Dory
10-13-07, 10:52 PM
Hi! :-)
For the first time in my adult working life I will be taking a break from working. Scary? YES. I am a self sufficient 28 year old, I try to depend on no one meaning... I pay all my own bills live independently etc. With all of that out of the way..... here is my question.
I guess I have been fairly lucky in that I have always had good jobs. I have no college degree. I've worked in a variety of job fields. I've done tedious office work, manual labor, warehouse, a BRIEF stint in fast food as a teenager. I worked at a retail job for 7 years, where i never once recieved a raise and every day the threat of losing my job came up. I finally got up the courage to try some thing else. I am currently employed with a large insurance company as a "licensed property/casualty specialst" ie i sell property insurance. I've done fairly well at it, but I just feel like no matter WHAT I do, i'm a failure even if I'm not REALLY a failure. I get into "employment ruts" where I'm terrified of change even though i know its time to change because of that fear of failing AGAIN at something. The office I am employed with is closing, due to no fault of mine, and with the support of my fiance I have decided not to rush into the first job that will pay the bills. I'm supposed to be taking my time and deciding what I can do to make a living that will make me happy. How long is this going to take me.... months maybe, hopefully not longer than that! My QUESTION is..... Im not particularly motived to do ...... anything. Im content just being content. I have NO idea what I would want to do..... and even if I THINK i want to do it now, much like everything else, i'm sure in a while I"ll be bored with it, but too scared to leave. Anyone else have this problem? Anyone else overcame something like this? Any suggestions?
I should add that I am ADD inattentive and I am unmedicated. :rolleyes:
For the first time in my adult working life I will be taking a break from working. Scary? YES. I am a self sufficient 28 year old, I try to depend on no one meaning... I pay all my own bills live independently etc. With all of that out of the way..... here is my question.
I guess I have been fairly lucky in that I have always had good jobs. I have no college degree. I've worked in a variety of job fields. I've done tedious office work, manual labor, warehouse, a BRIEF stint in fast food as a teenager. I worked at a retail job for 7 years, where i never once recieved a raise and every day the threat of losing my job came up. I finally got up the courage to try some thing else. I am currently employed with a large insurance company as a "licensed property/casualty specialst" ie i sell property insurance. I've done fairly well at it, but I just feel like no matter WHAT I do, i'm a failure even if I'm not REALLY a failure. I get into "employment ruts" where I'm terrified of change even though i know its time to change because of that fear of failing AGAIN at something. The office I am employed with is closing, due to no fault of mine, and with the support of my fiance I have decided not to rush into the first job that will pay the bills. I'm supposed to be taking my time and deciding what I can do to make a living that will make me happy. How long is this going to take me.... months maybe, hopefully not longer than that! My QUESTION is..... Im not particularly motived to do ...... anything. Im content just being content. I have NO idea what I would want to do..... and even if I THINK i want to do it now, much like everything else, i'm sure in a while I"ll be bored with it, but too scared to leave. Anyone else have this problem? Anyone else overcame something like this? Any suggestions?
I should add that I am ADD inattentive and I am unmedicated. :rolleyes: