Today I downed my 31st pill.

During the first ten or so days I had unlimited energy to focus and do whatever lay in my path. I hit the gym three times a week, ate right, scored highest in my class, and generally became a posterboy for ADHD treatment.

About two weeks ago things changed, my mood and reserves became shallower. Since then I've been in an emotional haze. I feel disassociated from life, the people that should matter to me. I feel I've become dull and monotanous. To ice this cliche, I feel like I am just going through the motions.

I don't know if this is from the medication or not, but nonetheless, it is here.

My Doc upped me from 30 to 50 today. I felt the good effects again, in moderation. Then things got weird with my best friend, so I ended up going stag for the evening. We are holding a party tomorrow, and the Vy made me want to organize, clean and focus. He wanted to go out on the town. The way things are going, I think I might end up going stag a lot more often.

These are reflections from a Vyvanse user. I believe I will update this periodically.

Before you were on Vyvanse did you have that disassociated feeling at all?

Your leaving out a gap from day 10 to day 17. Was it a gradual change? Sudden change? Were you introduced to a stressful situation? Did you ever go back to feeling how you did during that time period? Could you consider any outside factors that could have caused that?

I don't think that the going stag thing is that straight forward. For me, I feel motivated to do what I want and weigh it's importance in the day. From what you explained it seems more like you are doing the same thing and becoming more comfortable with being alone.

I may be wrong. I'm only 6 days in and have only felt cloudy due to how little I eat or drink. I'm constantly smiling and happy regardless of what I'm doing.

What does 'going stag' mean?

Meaning, without anyone else. Lone wolf, going solo, etc..

I found that while I definitely feel the effects of vyvanse with the energy and such I also know that when I hyper focus now - I'm the death star laser beam and almost forget to talk to people or socialize.

One other effect I'm trying to figure out is when something happens that pushes anxiety or excitement up - it goes way up and I have a hard time to calm back down. So it amplifies the up emotions more than I expected. I'm also taking 100mg a day. But 90mg doesn't do enough and 100mg almost seems too much.

I'm still on 50mg a day, but I am seriously considering going cold turkey tomorrow.

I talked to my old psychologist about how the Vy is making me feel, and he thinks that I am experiencing amphetamine blues. I feel like I have detached from the current of my old life, and I am just drifting now, with no real sense of satisfaction from things in my daily life. I got a B in one of my classes because I didn't get the paper in until a week after my extension ended. I would sit every day in front of my laptop, wanting to work... but I just couldn't get anything out. Now I go back for spring semester in two weeks, but I feel no drive or happiness. Something has to change, else my life will crumble like a house of cards.

Also, I had a stress/anxiety attack today where I ended up yelling at my boyfriend. I assumed our relationship is on the rocks, but I don't really know because I bashed my cell into pieces after I hung up. This sort of behavior... isn't normal for me. We have been together for a year and a half and I've never yelled before.

These meds are strong stuff... and I seem to have developed a tolerance much faster than a lot of other people here. I guess I'm just not cut out for Vyvance, and now I'm wary of trying anything else.

I was put on Vyvanse for a week. I am the inattentive/impulsive type.
I came to find that Vyvanse made me irritable and depressed, I also had rage attacks (I was angry and ****y for no reason) when I came down or before I took my dose. My dr. prescribed me strattera, which by itself sucks. So, today I took Vyvnanse and Strattera and I'm calm yet focused.
I did not ask my dr. if it was ok to combine both although I researched if there were any drug interactions and I didnt find any. Eventually I will have to inform her if the combo works like i'm praying it will.
As of right now, I'm feeling good, maybe normal is the word I might be looking for. Although being normal in my opinion is overrated.
Keep in mind I had a panic attack last night with Strattera alone.
My combo may not be my best idea but I will keep you posted.

I think Vyvnase is a medication that is not meant to be taken alone, I believe a stabilizer would help to make this med more effective for some. I've heard bad and good, and the bad usually consists of depression, irritability, and or rage attacks. I personally would encourage my doctor to find something that could help to prevent the irritability and depression before I quit. (This is what I should have done with my Dr. but I was so mad and depressed I didn't even want to give it another shot) Now, I'm realizing Vyvnase did alot for me when it was working.

Then again, do what is best for you. If the med doesnt work, it simply just doesnt work for you.

Good luck