Well, for those of you on the cycling team who know me pretty well, know that I had a manic episode that ended up winding me up in a new area, which wound up being a good thing, trust me.

I have a new psychiatrist as a result and there are some changes I want made and will hopefully succeed, during my first meeting with her two weeks ago she put up a stink about the dexedrine and only wrote me two weeks worth because she found it to be "fishy" that I was on such a high dose. The positive note to that is I am sick of Dexedrine and want to go on Ritalin for awhile anyhow, the patch more specifically. I will let y'all know about that.

The problem I have with this woman is that she seems and looks like she's 25, and I have this hunch that she is a psychopath, and I know that seems extreme and maybe a bit paranoid but there's something not right and I have met a few of them in my life (psychopaths, sociopaths, antisocial PD's etc) and I felt the same vibe from them, she seems to be argumentative and has this 'gaslighting' thing she does and it's like she wants me to go off. It's a power thing, I know I am recovering successfully from ASPD (a rare thing) and she does a lot of things that I used to do. She also is quite poignant with her references to "hospitaliziation" which I find annoying.

I don't know I am just anxious and maybe a little paranoid so I figured I'd post and hopefully I am not 'verbally impulsive', (don't laugh it's not funny) and I will be posting tomorrow after the appt.

good luck with the new doctor! Be sure to let us know how it goes.

Me :D

You left out possible narcissism. :)

Such people tend to get enraged when challenged on anything.

It's actually called Narcissistic Rage. LOL

Your challenge is to verbalize what you think she is doing, before it emotionally escalates into a standoff. :)

"When you say X, I feel as though you are trying to get me upset or stir some sort of conflict."

Might be transference issues, too. Therapists can have Counter-Transference stuff happen. =:O

Too much nonverbal missing to guess what that is/might be.

You left out possible narcissism. :)

Such people tend to get enraged when challenged on anything.

It's actually called Narcissistic Rage. LOL

Your challenge is to verbalize what you think she is doing, before it emotionally escalates into a standoff. :)

"When you say X, I feel as though you are trying to get me upset or stir some sort of conflict."

Might be transference issues, too. Therapists can have Counter-Transference stuff happen. =:O

Too much nonverbal missing to guess what that is/might be.
I was thinking pretty much the same thing, I definitely play a part in the whole picture as well, but I felt the vibe and although I am not perfect, I am fully aware that there is a transference/countertransference factor involved, the other part of this is that my flavor of Bipolar Disorder (I) makes me classifaction-wise, severely and persistently mentally ill, so her clientele for the most part is a combination of Schizophrenia, Bipolar and Borderline Patients so having that in mind makes me understand her demeanor a little better, my history of self induced mania doesn't settle well with doctors

She is the worst and I mean, "Let's go with the Dexedrine Spansule" evil... I am not liking her at all, I was on immediate release dexedrine and doing well for close to a year, I asked to switch to Ritalin and her response was "The 15 mg dexedrine spansules take 3 3 times per day", the hair stood up on the back of my neck, the thought of turning into this shy quiet hollow shell of a person that the "spansule" made me is making me sad, but I got the Mallinckrodt brand and the pharmacy said they don't EVER carry Barr, so I am getting the best spansules there are.

Just drag her to the Lady's Restroom, and I'll take her inside and give her a swirly :D...I have a particularly nasty response to doc that think they are gods. I do things like "fire them" or "report them to the superviser"...I have actually gotten a rehab counselor FIRED from an inpatient facility, and lemme tell ya, that witch deserved it!!

I take the spansules AM, 3 at a shot. I am only able to get Barr, so that's not astonishing now is it? :rolleyes:

I have heard one girl say that the Barr brand spansules are the best, I don't like having to wait 2 hours for them to kick in, and the Barr brand 5 mg dexedrine tablets are pretty effective, the 10 mg ones suck and the spansules that they make I have never had. My shrink is just a control freak and I accept it.