Nothing seems to be going right for me!!!!!!!!!!

I'll give you a recap of my semester here at school......
It started off okay, had to find a new group of friends to hang out with, who probably weren't the best for me but were the only ones I could seem to deal with.
I did really well in my classes atfirst, then I started to lose interest and did really bad because I couldn't focus.
I then started to lose interest in my friends because I was gettiing bored like I always do of people, and couldn't find anyone else who entertained me. I started getting rided on by people about me never listening and somehow I was getting made fun of one way or another.
This started to cause me anxiety, then I got depressed, and now I'm slowly getting out of it. (I was put on meds for it, they calmed me down, and now I'm off everything focusing just on an a.d.d. medication which I started a few days ago)

I started a job, and I kind of suck at it because of my memory and it's just another thing that gets me upset.

I'm having a hard time sleeping on my medication and my schedule is so screwed up. I just bought melatonin yesterday and it is helping me sleep- hooray!


All I want to do is go home and curl up in a ball, then wake up when everything is better. I can't even do that and I'm my spring break! I only have 3 days when I'm not working, and it's too expensive to fly home. I can't just fly home whenever I want :(.


Many would easily label me depressed, but I do find a couple hours in my day when I am happy. I really don't want to be put on any more medication for being sad. I think I would just be prescribing my feelings and I can't afford any more side effects while being in school.


I've considered taking the semester off and trying to get my a.d.d. medication worked out, but I feel like all I would do at home is sit around and do nothing. My family is kind of dysfunctional and it's not the best environment for me. The only thing that would be good for me there is the few friends I have left there.

So in conclusion, I'm extremely lonely ( although I'm surrounded by people who are trying to hang out with me, but I just can't seem to find much to talk about or listen much to them) I'm very understimulated, and very homesick.


This is kind of a pointless and very uncoordinated rant, but I feel like I have to get my feelings out as much as I can. I really really am trying to not focus on my feelings and trying to make the best of things, but I'm sure of all people you guys can understand.

Any insight would be great........

i feel your pain :( i'm trying to get my medication worked out as well.

When i get like i imagine you are now i usually find that organising as much of my stuff as i can helps me feel better and more under control. Like cleaning my room, writing a list of all the school work i have due and when and working out a budget and stuff. Then i can plan to spend 2 hours or whatever relaxing and i can actually relax then. Its imposible to do when i still feel like there are things i need to be doing.

Anyway, if you want someone to talk to pm me, i'm on holidays all this week so i'll be at the computer studying.. lol..

good luck, and don't give up :)

Feelin' your pain too ... echoes off the cliffs over here ...

You're in a funk. I agree with ninjanicole that you need to do something to pull out of your mood slide ....

What really helps in that situation is to take a long hot shower or bath followed by a quick cold one and then a quick hot then quick cold one. It reinvigorates you. Then, do something that is essentially mindless but that will make you feel that you've progressed ... cleaning your room ... doing laundry ... work the garden (in the right season) ... walk the dog ... go help someone with chores or whatever ... You'll feel a lot better after that.

Keep in touch (here, PM etc.) and eat lots of chocolate! :cool:

thanks for the advice! I actually had a really good day at work, and talked to someone that I worked with who I found really interesting and different. He is such a positive person and go getter, it just made me feel good being around someone like that.

I have all week to relax and recooperate, and I'm going to take advantage of it. It's been a really slow process of recooperating mentally this semester, but I feel like I'm getting there? I still haven't been able to gain bacck my memory, it's like REALLY bad. I barely remember what people say to me even if it was like 5 minutes ago.

Really feel for you mate...

Good to hear you had a better day at work. Its great you found someone that makes you feel good.
Make the most of your week off.
I kind of went through the same thing as you did. Sometimes it helps to get in a good routine. I can understand that the meds wont help with that. Especially if it prevents your from sleeping.
Set a few goals even in just a certain area. Completing goal, even small ones, feels really good. That might give you confidence to help improve other areas.

all the best with everything mate.