I am so upset with myself. I haven't been eating. Therefore, this morning I woke up drove to starbucks and binge there. When and got more food, purge at the store. Then got laxatives. Now I don't want to eat anything today. I am upset that I just spend so much money on food I am not going to eat. That I took laxatives, which I never do. My mom tells me I look pale. My boyfriend misses me and wants to see me. I don't want him to see me like this. I miss him dearly; just I don't want to be near anyone when I just binge. I have so much schoolwork, if I don't finish it I won't get high school gradation.

I just need to vent. Thanks for listening.

Laura89,

Sorry to hear about your struggle. Best wishes, hope tomorrow finds you feeling better. Take care of you.