.

And yet the world moves so slow it's frustrating. I can't figure out why, because it seems to contradict my diagnosis and how my body feels.

Waiting for microwave popcorn to pop is like watching paint dry. My super high speed internet isn't fast enough. I DVR every TV show I watch because commercials take too long. (And I barely watch TV anyway).

I'm the turtle, and I want to be the hare. Does this ring true for anyone else with primarily inattentive type ADD?Hi Desperate - yeah, I relate. I know that you experience a lot more fatigue than I do, but still I've always felt slower than everyone around me. I think it started as a kid because of my tendency to stare off into space in the middle of things. But now-adays, I'm not really that way. Now I wonder how much it's just in my perception - the slowness, I mean, because I'm actually working at something all of the time. Sometimes I take longer at things than other people because I'm a perfectionist - - but I still manage to accomplish a lot because I never stop.

What I've begun to realize now is that I'm just overwhelmed with IMPATIENCE at all times. And I mean ALL times. I too, use Tivo only because having to wait thru commercials makes me nuts - I'm liable to get ****ed off and curse at the TV... Nothing happens fast enough for me. I can't stand those necessities of life that waste time - eating, showering - . Oh, I don't know...I can't even list things because it's just everything.

So even if you weren't feeling so much fatigue, you'd probably still have this symptom. You know what I want to experience? Contentment. Have you met people like that? People who can be happy and calm and just do whatever needs to be done next without the insane pressure I that I always feel.

4gotAgain
09-21-07, 07:43 AM
i totally relate!! im the same with the microwave! also hate waiting for the toaster to pop - thats why i always have cereal. id rather eat oats cold with milk that wait for them to cook in the microwave. And slow people walking in front of you - forget it id rather have people growl at me as i rudely push past. Actually alot of times Id rather they notice me push past so they can realise how bloody slow they were crawling!!

Busy hermit - i so agree!! commercials are terrible! i get angry at the tv as well - at least there are channels to turn over tho - im a chronic channel surfer.

busyhermit
09-21-07, 04:04 PM
I even pace the floor when I brush my teeth. I wonder if medication will help with that?

tkdchic78
09-21-07, 05:43 PM
Hm, without my medication it's a lot like that. But I'm either the turtle or the hare. Either things take forever, or all of a sudden two hours have passed and all I've done is sat around and thought about the world. Without my medication, I feel either so tired I don't want to move, or I feel like I want to do everything at once.

It drives my boyfriend crazy when I don't take my medicine on the weekends because all I want to do is sleep or lay around, my body feels too weak to move. It's weird.

jacinta
09-22-07, 04:06 AM
When I come on this forum when I haven't been on it for a while I feel so much better when I read threads like this because I feel normal again!!!

Limbo
09-23-07, 04:23 AM
Your title got my immediate attention. Unfortunately, dialup is the only service I can receive unless I want to pay extremely high rates. Where I lived before I had broadband, so dialup is truly painful. Sometimes I’m shaking by the dialup gets around to loading another page. It’s a lot like trying to solve a problem with Sprint-Nextel over the phone. You get shifted from one department to the other, put on hold for an eternity and eventually during one of the transfers, you get disconnected! Then you have to start all over again, its just one prolonged never-ending circle. Situations like these are torture enough for a normal person, but if you have Add, you’re near dead by the time it’s over.

In my opinion, there can never be a contradiction between Add or Adhd and impatience. I could be wrong, but the natural contradiction is between patience and Add or Adhd. So you see, you’re a normal ADD individual.

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unfinshed1
09-23-07, 11:20 AM
Speaking of things taking too long does anyone else dread showering and teeth cleaning? I've actually timed how long it takes and its laughable (I waste much more time doing nothing) but somehow I dread doing both because it seems to take forever.

The internet is a medium that is just about fast enough for me (since broadband), this has been a problem because for about 6 years this is where I have existed.

Graham

busyhermit
09-23-07, 11:36 AM
Speaking of things taking too long does anyone else dread showering and teeth cleaning? I've actually timed how long it takes and its laughable (I waste much more time doing nothing) but somehow I dread doing both because it seems to take forever.
:) So glad to find someone who feels the same way - I can't stand all those drudgeries of life that must be done over and over when I could be spending the time doing something interesting. And brushing teeth takes what - - a couple of minutes?! I know it doesn't make sense. But I've accepted long ago that not much about me makes sense. Or .... does it? Now that I find that there are people like me...it's a nice feeling.

Desperate1
09-23-07, 11:46 AM
can't believe how much i relate to all of you! my "high speed" cable internet is running very slow lately, and waiting for a web page to change is causing me high blood pressure!

things like showering...i have never been able to put it in words, but it seems so daunting, even though it takes all of 15 minutes.

just seems like everything takes so long and moves so slow. like the world has slowed down to accomodate my slowed down body and brain.

FightingBoredom
09-23-07, 03:08 PM
can't believe how much i relate to all of you! my "high speed" cable internet is running very slow lately, and waiting for a web page to change is causing me high blood pressure!

Unplug your modem, disconnect all the wires, wait a minute, plug it back in, reconnect everything.

things like showering...i have never been able to put it in words, but it seems so daunting, even though it takes all of 15 minutes.
bathing is OVERRATED! I mean...you wash off and you're just going to get dirty and sweaty again...it's just another thing we do to fit into society. :p

just seems like everything takes so long and moves so slow. like the world has slowed down to accomodate my slowed down body and brain.

Food allergies? If I were you I'd look into the casein/gluten free diet.

Desperate1
09-23-07, 05:06 PM
[QUOTE=FightingBoredom]Unplug your modem, disconnect all the wires, wait a minute, plug it back in, reconnect everything.



Yup, I do that often. The problem is my cable co, even though they wont admit it. I had a tech here last week who said they'd been working on the lines for te last few weeks and that's making it slow.

jacinta
09-23-07, 09:36 PM
No doubt high speed cable was invented by some frustrated AD(H)D person.

When I was first diagnosed with ADD it was a teeth brushing incident that was one of the things that convinced me I had ADD. I started brushing my teeth and then saw a bucket in the bath with some clothes in it that I had started to handwash (the day before) and then left to go and do something else. So, I'm standing there see the clothes subconsciously realise that brushing my teeth alone isn't interesting enough so half way thru doing that with the toothbrush still sticking out of my mouth I resume my previous day's task of washing the clothes that were in the bucket. I realised what I ws doing was very ADD.

In the time that I take just thinking about a shower I could have had a hundred showers!!! I find it hard to think in the shower (and use the mobile ph and have a shower at the same time) so I prefer to have baths.

4gotAgain
09-24-07, 12:42 AM
i so relate. i hate showering and brushing my teeth. When I was younger I used to pretend to shower by turning it on and doing something else but wouldnt always get caught out because there was no towel..haha and not brushing my teeth is also a mission. i tend to chew alot of gum instead :)
wow its cool to know its not me being weird just another ADHD thing..

DeloresMelon
09-26-07, 10:00 AM
Speaking of things taking too long does anyone else dread showering and teeth cleaning? I've actually timed how long it takes and its laughable (I waste much more time doing nothing) but somehow I dread doing both because it seems to take forever.

The internet is a medium that is just about fast enough for me (since broadband), this has been a problem because for about 6 years this is where I have existed.

GrahamThis brought me out of lurkdom. I seriously thought I was just hygenically challenged. It's only been the past 2 weeks that I realized my "problem" is ADD and not complete lunacy. I started my first dose of Adderall half an hour ago. Maybe I'll look forward to actually tending to my teeth now... yeah right.

Desperate1
09-26-07, 10:19 AM
Well, DeloresMelon, then this ought to really make you feel better :) Can't beleive i'm admitting this, but, hey, it's just an anonymous forum. I was diagnosed at 33, and never would have thought I had ADD. But when I was a kid, literally, and I am so serious here, I probaby brushed my teeth about once a month, if that. No, now that I think of it, it was probably less often than that. I always thought I must be some weird, gross, lazy freak. (Of course, I feel the need to add that my teeth are in great shape and I am so lucky. People actually compliment me on my teeth and say how lucky I am that they're so white and straight and I never even had to wear braces--if they only knew!) But anyway, I think this is one of those less talked about things that also contributes to low self-esteem in ADDers, because you feel like you must be some gross slob and you can't just be normal and make yourself do something as simple as brushing your teeth.

unfinshed1
09-27-07, 10:06 AM
I've improved since getting some nice mouth wash, I sort of look forward to the mouth wash because it changes colour showing you have actually acheived something! It also gets rid of the tooth paste slime feeling I tend to get.

I still tend to be slow getting up because I don't want to shower, once in I enjoy it and the dread drying myself! I was always last out of the changing rooms after swimming!!

DeloresMelon
09-27-07, 10:11 AM
It's refreshing to know I'm "normal" even if it's just A.D.D. normal. I bought a power toothbrush. Pardon the crudeness, but this thing could double as a vibrator.
Anyway, it pauses after every thirty seconds and shuts off after 2 minutes so you know where you are. I kept brushing for four minutes because I wanted to be VERY thorough.
Then I would dread it because I knew how exhausting it would be to get through those four minutes. lol
Now I have returned back to just brushing my teeth in the shower. The last thing I do before getting out. My husband turned me onto this little "trick" and I have to say, it makes it less daunting.