Today I took 15mg of dexamphetamine. Feels decent - probably the best dose yet.

Thing is, I feel sociable. I need to talk and mess about with friends/whatever. But everybody is either busy with work or study or their phone is turned off. It's me sitting here by myself with the computer.

I can't stand it. I feel like I should be out doing something with somebody. I feel like I need to fill up a hole on me with social interaction. Arg. It's frustrating.

What I wouldn't do to find somebody to go to the pub with right now. All my friends in this town are elsewhere for uni. I need to make new friends. How do I do that if I'm not at school anymore? Maybe go to the pub and meet people? Vicious cycle.

I don't feel like programming or learning or computer games or television. *sigh*

Hmmm maybe too much? Shouldn't make you overly social, thats a reinforcing thing. It should however make you not feel so bad when you cant follow a conversation or care to talk to people.

How about volunteering in the community, working with the alumni org., joining an interesting hobby group, or mentoring or tutoring some uni. students?

Hmmm maybe too much? Shouldn't make you overly social, thats a reinforcing thing. It should however make you not feel so bad when you cant follow a conversation or care to talk to people.

I don't think so. The desire for social contact occurred 4 hours after my last dose (15mg then 5mg). Probably part of the come-down. 10mg makes me paranoid in social situations ("should I have said that?", "what did she mean?", "is he annoyed with me?", "should look away instead of making eye contact?"); it essentially makes me isolationist. 15mg doesn't seem to make me antisocial; I meant it made me social compared to 10mg. Oh well, will discuss with my doctor.

How about volunteering in the community, working with the alumni org., joining an interesting hobby group, or mentoring or tutoring some uni. students?

Yeah I've thought of that. Any tips where to start? My town is sort of mainly labourers and farmers. It's about 35,000 people. I really miss uni. I always had people around me every hour of the day there.