View Full Version : definatly a link between bdd/eating disorders/ ocd/substance aduse etc


lanaxxx
01-09-08, 08:54 AM
hi there.

i'm new to this forum.
i was diagnosed with add about 6 months ago, and every problem i've been diagnosed with has majorly improverd beyond possible relief as they are all symptoms of add.-and i'd like to communicate and share tips/ideas and stratergies with other adults with add.so hi there!

just a quick intro: my story is long and complicated-heres a run down in point form (if u cant be bothered reading just skip to the last paragraph in capitals-very imp!)

-i've known i had add for about 7 years b4 i saw a dr who knew his stuff and agreed with me. but by the time i saw him i had given up and thought i didnt

-i'm 23 years old

-theres definately a link between add and the following:
(i know from personal experience)

-eatting disorders-i've had a long history with, and from when i was 13-20 i was dangerously ill with anorexia-spent many many years in hospital-at times literally death bed-
HOWEVER!
i'm very healthy and fit now physically, i eat! i'm physically well and rewcovered!!i still struggle with my self perception, but am alot better at fighting anorexic thoughts- and realising they are not true. (yipee!)

-have been also now labeled with bdd, as i still struggle with my self perception

-my dr said (and me and my family can see now)had my add been diagnosed with add in my childhood, its likely i would have never gotten so ill with anorexia in the first place-which was amazing to here someone say-both relieving i now have the answer, but also sad cos i nearly lost my life to anorexia

-for about 2 years i used to buy add medication on the street and have an excess amount every day for those 2 years. i was a total addict. but i loved the medication so much! i discovered it once when a friend gave me a few dex at a party. i was hooked. the only thing that got me over the hardcore addiction was a year in hospital with add-that was about 3 years ago-up till i was dianosed i used to take speed on a regular basis and used it daily at times when i've had jobs. i had no idea why i loved amphetamines so much. now i know! its my add. i know get the meds i love every day-in a controlled healthy dosage and love it

-i also have been diagnosed with ocd

-servere depression

-anxiety

and ive got a very addictive personality-ive been addicted badly to excercise. i'm a heavy smoker

all i've these illnesses i've experienced pretty badly. and for so many years i asked countless dr's 'do i have add'? they all said 'no'
until i saw my wonderful specialist-i had given up but i told him my history and that first appointment he told me it was add. and my life has been so much better since!

my medication is helping so much-its like replaced a part of my brain that always should have been there but never was
-so many ?'s have been answered
-and i now know the full reason why i got anorexia and all the other stuff in the first place, i work on it with my psycologist weekly-who i've seen for about 8 years-he said since ive been on the meds my progress in recovering from my anxiety/bdd/anorexic thinking/ocd/addictions has never been better! and i know its true-i can now think better to understand the reasons 'why' i became unwell in the first place

it'd take years to explain to anyone-but i know i'm on the rtight track. i now realise i was just a little girl who was trying to find something to calm down all the chaos inside her head when i realised focusing on my body-obsessing-not eatting would calm it down quite a bit, things didnt feel 'like something is wrong' all the time, and gave it meaning-in anorexia i found what i thought was my normal thinking-starvation wasted my brain-which calmed the chaotic noise. i now know that was just a way of me dealing with the 'chaos' (my add) and that it wasnt the issue of my body that was the problem-it was my undetected add.

i now know 'nothing is wrong' anymore-or ever was-tho i still have the thought it my brain it is-i've learnt to combat that and ignore/not engage/ sit thro or argue against and win over that feeling. i dont react to it anymore. i love myself and my body-being diagnosed with add was like having a big giant circle drawn around all the problems of my life, they wern't illnesses they where symptoms of my add! so life is lovely for me now-still hard work-long way to go-but really working and know i'll get there.theres never been such a positive ending i could have hoped for!


THE SAD THING IS, I HAVE BEEN THRO EVERY POSSIBLE EATTING DISORDER TREATMENT PROBGRAM OR POSSIBLE IDEA OR AVENUE OF HELP IN MY STATE IN AURALIA WHICH IS VICTORIA-THIS STATE HAS THE BEST IN THE COUNTRY AS WELL AS NSW. NEVER ONCE HAS ANY DOCTOR OR ANY EXPERT EVER MENTIONED THE LINK TO ME-I'VE SEEN THE BEST OF THE BEST IN EATTING DISORDERS IN AUSTRALIA. EVEN WHEN I SUGGESTED I HAD ADD I WAS LAUGHED AT, IT WASNT EVEN EXPLORED-ITS LIKE A SECRET FACT THAT NEEDS TO BE DISCOVERED THWE LINK BETWEEN ADD AND EATTING DISORDERS-FOR ALL THOSE GIRLS OR GUYS WITH EATTING DISORDERS-I KNOW IT WOULD HAVE HELPED ME TO BE DIAGNOSED MUCH EARLY BUT IT WASNT EVEN AN OPTION. IT SHOULD BE EXPLORED. BECOS I KNOW FROM MY EXPERIENCE-IT FOUND ME THE ANSWER AND SAVED MY LIFE. IM SO LUCKY TO HAVE DISCOVERED THIS FACT-AND NOW I THINK ITS MY DUTY TO SHARE IT. I WANT TO HELP-I WANT TO RAISE AWARENESS. HOW CAN I MAKE IT KNOWN?
i guess this is one way i'm trying to make a start. sorry to get so full on! i just feel really strongly about it!

if u have any ideas or suggestions or similiar storys please share

meadd823
01-10-08, 04:43 AM
I would not go as far to say ADD causes eating disorders although eating disorders may be secondary due to the anxiety caused by being ADD - I have ADD I do not have nor have I ever had an eating disorder.

Having an eating disorder would be a secondary condition that co-existed with the ADD. The eating disorder my be helped by treating ADD only because it was the reaction to the ADD symptoms that triggered the eating disorder in your individual case - I say your individual case because not every one with an eating disorder has ADD - but I have no doubt undiagnosed ADD may have triggered the secondary conditions you mentioned.

May people with ADD have co-existing conditions including myself - the but hairy million dollar wtf is the variety of co-existing conditions that are experienced For example my co-existing condition is dyslexia. I have a daughter and a sister whose co-existing condition is bi-polar neither of which have dyslexia - so far I have not been diagnosed with bi-polar. We have a brother who so far has only been diagnosed with conduct disorder. Many of the co-existing conditions like conduct disorder are not necessarily directly related to the ADD as much as they might be related to the way one is treated because of the differences ADD causes - in other wards societies crappy treatment of those who are different is the under lying cause in my opinion of some secondary conditions not necessarily ADD . ..

OKay this is my two cents worth . . . I almost forgot to say welcome to the forums

lanaxxx
01-11-08, 08:50 AM
nither would i go as far to say add causes eating disoders. eating disorders occur for a number of reasons. in my case i never said it caused it-said if i hadof been treated for add as a child my doc said he doubdts i would have got anorexia-it was just a sympton of trying to deal with add, so to make it clear again 'i dont think add they CAUSES eatting disopders-but in my case it pretty much did amnd i'm not the only one.

raising awareness about this subject in the eatting disoders treatmemnt field could at least diagnose a few poor sould in hospital-u musrt understand its important to help these ppl-anorexia/eatting disoders bring ppl to the gates of hell, its life and death, medecine doesnt help, niether does therapy, theres no clue of how to help these ppl-maybe if it could help one out of 100 pattiend in hospitals for eatting disorders.
(oh and no, i dont think everyone wiTH AN EATING D/O HAS ADD)

sorry to be rude.
its something i feel strongly about and expect the saME FROM OTHERS

failurebydesign
07-09-08, 08:31 AM
hey lana
its a great idea to raise awareness in the link between eating disorders, add, bdd, and substance abuse. I have had an eating disorder (bulimia) for 10 years and no doctor has ever put it together and neither did i till recently know they were even connected. I was binging and purging from the time i got up to the time i slept to get rid of my chaotic brain. when i went to university i also abused substances, but because of the impurity of street drugs and the inability to control dosage i went totally insane. I stopped substances and my eating disorder went up the roof.

ive dropped out 4 university courses. i couldnt hold a conversation with anyone. ive always been immature for my age and hung around with ppl 6 years younger than me (mostly boys) because they would climb trees and do impulsive stuff, but over the years i became more and more isolated from society and ppl and became severely depressed because i never thought i would be able to rid myself of being bulimic or around ppl.

the doctors put me on anti-depressants which made me 10x worse and i even tried to commit suicide many times because i felt there was no cure and i was too damaged to ever find a way out. my friends always used to tell me i had add b/c i couldnt sit still and would ramble on off-topic from one tangent to the next. when i told the doc's they thought it was a way to get meds so they put me on prozac/ citalopram, which defies logic since they are known to make suicidal tendancies worse.

i recently moved to turkey from london. (london docs and psychs are useless: they don't care at all, but i went to a psych here who listened to me). On chance i tried ritalin and what i thought could not ever happen happened! i was free from the binge and purge cycle! I CAN THINK IN MY HEAD AGAIN! i have not had a suicidal thought since i started taking it. i dont feel the need to abuse them/ i have self-control|!

however i still do have some problems when the meds wear off- i dont want to increase my prescribed dosage so i end up binging and purging once at night (which is an improvement to 5 x+ a day.)

also i do feel tired all the time on ritalin. what meds r u on? im thinking of asking for adderrall instead because i heard it helps more with motivation and lasts longer, and im hoping also it wont make me feel so tired.

i was thinking too of a way to share my story. although it is still early days for me, i too have been to eating disorder clinics who helped me none. i nearly ended my life because i thought i could never be free of this disease. but i never could have anticipated such a turn around, and i want other ppl who were thinking there was no way out and have had a long history of an ed to probe the connection. the link btw add and ed's are even on the somethingfishy ed website (it was never there a few years ago so it is probably a new development but one i wish id read ages ago). also on add.org there is a fantastic article on ed's, add and self-medicating.

thanks for sharing your story with me! lots of luck! x

Laura89
07-14-08, 04:30 AM
I always found that starving myself counting calories, weighting myself everyday gave me control in my life. It help me start and finish my school work. Thinking about food all day center all my forces and energy into being more productive in life. If I started eating and stop trying to lose weight, I would become scatter brain. Just like my mother who is also ADD. I always barely pass my classes because I had the hardest time finishing projects. The feeling of hunger force my lost brain on track. The pain I felt help me stay on track with my plan. My head was in a fog. Before anorexia, I never knew where to start. I became overwhelm with choices, and stress.

Lanaxx, I was also laugh at, and second guess with I told my doctors I may have ADD/ADHD. They kinda thought I was telling them I may have ADD so I could get a prescription for adderall. Which is a well know "weight loss" drug on the street. Because of it's side effect.

red03stang
07-14-08, 09:29 PM
There is very little awareness about adult add. I think there is a big chance add/eating disorder may be linked.

It may be a good idea to go to some eating disorder forums and express your thoughts there. Or some eating disorder meetings. Just by talking to other people that have eating disorders you can learn a lot and so can they. I believe knowledge will anwer everyones problems.

failurebydesign
12-24-08, 05:16 AM
could u do me a favour and tell me how ur g.p diagnosed u and how u got them to listen to you because the medical structure in australia is pretty similar to the uk and i really want to go bak there. Also I am up for planning a way to make ppl understand how serious and real this link is b/.c a lot of ppl are going to suffer and die unless someone does something.

Thanks for posting that. it was comforting to hear someone who has gone through the same thing. I may even print out ur post if ur ok with it to try and show the g.p that there are others like me out there?

Take care! :)

pADDyjay
12-24-08, 05:16 PM
I would not go as far to say ADD causes eating disorders although eating disorders may be secondary due to the anxiety caused by being ADD - I have ADD I do not have nor have I ever had an eating disorder.

Having an eating disorder would be a secondary condition that co-existed with the ADD. The eating disorder my be helped by treating ADD only because it was the reaction to the ADD symptoms that triggered the eating disorder in your individual case - I say your individual case because not every one with an eating disorder has ADD - but I have no doubt undiagnosed ADD may have triggered the secondary conditions you mentioned.

May people with ADD have co-existing conditions including myself - the but hairy million dollar wtf is the variety of co-existing conditions that are experienced For example my co-existing condition is dyslexia. I have a daughter and a sister whose co-existing condition is bi-polar neither of which have dyslexia - so far I have not been diagnosed with bi-polar. We have a brother who so far has only been diagnosed with conduct disorder. Many of the co-existing conditions like conduct disorder are not necessarily directly related to the ADD as much as they might be related to the way one is treated because of the differences ADD causes - in other wards societies crappy treatment of those who are different is the under lying cause in my opinion of some secondary conditions not necessarily ADD . ..

OKay this is my two cents worth . . . I almost forgot to say welcome to the forums wow thanks again for your post, I was diagnosed with an eating disorder 15ys BEFORE my adhd dx...complete story to long to post here/ later :)

chatterhead
03-01-09, 09:11 AM
LANAXXX!!!!- I totally agree with you and I feel just as strongly about this as you do! I am 37 yrs old and have suffered w/ ed since I was 12. It gave me control and something to focus on. I became so obsessed with my ed that it had control over my life. I became so hyperfocused on trying to find my cure and how to stop this cycle and live a "normal life". Finally after tons of research I found that my ed was the major side effect of my ed. I was diagnosed with add as a child and never took meds for it. I was on different antidepressants that assist with ocd but got no relief. I was a prisoner to this ed.

I finally went to a new pdoc that suggested stimulants ( I had always been fearful of taking stimulants b/c I have such an addictive personality). I decided that being addicted to stimulants would be better than this living hell. I had no quality of life, my children were suffering from my lack of attention...

fast forward today: I was put on 30mg. of vyvanse it is only my third day. Within 45 min of my first dose, my life changed. No more focusing on food or obsessing. I was "normal" for once in my life. all I wanted to do was hug my kids and let them know that mommy is back. I am able to multi task, return phone calls, do things that needed to be done etc. I am a new person and I don't ever want this to end!!!!!
My new fear is that this med will stop working and have this beautiful taste of life taken from me. From what I read on these threads, so many people have problems with the working for 2 weeks and then bam it all comes to an end. I can not handle the thought of this happening.

I can not explain to you the feeling of finally living. I was a shell of person living in my own sick world. I became very anti social and started losing friends. The only so called friend I had was the chatter in my head beating me up day in and day out. I have not heard the chatter since I started and not had any binges etc.

What meds are you on and how long have you been on them? Are you still having success? I do see a therapist and have for 4 yrs. Please tell me everything you are doing and taking and for how long. I have to know that it is possible for me to have a real life full of love and laughter!

sorry this is so long but it's part of the add ramble:-)

stef
03-01-09, 01:03 PM
I don't have an eating disorder or any food issues -but I can TOTALLY understand how this could be linked. Like anyone I've come across articles or shows about anorexia and I would wonder, (and I mean not in an ignorant mean way, but really trying to understand) "how could that happen to someone in the first place?" - well now I understand...
Let people know about what you've just written! I'm sure you'll help someone.

shellbell
03-01-09, 02:26 PM
I don't think I ever had anorexia but I was really picky about what I ate and I never sat down long enough to finish a whole meal unless it was mashed potatoes and ketchup.I had a slight case of OCD constantly obsessing about counting the bathroom floor tiles looking at a stain on the sealing always freaking out about germs and washing my hands I always had to lay tp over the toilet before I went ( my family used to tease me for that).I used to put my selves over my hands before I grabbed the door handle.It got worse when I was pregnant but after I got pregnant with my second child it got wayyyyy better and I think I out grew the OCD and was left with the ADD....

DynamiteBritany
04-08-09, 02:24 AM
I can relate to all of these posts. I've struggled with anorexia and bulimia for quite a while. I abused diet pills all throughout high school... wasn't really taking my ADHD meds then (I was on concerta and didn't really see any difference at the time). I have a very addictive personality, it's a b*tch! lol. I always had body image issues when I was little and still do, thankfully I'm learning coping skills now. I was a full blown Bulimic around the age of 16. I still deal with ED issues everyday, but have a much easier time dealing with them when I take my Adderall. I'm very impulsive without it- usually leading to binge/purge episodes. It's not a fun road to travel down. It's crazy to see all of the research about women with ADD and Bulimia... but it makes sense.. lol at least to me. They're are some good books out there that cover ADHD and it's link with ED's. It seems like it's becoming a more popular study these days (ED's and ADHD/ADD) which is great. It's hard enough to deal with one of those issues... let alone both and in my case many others! Although I still struggle with these eating disorders I have made some major improvement, I hate to use the word recovery, but I'm close to that stage. It's hard- if anyone ever needs to chat or ask a question please send me a msg. I spent far too many years keeping this to myself and that alone made it 1000X's worse. =) .... hmm did that make any sense haha?!

elizadoo47
04-19-09, 10:25 AM
I took my teen daughter (16, and recovering from an ED and BDD) to a pdoc for possible ADD the other day.

This pdoc is remarkably well-known for his insightfulness (and I am lucky we have him in our community) and he is the therapist to whom all the psychologists send THEIR own children.

Anyway, he said it is common for girls with ADD to develop EDs. He said one of the reasons is control: the ADD girls thoughts are chaotic and out of control, unreliable, and the focus on food and body is immediate and something that the girl CAN control. So it calms the chaos (as the OP said) in the mind.

Second, he said that girls with ADD have low self-esteem because they sense their "differentness" and they try to fit in and belong. So they look around and see what is popular and admired and they try to fit in that way, eg, make themselves conform to the "ideal". Also, because they don't have a clear cut idea of reality (due to missed social cues, misunderstandings, inability to trust their own brain, etc) they develop an inaccurate self image of body size.

My daughter is a real newbie and yesterday was her first day of meds (18 mg Concerta). I am not sure Concerta is the drug for her--there seemed to be a side affect that is intolerable--but I CAN say that daughter was not only calmer, but she mentioned her body and food intake only once, whereas every other day she ruminates about it at least a dozen times.

Johnny123
05-01-09, 06:36 AM
my problem with eating is the fact i forget i've eaten and go and eat more.

elizadoo47
05-03-09, 11:01 AM
Ok, my daughter took Concerta for 10 days and has been on Focalin now for 3 days. Her body issues and concern with food has definitely decreased. She seems to be able to talk herself out of focusing on food.

In a second visit to her pdoc the psych said that it is clearly apparent my daughter has anxiety issues and her focus on body and food is a manifestation of that anxiety. He also said ADD meds can reduce that anxiety--which they have done in my daughter's case. As an aside, he also said the anxiety can go up with DD meds, but with the use of anti-anxieety drugs, he has seen the EDs decrease.

Fascinating.

Infinity
06-13-09, 04:51 AM
Anyway, he said it is common for girls with ADD to develop EDs. He said one of the reasons is control: the ADD girls thoughts are chaotic and out of control, unreliable, and the focus on food and body is immediate and something that the girl CAN control. So it calms the chaos (as the OP said) in the mind.



Eliza ,

Your P doc has nailed it . In my opinion.

add to the need to reduce chaotic thinking a physical stimulating effect food brings for most people ( addictive nature of "taste" ) and you have the makings of an Ed. An ED is about control of food intake inorder to not gain weight.

Disordered eating is on a continum.

Some people are overweight. they graze or binge eat then go on "diets"

and some develop into more sever forms of bulimia and anorexia.

Many people claim they do not have an eating disorder. Those who do not think they do rarely make the lifestyle changes and continue to over eat and diet./exersize.

( which happens to be a large majority of the US of A population)



Infinity~

sarey
06-13-09, 07:04 AM
thing is...
eating disorders are a very lethal, dangerous, life long illness...
&they control YOU...

Brikka
08-09-09, 12:52 AM
i have been reading about this link extensively. i was just diagnosed as ADHD about a month ago,

i had been bulimic from the age of 12, with periods of anorexia and binge eating (no purging)

i don't know how much control had to do with it for me...but rather my ED was a form of self punishment, a way to take it out on myself for being me

i mean the link makes sense...bulimics usually have very poor impulse control

i am a long time member of an ED forum and i plan on posting something about it...i don't think that EVERY sufferer of an ED has ADHD, but I am sure that there are some who do have undiagnosed ADHD

ADDMagnet
08-09-09, 05:35 PM
I have also heard of a possible link between ADHD and eating disorders.

There is another round about link that may or may not be connected. I have read that 40% of eating disorder inpatients suffer from the borderline personality disorder. And there was a study done in Italy that showed that approximately 50--60% of adults diagnosed with BPD had ADHD that had never been diagnosed or treated in childhood.

Also, keep in mind that adults with ADHD usually have one or more additional psychiatric disorders or comorbidities and those with BPD usually have several other disorders as well.

There are so few studies done on adult ADHD, let alone researching all of the possible comorbidities. So much to yet be discovered and learned about ADHD in adults.

Devin
08-18-09, 10:59 PM
:confused:I am 47 years old and a man,
I have always had a eating disorder since i was 19 I ride a exercise bike for two hrs a day and the stair master for three hrs a day. Dose it really every go away?????

JustKeepSwimmin
08-20-09, 12:20 AM
I too agree there is a strong possibility of a connection between ADD and eating disorders (and certainly depression).

Whatever the diagnosis, if medications (to treat ADD) also treat those struggling with eating disorders, then they are probably bettering one's quality of life.

Thanks for starting this conversation, it's a good one.

C

berkah
01-25-10, 09:36 PM
hi!
i'd love to hear what people have to say about this...
i have not been officially diagnosed with add, but my therapist and boyfriend (and honestly, i) have thought that it would be beneficial to explore the idea that i may...
in any case, i sometimes eat compulsively, and have sought treatment for it. i do believe there may be a link here... any thoughts?

Delboy31
01-25-10, 10:31 PM
I can totally relate to your situation. Suffered for ed, was hospitalized, therapy for years.....got it in check, had a few falls, and finally go over it. In addition, I have OCD and now recently found out that I have ADHD I. Well, I think you could be on to something. If I had been treated for the ADHD, then maybe my rough times with eating disorders may not have been as severe or had lasted as long. Happily, I can say now in early forties and have overcome the eating disorder stuff for many years ... the irony here though is thatadderall makes you drop weight, so for the first time in my life I'm trying to gain weight because I never want to be in that ed dark place again.....boost, banana ice-cream shakes!! Bring 'em on.

daveddd
01-25-10, 10:44 PM
it may go with some of the conditions that go with adhd (ocd, bpd)

but bpd originates in a complete different part of the brain then adhd, so it wouldnt be caused by undx adhd maybe brought out more

treating the symptoms of bpd (cant treat the disorder itself medically....thnx kmiller) has shown to realy help ED

bpd =borderline personality disorder not bipolar in case anyone didnt know

theanna
01-27-10, 02:20 PM
I totally agree. When I was a kid, I would run around and never focus and say (unintentionally) mean or inappropriate things. I would **** people off and feel bad, or make an adult angry with me, or say something the kids would make fun of me for saying. So I stopped talking because super anxious around people. Social anxiety.

Additionally, I found it hard to complete homework or finish projects (even though everyone said I was smart and could do anything I wanted if I'd only apply myself). I didn't understand why I couldn't seem to focus. I wanted to quit jobs after a few months, I went to 1 year of law school then quit, and thought I'm such a quitter. I'm making nothing of myself (turns out I was pursuing jobs/schooling that were inappropriate for a restless mind). Depression.

I'd eat impulsively b/c I was afraid of doing other things (ie talking to people and saying something dumb) but I needed to do something. I had too much energy and no constructive outlet because I was anxious and depressed all the time. So I'd eat and purge and afterwards I'd feel like the dogs were done barking in my head, for a little while. But I felt bad about doing it b/c it's unhealthy. So then I started drinking...

I'm better now through drugs and therapy, but I wish I'd got help a long long time ago.

sarey
01-28-10, 12:30 PM
To anyone who says they "got over" having something, I personally think you suffer with a disorder/illness for the rest of your life, it never goes away, & you can never "get over it".

My personal opinion though.

Brikka
02-27-10, 02:06 PM
hi there.

i'm new to this forum.
i was diagnosed with add about 6 months ago, and every problem i've been diagnosed with has majorly improverd beyond possible relief as they are all symptoms of add.-and i'd like to communicate and share tips/ideas and stratergies with other adults with add.so hi there!

just a quick intro: my story is long and complicated-heres a run down in point form (if u cant be bothered reading just skip to the last paragraph in capitals-very imp!)

-i've known i had add for about 7 years b4 i saw a dr who knew his stuff and agreed with me. but by the time i saw him i had given up and thought i didnt

-i'm 23 years old

-theres definately a link between add and the following:
(i know from personal experience)

-eatting disorders-i've had a long history with, and from when i was 13-20 i was dangerously ill with anorexia-spent many many years in hospital-at times literally death bed-
HOWEVER!
i'm very healthy and fit now physically, i eat! i'm physically well and rewcovered!!i still struggle with my self perception, but am alot better at fighting anorexic thoughts- and realising they are not true. (yipee!)

-have been also now labeled with bdd, as i still struggle with my self perception

-my dr said (and me and my family can see now)had my add been diagnosed with add in my childhood, its likely i would have never gotten so ill with anorexia in the first place-which was amazing to here someone say-both relieving i now have the answer, but also sad cos i nearly lost my life to anorexia

-for about 2 years i used to buy add medication on the street and have an excess amount every day for those 2 years. i was a total addict. but i loved the medication so much! i discovered it once when a friend gave me a few dex at a party. i was hooked. the only thing that got me over the hardcore addiction was a year in hospital with add-that was about 3 years ago-up till i was dianosed i used to take speed on a regular basis and used it daily at times when i've had jobs. i had no idea why i loved amphetamines so much. now i know! its my add. i know get the meds i love every day-in a controlled healthy dosage and love it

-i also have been diagnosed with ocd

-servere depression

-anxiety

and ive got a very addictive personality-ive been addicted badly to excercise. i'm a heavy smoker

all i've these illnesses i've experienced pretty badly. and for so many years i asked countless dr's 'do i have add'? they all said 'no'
until i saw my wonderful specialist-i had given up but i told him my history and that first appointment he told me it was add. and my life has been so much better since!

my medication is helping so much-its like replaced a part of my brain that always should have been there but never was
-so many ?'s have been answered
-and i now know the full reason why i got anorexia and all the other stuff in the first place, i work on it with my psycologist weekly-who i've seen for about 8 years-he said since ive been on the meds my progress in recovering from my anxiety/bdd/anorexic thinking/ocd/addictions has never been better! and i know its true-i can now think better to understand the reasons 'why' i became unwell in the first place

it'd take years to explain to anyone-but i know i'm on the rtight track. i now realise i was just a little girl who was trying to find something to calm down all the chaos inside her head when i realised focusing on my body-obsessing-not eatting would calm it down quite a bit, things didnt feel 'like something is wrong' all the time, and gave it meaning-in anorexia i found what i thought was my normal thinking-starvation wasted my brain-which calmed the chaotic noise. i now know that was just a way of me dealing with the 'chaos' (my add) and that it wasnt the issue of my body that was the problem-it was my undetected add.

i now know 'nothing is wrong' anymore-or ever was-tho i still have the thought it my brain it is-i've learnt to combat that and ignore/not engage/ sit thro or argue against and win over that feeling. i dont react to it anymore. i love myself and my body-being diagnosed with add was like having a big giant circle drawn around all the problems of my life, they wern't illnesses they where symptoms of my add! so life is lovely for me now-still hard work-long way to go-but really working and know i'll get there.theres never been such a positive ending i could have hoped for!


THE SAD THING IS, I HAVE BEEN THRO EVERY POSSIBLE EATTING DISORDER TREATMENT PROBGRAM OR POSSIBLE IDEA OR AVENUE OF HELP IN MY STATE IN AURALIA WHICH IS VICTORIA-THIS STATE HAS THE BEST IN THE COUNTRY AS WELL AS NSW. NEVER ONCE HAS ANY DOCTOR OR ANY EXPERT EVER MENTIONED THE LINK TO ME-I'VE SEEN THE BEST OF THE BEST IN EATTING DISORDERS IN AUSTRALIA. EVEN WHEN I SUGGESTED I HAD ADD I WAS LAUGHED AT, IT WASNT EVEN EXPLORED-ITS LIKE A SECRET FACT THAT NEEDS TO BE DISCOVERED THWE LINK BETWEEN ADD AND EATTING DISORDERS-FOR ALL THOSE GIRLS OR GUYS WITH EATTING DISORDERS-I KNOW IT WOULD HAVE HELPED ME TO BE DIAGNOSED MUCH EARLY BUT IT WASNT EVEN AN OPTION. IT SHOULD BE EXPLORED. BECOS I KNOW FROM MY EXPERIENCE-IT FOUND ME THE ANSWER AND SAVED MY LIFE. IM SO LUCKY TO HAVE DISCOVERED THIS FACT-AND NOW I THINK ITS MY DUTY TO SHARE IT. I WANT TO HELP-I WANT TO RAISE AWARENESS. HOW CAN I MAKE IT KNOWN?
i guess this is one way i'm trying to make a start. sorry to get so full on! i just feel really strongly about it!

if u have any ideas or suggestions or similiar storys please share'

wow, i could have written this. this is practically my same exact history. i was naive when my adhd was diagnosed that i would magically be better and normal and that my addictive behaviors and ED would go away...

i still struggle with my ED, in fact it seems like it has gotten worse. maybe it is due to the fact that i have a lot of anger and grief to work through (from years of undiagnosed/untreated adhd)

please if anyone would like to share what helped them w/ ED recovery i would appreciate it