Day two of Dexedrine IR 5mg, thrice daily. I am finding myself to be much more sociable, assertive, confident, and energized. This is a good improvement to my ordinarily anxious sort of social ways. However, I am not staying on task too well, and am not doing so great with schoolwork the couple of times I have attempted to study. I think this may be due to 5 hours of sleep averaged per night over the past week. This seems to be the most promising of the stimulants so far. However, I feel a bit guilty, as those effects I described above are the same ones people take recreational amphetamines for. These effects will probably wear off after the "honeymoon period," but that is fine with me. I just hope that I willl have the calmness of mind to gain from it once the fog clears.

However, I feel a bit guilty, as those effects I described above are the same ones people take recreational amphetamines for. I can appreciate what your saying, but there is no reason to feel guilty for feeling those effects. I feel very strongly that it is actually those who are taking these drugs recreationally who should feel guilty.





These effects will probably wear off after the "honeymoon period," but that is fine with me. I just hope that I willl have the calmness of mind to gain from it once the fog clears. I hope that you will have the calmness of mind that you seek once the fog clears, and I hope that you keep us posted as to how everything unfolds on that end.

Day 3

Hey, now we're talkin'. Woke up an hour early to take my 5mg, then slept for another hour. This is a habit a picked up from Dr. Amen's book, and also some threads on these forums. It helps me wake up for sure. Anyway, I got up and the medicine seemed to go strong, but it made me a bit nervous/stressed until I got some food in me. Remarkably the food didn't diminish the effects! I don't know if it's placebo or what, but I could feel it kicking around for more than 4 hours -- quite remarkable.

I took a second dose and then had a good practice session with my music buddy, who commented that I must be practicing a lot (mmhmm, yes that's it). However, I felt that I could have "enjoyed" things a bit more even though I was playing very well. After coming home and taking a half-dose, I found that I had the best of both worlds: I was playing very well and liking it a lot. My mind was really into it, I was very "in the zone".

Oh, and my mood has been very good. I feel like my system is adjusting more to this now. Having said all of that that, I will not accept the above effects until they last through this one or two week "honeymoon" period.

Tomorrow comes the real test -- I have to get some schoolwork done.

Sometimes I feel a bit speedy during lectures. The Dexedrine could also stand to help with my working memory a little more, as when I am listening or reading technical material. I feel that a higher dose would help with both of these.

Unfortunately, my doctor has been sick for some weeks now, and I have to see a substitute doctor. This new doctor feels that 20 mg per day would be "too high" (as opposed to the 15mg/day I've been taking for a week), in response to my asking for more coverage. She wants me to wait to see my regular doctor. As a compromise, she said that she'd give me a few extra for particularly difficult days. Unfortunately, that turned out to be only three extra doses for the next two weeks. She obviously doesn't know much about the medicine; she thought the capsules (spansules) were the immediate release version, so I had to insist on the tablets until she looked them up to see if they even made them. I just feel lucky to be getting anything at all, now. I hope my more experienced doctor will be more liberal with the dosing and titration.