Hey guys, I love to be positive nad help people, but I really need some thoughts from you guys right now. I have ADHD, was diagnosed as a child, and I also suffer from depression. I fall into these spells of getting morbidly depressed for small reasons, and I overthink everything. I have consistent thoughts of suicide at times, and although I would not try to act on those thoughts again, I just need some support. Is it odd that I consider this so often? Do others do hte same or am I alone here? I just don't understand it. Thanks, Justin.

Depression can often accompany ADD it may be worth having evaluated.

If I had insurance I would :) Thankfully I went to sleep and now am feeling fine heh. I just don't get why I have random thoughts like that.

I'm glad you are feeling better :-)

ps..we all have these random weird thoughts ;-)

Mood Disorders in general go with ADHD, I was diagnosed as a child but mood wise I have more of a problem with getting manic, but we have a whole "cycling team" for the bipolars so I imagine that the depressives have a team as well, if not stop by the bipolar forums, depression is a cycle too, so there's no reason why you couldn't be part of the ADDF cycling team too right?

luckily for me..I am just in gaga land enough (most) of the time, not to notice what's going on around me..

maybe though..that's not a good thing..I'm not sure...

Thanks for the input guys, I'm glad I am feeling better. And I will for sure check out the cycling team :) And let me just say that I have been fairly overwhelmed by the responces and conversations I have had here. It's so nice to talk to a group of people who understands what life is like with ADD. It's been a blessing for sure and I hope that I can help everyone here as much as you are helping me :) Thanks again!

Are you on any medication? Because it could also be a side-effect of that.

I was on Adderall XR, but to save money I went to the generic which is not extended release. All of a sudden I thought I was depressed again (I had chronic depression as a young teen) and it scared me. I would be driving down the road and be really tempted just to drive off a cliff, and what scared me the most is it didn't even bother me I was to die. It's like I was so sad and I felt the only way to solve it was death.

Well it worried be because I had become this truly happy person, and all of a sudden I was depressed again everyday esp at night. So I stopped taking my medicine for a few days and realized all my depressive thoughts went away. Turns out the medicine with it's sudden drop off made me crash and feel depressed. I am now back on XR, yeah it may cost more, but it's worth it.

Hey guys, I love to be positive nad help people, but I really need some thoughts from you guys right now. I have ADHD, was diagnosed as a child, and I also suffer from depression. I fall into these spells of getting morbidly depressed for small reasons, and I overthink everything. I have consistent thoughts of suicide at times, and although I would not try to act on those thoughts again, I just need some support. Is it odd that I consider this so often? Do others do hte same or am I alone here? I just don't understand it. Thanks, Justin.Hi Justin. I certainly relate to the depression as I've suffered from it my entire life. If you're like me, it's not something that just goes away, so you might look into getting some treatment for it. But ironically, what tkdchic78 said is right - medications (antidepressants, in my case) that are supposed to be helping, actually cause me to have more thoughts of self-harm. Like you - I don't believe I would ever act on any of these thoughts, but for some reason it has become exciting to entertain the thoughts again. Weird.

I have one other theory about why I am having self-harm thoughts again. After 10 years of doing nothing but running from thoughts and stuffing my feelings, I am back in therapy again and beginning to face realities. Many years ago, thoughts of suicide were a security blanket for me. I always had the option there with me in case things got too bad - it was a back door - a way out. Thinking of the possibility of suicide always gave me comfort back then. It was always just thoughts, nothing ever attempted.

So I almost wonder if, in this time of stress today and facing long-buried demons, if I've just dug up my old security blanket to help me get through. Plus I have all of these crazy emotions emerging from therapy and who best to turn them on but the person I hate the most - myself.

if your having thoughts of suicide, which might seem normal u need to reach out for help. ITS SERIOUS.

Sorry to hear you were having a bad time and am glad you are feeling better. I think of suicide sometimes as well but know that I would never act on it. I have Bipolar II so tend to be a rapid cycler. One hour I want to die, the next I am feeling happy and good about everything in life. But there is always a black cloud and I wonder when the good times are going to come crashing down on me. So no, you are not alone.

My guess is that there is history and information lacking here. Generally people are not suicidal for "no reason".

Generally people have unacknowledged reasons for why they feel so crappy. We don't live in vacuums. Environment needs to be acknowledged.

You mention substance use (alcohol?) in one of your other posts. Do you come from a family where there was ADD or substance abuse?

If so, these factors tend to create a terribly unstable home for a young person while their emotional development is occuring. (Emotional centres of the brain are developing until age 12 or so.)