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Lafnalot
10-09-07, 09:38 AM
Went to Lizz's pdoc yesterday, she has a new dx of bipolar. She is seeing people who arent there, scarred up of bloody people who speak to her in a language she calls "matricha" that she cant understand. Evidently that is from the anxiety and not psychosis. I almost cried in front of her when she confessed this to him. He took me aside afterwards and explained the situtaion to me. We are going to try singular therapy and do blood work (thyroid etc). In two months if there are no significant changes we will talk meds.

She made two suicidal statements in a rage which promted me to have the mobile response unit come out to the house. They were fantastic and she is now enrolled in so many services. She even has medicaid now, so I can take her to the docs any time she needs me to do so.

Aspergers wasn't enough. Now she has to be saddled with this, which I know she got from my side of the family.Im not feeling self pity, Im feeling guilty. Though my mother says guilt is self pity but in a different form, so Im trying to butch it up a bit.

She absolutely fears and dreads school, to the point where, when I picked her up out of our bed last night to put her in hers, she not even awake said again "Please dont make me go back there Mamma" When her therapist came to the house yesterday and worked with her, we had an evak afterwards. She picked up on her anxiety, not frm just wat she voiced but from her behaviours.

Im so grateful we live in the times we do and these people exist and really care about their work and clients.

Matt S.
10-10-07, 08:50 AM
That is a good thing, I was a child when I was diagnosed as "Manic Depressive" and the suicidal statements at age 8 along with staying awake for long times, 3 day rages and anxiety from the pits of hell, were all part of that diagnosis. I hated school as well. It is good that you are getting the help that you need for your child. She will appreciate it in the future.

justhope
10-10-07, 10:24 AM
Long time no see Laf.

Man I am so sorry to hear about your daughter.
It's hard enough to deal with ourselves. But when our kids are diagnosed it's like starting all over again. We feel it more than when we got diagnosed ourselves.

I know what you are saying about the guilt. I felt the same way with Keenan.
But for those of us who were not diagnosed until adulthood, or who were diagnosed years ago before they had all the information they do now, our kids have a great advantage.

Looking back at my poor mom, I am thankful that I had the diagnoses because I can't imagine being a NT parent and having kids who are chalked full of all kinds of disablitilies. Even though my mom is a nurse and worked wiht the mentally ill and mentally retarded it was so different for her having kids who were. And of course , we think we are in the dark ages now with BP, it was really bad then.

I am so happy they have services for you. I only wish Kee had them available earlier we might have been able to do so much for him.

I hated school when I was young. Even though I am above average intelligence, just like my son, my social skills and self esteem were crap. I remember the feelings of dread and anxiety about going. I was just a square peg. Kee fought school his whole life too. It wasn't until we got him diagnosed and put services in place we discovered there are often mini schools or off campus programs for these kids. Perhaps if you are now enrolled for these services they might have something for her?

How old is she? There are some alternatives here in Ohio, not sure what area you are in?

Hang in there, it's so very difficult as you already know dealing with the Aspergers. The good news, you are already prepared to deal with a mentally ill child. A really good book I read , even after all my own BP research, was
"The Up's & Down's of Raising a Bipolar Child" A Survival Guide for Parents.
I got it off Amazon used for about 5.00. It made things so much clearer for me in reference to early onset. I know mine kicked in at puberty. Kee's kicked in around age 5. Totally different. It made me cry and it made me determined to get even more educated and fueled a fire in me to be an advocate for him.

There are no magic words, and it's not ever going to be easy. But with all the tools available, a good support group. You will be okay.
My most important pieces of advice from a mom who has been there, and had the one of the worst case scenieros with a BP/ADD/ODD child:

1. Stay in the guilt only long enough to feel it and move on. Then use that feeling to fuel a quest for education and advocacy for her.
* Let yourself go through the grieveing process*
(member this post ) http://www.addforums.com/forums/showthread.php?t=42315 you need to do this for her now.

2. Never forget you need to take care of you. Not only for yourself, but more now than ever for her. Dealing with our own issues is exhausting enough, dealing with it for them is overwhelming and can bury you. Even if it's only a few times a week. Take at least 30 minutes for you, to decompress.
Depending on what you like to do, read a book, take a bubble bath, go to lunch with a friend. Something. Or you will drown. That is the one thing I really made a point to attempt to do. Coming here and sharing and helping others made a difference. At the end of the day, looking back I made it through amazingly well. It wasn't until the end of it all I fell apart. And even then I made it through so much better than I would have years ago, without support, and education.

Take care, Laf...
Please let us know how it's going. If you need any of the reference info, links etc that I used to research ...let me know.

Hope :)

Crazy~Feet
10-10-07, 10:44 AM
Well, I had been wondering how you were doing, Laf. I am sorry you had to come back to us with such a sad heart!

Space just recently had her first great depression, and that pales in comparison to Lizzie's story...and it's still hard as hell for me to say. You have great courage, Laf, please keep us posted as to the steps Lizzie takes forward.

And let us know how you are holding up too. We do care about you, hun.

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Much love from all of us!

~boots~
10-10-07, 12:09 PM
, Im feeling guilty. .:o :o awww..you are doing a great job..don't feel guilty :o

Lafnalot
10-11-07, 11:16 AM
Thank you every one for your kindesses.

After I thanked her for being honest with us and confessing about the voices and the 'dead people' she sees ;Lizz said "So do I get a treat for being honest?" She's still a normal kid. I told her no, that being honest is just what we do, but she could have a treat for working so hard.

She was so enamoured with the reaction to her confession(she wasnt called a liar or weird etc) that she tells everyone now :eek: A boy at school said he understood that he once saw his dead dog and she replied( a little haughtily) How can YOU see dead people when you dont have a MOOD like mine?" I reminded her it was called a mood disorder and to try to respond nicer next time.

She is the square peg, as JustHope stated...she is begging me to homeschool her again. Every day she asks "Did you talk it over with Daddy and Robert?" I am seriously leaning towards it. There are choices aside from that, another school in the area takes tuition kids, also there are two Christian Academys which take tuition kids. The schools would be 'easier" (as if any school is easier) than homeschooling, as if I get a job outside the home, she will be taken care of from 7:30 to 4 pm. Unless she gets sick etc.

Her behavioural therapist comes to the house, and we had our first meeting last Tuesday and it went so well. It was a better setting for her to observe Lizz, as it was her relaxed environment. She has worked with aspergers kids before so knows how to talk with Lizz for sucessful conversations. She pegged every one of Lizz's traits in one afternoon and had such a good report (re-poor? spell check waiter!) with her that Lizz was beggin her to stay for dinner.This Saturday they will go to our local zoo which is amazing and still free. I will let her take the camera although Im making a neck chain for it jusssssssssssssssst in case.

Im mentally drained, it seems every day is a new appointment either for her or myself. But I also know how luck y we are and how blessed. So we take whats right in front of us, one at a time.

Again, thank you all, I know Ive been away a bit, went into my own funk for awhile . I tend to get quiet and lurk.

justhope
10-24-07, 11:34 PM
Laf,

I know you are going through a lot , and I totally understand the lurking or disconnecting thing. Been there , done that.
I just wanted to check in, bump the post and let you know I was thinking about you tonight. I hope things are better? When you are able, let us know how it's going.


Take care,
Hope

Lafnalot
10-25-07, 11:32 PM
Thank you. I am just drained. I worry I worry I worry, which we all know does no good. She seems to get angrier every day, more negative. Today was a good day, her behavioural therapist came and she is always happy and light hearted afterwards, she is goodfor Lizzie.

She chose to take an F in math rather than make up work she hid. I let her know it wasnt her choice...today she said she will stay after tomorrow and make up some of the work if the teacher would accept her apaology.

Thankfully , her "dead people' sighting is getting less and less for now.

I just am drained, she has always been a high maintenance kid, but even more so now.

How are you all doing?

justhope
10-26-07, 08:47 AM
Oh Laf, hon I know....I really really do...

It's a shame...Kee kept me running in circles for years....if I had not been medicated and known to take sometime for myself earlier this year when he pulled his crap....I would not have survived. I love my son with my whole being, but other than the mommy side of me...I don't miss him in my house...that is horribile isn't it. Even though he is a runaway, I know he is safe, fed, warm, and clean...I talk to him once every other week if not more now...but my house is so different.... ~sigh~ It's okay Laf...it's not that you don't love her....being frustrated and drained is all part of it....don't feel guilty...and don't forget to do something for you...

Glad the "dead" people thing is disappearing...do you think she did thigs to get attention? Instintively knowing she was out of control, but not being able to ask because she is a child? Just curious....

One day at a time Laf....that is all you can do...

Take care, always an ear or shoulder here if you need us...
My email & my IM are up...feel free to use them anytime...BP bad enough, BP mom, BP kid...wow what a combo....we need all the love and support we can get....:)

Lafnalot
10-26-07, 12:06 PM
The look she gave me when the doctor asked her if she saw people that maybe we didnt see was proof to me that she wasnt faking this one...she had that deer in the headlights look and hung her head. She was ashamed. Dont get me wrong, she is definately a drama queen packed into her tiny frame, but this ones real. I was shocked. She always had many many invisible friends, as soon as she was able to really talk clearly she had them, then it became "mamma, rebecca (her first invisible friend) is hurt" or "mamma Link has a sword in his belly" or "Bomma looks like he is on fire". I never paid attention I just assumed she was talking about her invisible friends...in a way she was, huh? But evidentaly, Dr Momodu (her pdoc) said this is not unusual for younger BP kids, enough so that he asks all the children now. I suppose because when many of us are manic we can almost become delusional and mimic schizophrenia in many ways, this must be the BP childs brains interpretation...who knows. I do know she used to talk while in her room alone, it often scared her father, and then would deny talking to anyone. She would suddenly burst out "Me no speaka matricha" and leave what ever room she was in...I just always chalked it up to Lizz's marching to her own drummer. It gets worse when she is under stress, and having an actively alcoholic father causes much much stress. Stress she didnt feel she was allowed to discuss before now. Sometimes I just want to slap him, but that would be as frutiless as blaming myself for her family history of BP, ADHD, Aspergers etc.

Since I have tuberous sclerosis and it is known to cause autism in children, she will be needing MRI's on her brain, kidneys, lungs and heart etc.

She wanted to see daddy for the first time in weeks and weeks so she is going this weekend. He is aware and logically upset over all this so I will have to make sure I remind him not to coddle her too much. She must live in this world. She still has to clean up her room, pick up her toys , go to school and take baths, ya know? Grandmom has agreed to be the person in charge, so all his decisions must be ok'd by her. I reminded her if he so much as drinks one beer he will have to take me to court for visitations with her.

~boots~
10-26-07, 12:09 PM
Went to Lizz's pdoc yesterday, she has a new dx of bipolar. She is seeing people who arent there, scarred up of bloody people who speak to her in a language she calls "matricha" that she cant understand. Evidently that is from the anxiety and not psychosis. I almost cried in front of her when she confessed this to him. He took me aside afterwards and explained the situtaion to me. We are going to try singular therapy and do blood work (thyroid etc). In two months if there are no significant changes we will talk meds.

She made two suicidal statements in a rage which promted me to have the mobile response unit come out to the house. They were fantastic and she is now enrolled in so many services. She even has medicaid now, so I can take her to the docs any time she needs me to do so.

Aspergers wasn't enough. Now she has to be saddled with this, which I know she got from my side of the family.Im not feeling self pity, Im feeling guilty. Though my mother says guilt is self pity but in a different form, so Im trying to butch it up a bit.

She absolutely fears and dreads school, to the point where, when I picked her up out of our bed last night to put her in hers, she not even awake said again "Please dont make me go back there Mamma" When her therapist came to the house yesterday and worked with her, we had an evak afterwards. She picked up on her anxiety, not frm just wat she voiced but from her behaviours.

Im so grateful we live in the times we do and these people exist and really care about their work and clients.how old is she ? ;-(

Lafnalot
10-26-07, 12:11 PM
She is ten, but emotionally younger

~boots~
10-26-07, 12:12 PM
oh dear..i hate having ADD sometimes...I just browsed your thread..and realized..

I need to pay attention to someone other than myself sometimes...
I hope with all my heart your daughter is ok ..

xxxhugsxx

Lafnalot
10-26-07, 12:14 PM
No no no...You are simply another human dear heart. I would forget if she wasnt mine :)
I have alot of faith that she will be, the ride there is just bumpy right now. Thanks for everything.

~boots~
10-26-07, 12:17 PM
Thank you. I am just drained. I worry I worry I worry, which we all know does no good. She seems to get angrier every day, more negative. Today was a good day, her behavioural therapist came and she is always happy and light hearted afterwards, she is goodfor Lizzie.

She chose to take an F in math rather than make up work she hid. I let her know it wasnt her choice...today she said she will stay after tomorrow and make up some of the work if the teacher would accept her apaology.

Thankfully , her "dead people' sighting is getting less and less for now.

I just am drained, she has always been a high maintenance kid, but even more so now.

How are you all doing?SHE'S ONLY 10..oops caps lock.
sorry..since when were 10 year olds graded??
I must be getting old..

Lafnalot
10-26-07, 12:25 PM
Oh honey, she even switches classes, Mr devico for science, Mrs Barille for Language arts etc...they are trying to bring up our towns sad slow and backwards educational system. How ever she is being eval'ed by the child study team and getting an IEP within one week, Im waiting on the letter from her school as we speak. The saddest part about our town is there is alot of predjudism. She had to come in to ask what color we are when she was about five or six because someone called her a cracker, and its gotten worse since then.She has been punched in the face in first grade for not backing down to a little girl who wanted her job of the day, she has been given a black eye by another girl when she hit Lizz with her fully loaded back pack in the face.The real irony comes into play when you realizer she is actually 1/4 native american (Im half) she just appears all caucasian. Sorta ironic.

~boots~
10-26-07, 12:37 PM
sorry..but WTF is a cracker??? apart from a bikkie ;-(

I honestly HATE to hear stories of kiddies who are/were suffering..it SLAMS me back to Earth...

sigh..happy happy mood gone...
Lizzy..lets go play :-) LOL..she'll cheer me up

~boots~
10-26-07, 12:40 PM
we'll go to the park, and get on the see-saw..then she can laugh while I puke..and then we can get on the SWINGS..and try our best to beat each other..and see who can go the highest, enough for the chains to relax..and scare the poop out of ourselves..LOL..

yep..that's a plan..

~boots~
10-26-07, 12:41 PM
I gtg before I get all blah blah blah

xx
sorry...

Lafnalot
10-26-07, 01:18 PM
Lol she would adore you...Mamma is old and finicky--she doesnt do swings as her butt seems to hang too far off it each time she tries :)

Lafnalot
10-28-07, 03:19 PM
Lizzie got beat up again in school on friday. Twice.I am pulling her from the school. My friend Carol Ann who is on the board of the afso will be her advocate. Following is the letter I will present tomorrow at the meeting with the principal:

Dear Mrs. T
Subject: Lizz N.

Since my daughter, Lizz N’s enrollment in W. Elementary in 2002, she has been subjected to of physical and verbal abuse, including violence resulting in bruises, and racial slurs. Not once have I been notified by any member of the school staff. I found out because of the visible bruises, Lizz’s panic attacks, and nightmares about school. I, then went to school and confirmed that these things had definitely taken place.

At age six Lizz came to me and asked “Mamma, what color are we?” She had never noticed color differences in a negative way. This was the day she was called a ‘’cracker’’ and from that day forward she has been mocked and ridiculed because of her color, her size, her looks and the clothes she wears. This is prejudice and abuse and will not be tolerated!

Friday, October 26, 2007 two different but frighteningly similar events occurred. In the bathroom during recess, Ruth D punched pummeled and screamed at her saying that the “whole class” wanted to hurt her., exacerbating Lizz's fear of school and physical reprisal. When she told Mrs. M, the response was: “I will take care of it “(which is the pat answer that is always given while NOTHING has ever been done.) Later in gym class, Kim F, punched pummeled and screamed at her. When Lizz told the gym teacher, she received the same: “I will take care of it” followed by the same NOTHING being done. Lizz was not looked at, talked to, checked on, taken to the nurse or in any way protected. Above all, I, her mother was NEVER contacted.

Her parents, and her siblings are determined that this will not continue. What has takenplace during her schooling is unacceptable and shocking. This means that we have to findanother educational placement for Lizz. Like every other U.S. citizen, Lizz is entitled to a ‘’free and appropriate education”. Since W. Elementary School is unable to provide a SAFE, healthy, productive school environment, she will not be returning. I am requesting that she be put on homebound instruction immediately.

In May of last year, Lizz’s academic delays and difficulties were discussed with her teacher and with yourself. At that time it was determined that a CST evaluation was needed. This was not even initiated over the summer. Therefore, in September, I submitted a written request via fax. Nothing was done. I have not even had the courtesy of a response. Having once again exceeded the thirty day period allowed by law, I hand delivered a written request nearly 2 weeks ago. This evaluation needs to be expedited. We cannot add the emotional damage which necessarily occurs when a child cannot ‘’keep up’’ to the damage which has been done by the physical and verbal abuse of some of the students and the ‘’neglect’’ of the staff to deal with these abuses.

Sincerely,

CC: W. school superintendent
Cape May County Superintendent of Schools
New Jersey State Board of Education

Matt S.
10-28-07, 03:28 PM
Lizzie got beat up again in school on friday. Twice.I am pulling her from the school. My friend Carol Ann who is on the board of the afso will be her advocate. Following is the letter I will present tomorrow at the meeting with the principal:

Dear Mrs. T
Subject: Lizz N.

Since my daughter, Lizz N’s enrollment in W. Elementary in 2002, she has been subjected to of physical and verbal abuse, including violence resulting in bruises, and racial slurs. Not once have I been notified by any member of the school staff. I found out because of the visible bruises, Lizz’s panic attacks, and nightmares about school. I, then went to school and confirmed that these things had definitely taken place.

At age six Lizz came to me and asked “Mamma, what color are we?” She had never noticed color differences in a negative way. This was the day she was called a ‘’cracker’’ and from that day forward she has been mocked and ridiculed because of her color, her size, her looks and the clothes she wears. This is prejudice and abuse and will not be tolerated!

Friday, October 26, 2007 two different but frighteningly similar events occurred. In the bathroom during recess, Ruth D punched pummeled and screamed at her saying that the “whole class” wanted to hurt her., exacerbating Lizz's fear of school and physical reprisal. When she told Mrs. M, the response was: “I will take care of it “(which is the pat answer that is always given while NOTHING has ever been done.) Later in gym class, Kim F, punched pummeled and screamed at her. When Lizz told the gym teacher, she received the same: “I will take care of it” followed by the same NOTHING being done. Lizz was not looked at, talked to, checked on, taken to the nurse or in any way protected. Above all, I, her mother was NEVER contacted.

Her parents, and her siblings are determined that this will not continue. What has takenplace during her schooling is unacceptable and shocking. This means that we have to findanother educational placement for Lizz. Like every other U.S. citizen, Lizz is entitled to a ‘’free and appropriate education”. Since W. Elementary School is unable to provide a SAFE, healthy, productive school environment, she will not be returning. I am requesting that she be put on homebound instruction immediately.

In May of last year, Lizz’s academic delays and difficulties were discussed with her teacher and with yourself. At that time it was determined that a CST evaluation was needed. This was not even initiated over the summer. Therefore, in September, I submitted a written request via fax. Nothing was done. I have not even had the courtesy of a response. Having once again exceeded the thirty day period allowed by law, I hand delivered a written request nearly 2 weeks ago. This evaluation needs to be expedited. We cannot add the emotional damage which necessarily occurs when a child cannot ‘’keep up’’ to the damage which has been done by the physical and verbal abuse of some of the students and the ‘’neglect’’ of the staff to deal with these abuses.

Sincerely,

CC: W. school superintendent
Cape May County Superintendent of Schools
New Jersey State Board of Education
Bravo... let the school system have it, I think that is the most empowering thing to do, bullying is something that shouldn't be tolerated at all. Good Luck I hope your daughter will be safe from now on.:D

~boots~
10-28-07, 09:01 PM
good Luck with it..Poor Lil lizzy..
My son was bullied at school..I threated to send the police in,..it soon stopped..that may help you

Lafnalot
10-28-07, 09:20 PM
Today finally I cried, the article about bp in kids, pulling her from school etc, it just finally came out. I feel much more in touch now.

~boots~
10-29-07, 03:52 AM
good ;-) sometimes a good cry releases all the pent-up anger & frustration..

ozchris
10-29-07, 04:14 AM
Hey Lafnalot I'm sorry to hear about the hard times you and your daughter are going through at the moment, you sound like a really great Mum and she's really lucky to have someone like you in her life.

Just thought I'd ask if she's on any meds for her ADD as I've heard these can sometimes cause or worsen hallucinations in rare cases. I'm sure Lizz's PDoc has already made sure she isn't but I thought I'd ask just in case.

I hope things get better for you guys soon.

justhope
10-29-07, 11:08 AM
Laf, you should be proud of yourself. It takes courage to fight "city hall" ...
Don't take one bit of crap off them. I got fed up with Keenan too. Once the school phychiatrist for the Board of Ed got involved he was appalled at how Kee was handled. The fact I was told he didn't qualify for an IEP, by a school counsler, robbing him of his rights and leaving him open to continue to receive an education and enviroment for "normal" kids.....they quickly complied once they knew I knew what was going on, because I took the time to educate myself and become Kee's advocate, if they had not scrambled to fix it immediately, rethink his expulsion, and the fact Kee never made it back, I would have filed a suit against them.

Get in there and find out what else you can do, to make them accountable for her being mistreated, and the fact they never responded to your requests in the time limit allowed?

Bravo!

It's not easy, but man it makes it so much better when you are educated and acting as an advocate instead of standing there like a deer in headlights!
Somewhere to focus all that anger and frustration...much healthier than stewiing in it....

I hope the homeschooling will give her a break to recover from all the traumatic events...poor thing...

Please stay in touch and let us know how it's going....GET' Em MOM!

Lafnalot
10-29-07, 08:26 PM
She is home now, the meeting went decently though not without its stress points. Mrs T is an educated balanced woman who is taking over a mess of a school. She told me everything necessary to get Lizz home bound instruction (of course we know the small time alotted will not be enough so I will homeschool of my own volition) Today she had no melt downs, and only one tantrum which a nap took care of (she had been awake much of the night according to her father). Her behavioural therapy assistant stayed with her while we were at the meeting and took time off her own personal day to work with Lizz during the meeting.'

I give my friend Carol Ann, my sister Gabby (Both members of the ACFSO and parents of special needs kids themselves) all the credit. They literally directed me and placed the proper words I wanted in my mouth. I talked, they interpretted, allowing me time to calm down.

I have a spiritual beleif system that tells me The Creator gives me the tools I need to do the foot work. You guys, my friends, my sisters and the right organizations have given me a map of the foot work, I am grateful and in awe.

Lafnalot
11-17-07, 01:04 AM
Im homeschooling Lizz now, for now. I will be placing her in a new public school as soon as possible. This will be for now. She is progressing with her behavioral therapist fairly well, but her melt downs are still gargantuan and her sleep issues still rear up daily.

Some days I just tell her I need five minutes of quiet, just five minutes.

~boots~
11-17-07, 02:01 AM
small steps....excellent :-)

Lafnalot
11-25-07, 04:44 PM
Lizz has been with her father for two days now. She has had therapy on weekends, which were all that was available at that time, so she hasnt seen him in a few weeks. I was glad for the break for her (I wont lie, I was also glad for the break from her. I love her but she is a high maintenance kid). He is even doing the work I sent with her by her side.

We had a break through in math which was an absolute delight and hand clapping time. (I dunno if I should be posting this in this arena or in the aspergers arena, or in the arena for me as the adult with bipolar because it all is so intertwined. I will leave it up to the mods to decide if it belongs somewhere else-lol.)

The joy of homeschooling is the ability to literally go at the speed of the child. She is whipping through language arts (give her a formula to follow and she aces stuff) but was struggling with the math section we were on (Roman numerals, Mayan Numerals etc...other counting systems) and was just melting down everytime we went through it. She began to work on self control with her behavioural therapist and I watched her start to get upset with the lesson she was working on, put it away, come back to it later, put it away, come back , etc etc. I gave her a sheet with the notes she had hand written that i put in typed form for her...her eyes lit up while working on it this time (again, give her a formula) and she aced every question in that area. She was overjoyed, wanting high fives at each correct answer.

She also voiced and named emotions other than anger recently. She was lent a game card from her older sister which broke and she fet responsible for it breaking. Instead of coming out crying and yelling and being angry, she was crying and saying how badly she felt for Sammie, how she felt responsible and wanted to get it replaced for her. She spoke of how she felt Sammie would feel having lost all her saved games ( new thing, empathy)This is NEW for Lizz, I was just in awe and let her talk only adding small statements to keep her flow of words coming.

Then a day or so later, she got her feelings hurt by a friend. Instead, again, of being angry and simply throwing a tantrum, we talked about feeling HURT and how she wanted her friend to know she had hurt her.

These are ground breaking things for Lizz. She is able to begin to empathize, name not only her Emotions (!!!)but what she feels someone else may be feeling!! Evrything is not labeled "anger".

Remember when your child first took a step without your hands holding them? Or when they began to talk, no matter how behind or ahead of other kids they were? This was the feeling I have had the pleasure of feeling watching her begin to explore the abstract area of the world and relationships with people.

Tuesday we go see her doctor. There has been some screw up with her insurance all the month of November so I havent been able to get her blood work done. Part of me is feeling like I should have known to get her lab work done those two weeks of October she had it, but my brain logically knows, who would have known? Not to mention between all her therapys (at least three or four appointments a week) and my own something was going to slip through the cracks. Having her out of the school system has helped immensly with her anxiety. She mentioned to me the other day "Ive seen no dead people since that one day in school!" So I don't know if Dr M will want to medicate her as she has made so much progress since then.

We shall see