TheZuL
11-04-07, 01:53 AM
So tonight I participated in being an extra for a music video that will go on MTV...and while most people would return quite stoked I came back pretty sad..
Mind you, I've had a good amount of v-dka and I'm emotionally drunk but still...I came to realize..I flirted w/ 2 girls that were pretty easy by most peoples terms..and I kind of had something going w/ a 3rd who wasn't so easy and shared a mutual friend.
On our drive back we were talking about it and I came to conclude, once again, that I give too much of a F**** about what people think...
Damnit, can't there be a cure for the shame reflex? It holds me back from so much..even w/ self-medication..By now if you follow my posts you can tell I'm quite bothered with how my ADD has affected me..I want to fix up and not go through this feeling of hollowness..
Mind you, I've had a good amount of v-dka and I'm emotionally drunk but still...I came to realize..I flirted w/ 2 girls that were pretty easy by most peoples terms..and I kind of had something going w/ a 3rd who wasn't so easy and shared a mutual friend.
On our drive back we were talking about it and I came to conclude, once again, that I give too much of a F**** about what people think...
Damnit, can't there be a cure for the shame reflex? It holds me back from so much..even w/ self-medication..By now if you follow my posts you can tell I'm quite bothered with how my ADD has affected me..I want to fix up and not go through this feeling of hollowness..