I'm 16, and I've been on Adderall since Dec.

I've always had zero attentiveness when it comes to school. I went to my doctor and got a script for Adderall. Right now, I'm taking 20mg in the morning, one dose per day.

I fear severe psychological dependence just around the corner. I can go without Adderall on non-school days, but during the week I cannot function in school without it. I have tried abstaining twice, each time being ****ing miserable.

Now, I find myself being increasingly anti-social. Interestingly, I am not depressed. I can feel myself distancing from my friends, as if they are a non-essential part of my life. The withdrawal from the meds are pretty bad. I get headaches regularly, and the psychological withdrawal has had me drinking much more regularly. I can become paranoid around people, not noticeably paranoid to those around me, but noticeably paranoid to myself.

Before leaving for school, I'll always habitually slam back a nice sized coffee. For the first hour of taking the meds, I'll be pretty tweaked. Throughout the rest of the academic day, I can function pretty well, and am willing to do work. From there, it's just a downward slide.

I feel like I am locked in this cycle of go fast-go slow. Anyone feel this way? It's like, when first going on the Adderall, it was an amazing feeling. Now, it's just a terrible necessity that is eating away at my personality.

On a good note, I was prescribed Focalin, which I am going to try out this week. It supposedly has little withdrawal, so that's a plus.


(great, spelled dependence incorrectly in the title)

I'm affraid to hang out with my friends without taking at the very least 20mg of Adderall XR (I'm perscribed 40mg/day). Why? Because I've seen how I act after it's completely out of my bloodstream and those who know I actually take medication for ADHD will say sarcastic comments such as, "Dude, omfg, take your adderall already." While stated in a jokative manner I'm no fool, statements like this do hit close to home and I feel a lack of self-confidence to be myself. As I've gotten older I've slowly become adjusted to just tuning those out who say this and letting those who don't say this sort of thing to me be my true friends... if that makes any sense? This probably relates more along the lines of what someone might consider dependence, but in my mind it's totally psychological and not physical.... but as previously stated I'm trying to weed out those who will negatively influence my life by increasing this dependence and increasing the number of friends who like me irregardless of what dosage of adderall I took on any given day.

I know that sometimes not taking the medicine seems to be good but I believe it is best to stay on it until you get used to it than maybe 6 months later take a small vacation from the medicine if you believe you have too. I know withdrawal from Adderall makes me extremely tired and very unmotivated, all I want to do is sleep. When you are taking Adderall it is not good to have a lot of caffeine.You may as well keep on the medicine if your going to drink anyway because all you are doing is trading one drug for another. That is my opinion from my own experiance

i kinda have that same thing goin on man. im 17 years old, been prescribed adderal since last may(only for school, no adderal during the summer) and its like while im in school all i care about is getting hte work done. i dnt talk much in class and i often exclude myself from conversations because i feel like it would slow me down or prevent me from doin my work. once it wears off thgouh m game on aka thinkg about w.e,not able to focus, weekend arives, friday ntie go out with friends and do watever. i also have anxiety issues which i have xanax for. weekdns wihtout adderal thoguh i hate it. i have no motivation to do anything and just sit in bed. ill buy a few hardcore energydrinks to wake me up so i can get my workouts done, and then i just chill for the day.