I can not take this anymore.i am inattentive. i took a "practice sat" and the scores horrible... i played my soccer game today... i played horrible... im just nothing. my grades have dropped tremendously.. i am a junior in highschool and this year is the most important year of my life. it depicts my future... please do not say it does not because i knjow it does. I am getting a few d's... and report cards come out so soon. i have finals this week and took my vyvanse this morning but i am SO STUPID, i took orange juice righ tbefore and it has vitamin C and it completely ruins the effects for me. today i was going to take my medicine afte4r my game and literally study ALL day with it. but the medicine did not even work so i got nothing done today. i am goign to fail everything. i just wish i was normal, i am so tired of this garbage. im sick of getting yelled at by my parents, they do not get it, they are genius's and they CAN focus.. i am a genius and i CAN NOT FOCUS, it is just all this wasted potential. i am crying right now. this happens every month (hence my last posts).. every month i just break down like this. i don't; need a therapist or any of that... been there done that and SOLVES ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. i just fight with her. my medicine was supposed to be helping... i mean it is.. and i thoguht it was but take a look at my grades.. apparently not. besidies i can not take my vyvanse every day. it messes with my brain and does horrible things to me physically (125 to like 106 in four days when i took it every day in a row). i am so embarassed that i sit here and vent and im contemplating just deleting everything. but i can't. there is no one to turn to. i tell my friends about why i am the way i am, and i try to explain to them and apologize for being late all the time, and how the medication makes me moody and mean.. and all they can reply with is "wait, what exactly is ADD?" or "wait, whats adderall?" NOBODY gets it... i hate hearing the statistics that say many people have add. i do not believe it, it just seems like me and every one on here has it and thats just it. there is so much pressure to be little miss perfect in a highschool where 99% of kids go to college... and getting my test back with fat D on it and the girl next to me is complaining with her A-... i just have no idea. my life is over. ILL HAVE SUCH A FUN TIME GETING INTO COLLEGE AND ACTUALLY DOING SOMETHING WITH MY LIFE!!! GO ME!! NOT. last thing... hearing my mom tell the pschwhatever she is.... that "there really is no conflict outside of lisa" i just couldn't believe me.. the words were not making sense to me at first, i was not sure what it mean or what she was trying to say... but let me helpyou guys out... without me in my families life, their lives would be good, the fighting the stress, it would all stop. i

Lisa,

((HUGS)))

my son is a freshman in high scool, and I'm sure he's felt and thought the same things that you just wrote, you two are very similar. It's got to be a little good for you to have gotten the words out here. As frustrating as it is for you, it is frustrating for your parents too, to see you as such a bright young lady with lots of potential not making the progress that you yourself want to make. Dont' have any answers for you, but I understand a little of both of your sides here; shed a tear here for you and what you are going through, and can only send over a hug.

Lisa,
Your mom saying there is no conflict outside of you doesn't meant that without you their lives would be picture perfect. It only means that you are maybe causing a lot of conflict with your attitude. Believe it or not your family loves you despite that! It really does sound like you could benefit from some counseling but let me tell you from the counselor perspective, there's nothing a counselor can do to help you, if you're not willing to help yourself. Counselors are not miracle workers, if they were they'd be called miracle workers, but instead they are people trained to listen, evaluate, analyze and help you understand why you are the way you are and what changes have to take place for you to be who you want to be. Open up and be willing to accept that you're not perfect, neither is your family, and maybe things will change for the better. But as long as you have victim mentality and believe it's you against the world, you will continue to feel all alone in this world. Good Luck!

Lisa, have you and/or your folks looked into a tutor and/or an ADHD coach for you?

You sound like you would be interested in getting suggestions to help with study techniques and organizational skills, and these specialists have lots of wonderful ideas if you would be able to work with one one-on-one, and give you some confidence to go forward with more hope.

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad at the moment. Its horrible when you're trapped in frustration and everything seems so impossible, that you have no-one to turn to. I get the impression that maybe there could be more done to help you out, like frazzledazzles suggestion of coaching etc. Try and talk to your parents about it if you think it could help. Nothing is set in concrete - don't try to determine the future because you can't, and what good will it do to imagine yourself failing and being miserable? I really hope by the time you read these post you'll be feeling better.

You know what i've learned from all the drugs i've experimented with... nothing is set in stone, you have the ability to affect your path at any point in life. You need to let go of all the brainwashing that you have to be perfect, this is an imperfect world and to expect something that's impossible is retarded. Just strive to be your best and don't try to live up to others standards because let's be honest, they are delusions made to make you miserable. Now I can't really walk with you on the path, I can only show you the way, your the one who has to walk down it.

I really don't reply often, however I felt compelled to reply to you.

When you have these moments, just stop and take a few deep breaths. I can understand exactly how you feel. I'm sure a lot of us can. I can also tell you, everything will be fine.

<O:pEven if you give things 110% and you still don't succeed, it will be okay. You tried, and that’s better then giving up. Keep trying!! You will get into a great college and you will succeed in life. If you want it bad enough, you will get it!
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Everybody is giving good advice here. Most of us have dealt with similar issues in the past. Like Frazzle said, you should try ADD coaching, which is not the same as counseling. A coach helps you to organize your time and effort, teaches you to use a planner, timers, and other tools, and they check on your progress. Also, get a tutor for your worst subject, whatever it may be. For me that was always math, but I've found I can understand it pretty well if I learn it in my own way- it just takes longer to learn for me.

Don't give up hope and don't get into drugs/alcohol, which won't help. Remember, if you SAT's aren't that good you may still be able to go to community college and then transfer to University from there.