ok so...
stuff isnt going so good
and i took 5 of my concerta
and now i feel like...
drifty
like im just floating or something
and i feel..
i dont know
my head feels heavy
and i just want to take more...
blah..
i havea tendancy to abuse drugs :rolleyes:

you need someone to hold your meds and give you the prescibed amount daily.

...I'm a drug addict too.

that's all that works for me.

blah i called posion control and they said to go to a&e asap

Hopefully you heeded their advice and headed to urgent care/emergency room.

You should be ok but you need to go to the emergency room just in case!


Concerta is not a very abusable drug IMO so I hope you don't bother to do this again. You'd be helped out by the meds so much more if you took them as prescribed.

It's on my medical records that I have had addiction problems and for this reason I have to pick up my Dex. from the chemist once a week. I go into the chemist daily for my Subutex dose anyway so it doesn't bother me. (subutex is like methadone it keeps me from taking opiates and stops me getting sick)

Is there someone in your house that could give you your dose daily? That way you won't have a big fat bottle of pills looking at you all the time.

You're really lucky to even get stimulant medication in the UK, I'd hate to see you make some bad choices and forfeit that privilege :(.


Let us know how you are, ok? Or I'll worry.

where did my post go? whats A&E?

I wonder if i posted in the wrong thread...*looks around*

didnt go hosp.
they said because of my weight and age and with how much i took they said its fatal and that i could have a heart attack or stroke or seizure
i just rested in bed for a bit
but my heart goes from racing a mile a minute
then like
as slow as a snail
sorta dizzy
weak
shaky
mostly my heart and chest and my head thats annoying me at the moment..
it was only 5, and they said because of how strong they are it could be fatal...
so now im like
a bit edgey
...hm

drink a big glass of milk..
......you can sometimes x it out with food.

food is bigger than drugs.

then, go to sleep.

...get up and be well.

i had milk after i took it
it didnt do anything
and ive tried to eat
i just puked it up...

plus i gotta go school
and ive just tooken another tablet because its my daily dose nd my mum dont know ive took alot anyway

you'll be sorry....

...maybe not today, but belive me, you don't get away with nuthin in life.

Be careful sarey...Suzzanne knows what she's talking about. Stimulant abuse and addiction can be one of the worst.

oh please be careful and look after yourself!

Apart from the immediate harm, binging on MP can give god awful comedowns and serious bouts of depression for days/weeks to come! I've been there and it's not a nice place...

and ive just tooken another tablet because its my daily dose nd my mum dont know ive took alot anyway

I dont get this. You first take 5 times the usual dose and get sick and everything over it .. and two hours after that you took another one because it's time for your daily dose :confused: ??

Do you think that is going to help you?

well its not as if i was gonna tel my mum is it? no.
she expected me to take my daily dose in morn , so i did
i dont tell people what i do a whole load of time thanks.

jeez


nd i doubt i will 'pay for it' in anyway cuz ive overdosed quite alot of times nd ive got off 'easy' from it nd ive not had any long term effects

nd i doubt i will 'pay for it' in anyway cuz ive overdosed quite alot of times nd ive got off 'easy' from it nd ive not had any long term effects

Be careful, sooner or later your luck will run out... good luck, hope this attitude might change one day. I used to have the same "it's ok, nothing bad ever really happens" attitude and then something bad happened. It woke me up a bit and changed my attitude, didn't necessarily kick the habit but made me have a new prospective on it that ultimately helped me stop.

They won't help you above your prescribed dose, that's why you are prescribed that amount...it's perfect!

I don't know much about any of these meds, but I know that overdosing can lead to bad things such as being dead. I wouldn't reccomend it! : S

....
ok fine sorry for creatin this stupid thread bye

It's not stupid : /

oh but you will my friend.
...don't disregard my words so easily.

I don't care what you do.
........this is the truth as I know it.

to need nothing is to have everything.

.....in other words...to truely be rich is to need nothing.

I am so drug damaged, my meds don't work like they should.
....you see, dopeamine is what makes you "feel good"

you only get so much in your life.

......your causeing dopeamine to spill out into your system.
the receptors will close and not let it back in as it should.

one day...

....drugs won't work.

alll you'll be left with is deprsssion - non curable - because you'll ruin yourself.

....please belive me.

it's all I can do not to blow my head off.

that avatar suits you so well

what did you think we were gonna say?

YAY!

Wow that sucks, thanks for sharing Suzzanne

I'm a 22 year veterian of the drug war.
......I never knew I was ADHD and did meth.

adderralll is like a gas station caffine pill to me.
....and i'm on 90 mlgrams.

It's very sad.

there are millions of people like me.

500 are on my website.

I didn't realise you were so young! You're only a year older than I.

you are 14?
................or 41?


lol!

you are 14?
................or 41?


lol!

I'm a 22 year veterian of the drug war.

Oops, I read that 22 year [OLD] veteran...

yeah, I knew this girlie was 15
....her posts radiate youth.

Yes, that's the truly scary part. She's so young, and taking such risks. You have to wonder if it could permanently alter her brain chemistry, not to mention that (if nothing else) she won't develop adequate coping skills to deal with stress.

Ahhhhh, kiddo. Please tell your parents what you're doing (if you would be physically safe doing so) and let them step in to help you. This is a bad, bad road to start down.

Sandy...

Yes, that's the truly scary part. She's so young, and taking such risks. You have to wonder if it could permanently alter her brain chemistry, not to mention that (if nothing else) she won't develop adequate coping skills to deal with stress.that's what made me sad as well :(

there's so many too.
......I watch em come and go.

its hardcore sad...
......and part of the nature of my board is detaching with love.
so...whooo.

musical terrret...


You know I've seen a lot of what the world can do
And it's breakin' my heart in two
Because I never wanna see you a sad girl
Don't be a bad girl
But if you wanna leave, take good care
I hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware


cat stephens



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DHXpnZi9Hzs

fgs lkie i care wot u people think no i didnt fkin expect YAY i didnt expect ne of that
i dont ealy care
I ALREADY HAVE DEPRESION
woopdebloodydo
i didnt want EVEYRYTHING
my god get ur facts right
u dont even KNOW me
all u kno is i took more than i was mentt oof my meds
nd u dnt kno why
or wots ahpepned
so u kno wot
just leve me alone
nd i dnt care k?
KKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

Uh ok... if you don't care... um ... why the post?

:( Sarey,

The point is that WE care, and many of us have been in your shoes or similar shoes, which is why we posted, and why we're suggesting (or at least I am, but I'll defer to Suzannex's judgment entirely), that it might be a good idea to hit the print button on your computer and print off this thread, take it to your parents, circle the name Sarey and, if it isn't obvious to them from the screen name, write "I am Sarey" on the paper, and hand it to them.

This ASSUMES that you'll be physically safe (i.e., they won't harm you for telling them that) if you do that. If your parents will not physically harm you if you do that, would you please give that thought just maybe 5 minutes' consideration? If you're not sure about the safety issue, then maybe there's another adult we could consider for the same thing?

I'm not suggesting this to shame you. I'm suggesting it to try to help you to feel BETTER over the long haul. I look at your photo on your page and I see a beautiful young girl who has a lot ahead of her, but if she's taking 5 Concerta (or 6) at one time, she won't be that beautiful girl for long enough....

K? Just give the thought 5 minutes' consideration. Ask Susannex if she thinks it's a good idea, maybe (sorry Susannex, but I assume you'd be willing and I just don't have direct personal experience with substance abuse), and if she does, it would be a REALLY easy thing to do. You wouldn't have to think too hard about it, just hit print, circle, hand it to your parents. Done.

5 minutes? Then I promise not to bug you again about it.

Sandy

P.S. Oh, btw, I have ABSOLUTELY been in your shoes on the depression front, honey. Absolutely been there. You can get out of that hole, but the first step to getting out of it is to learn to accept and follow other people's advice. It's hard to do because it requires a little bit of a leap of faith, but you'll feel relieved when you stop having to try to fix everything all on your own... And it can and WILL get better if you can learn to let other people help you. :)

"I don't care" .. "You don't know me" ..

You're right. We don't know you. We only know what you tell us and you told us that you abused your medication. This doesn't make you a bad person. There are many people here that have done this in the past. Some of them have commented on this thread because they know some of the pitfalls that come with abusing your medication. They don't want to see you make mistakes that you are going to regret in 10, 20 years.

Don't think that people here are trying to attack you. They only want to help. I know it's hard to see that when you're in a bad state of mind, but a lot of us have been exactly where you are now and want to help you get back on your feet.

Hang in there.

i post because this is a place u post bout this
k?

Yup. We post back 'cause this is what we old folks are here for, to help beautiful kids like you, eh?

You givin' me maybe 5 minutes of thought? Just that much?

Sarey,

Would you feel physically safe telling your parents (might be no fun emotionally, but I'm asking about whether they might hurt you)?

Sandy

You still there, Sarey?

Whatcha think, honey? Would you be safe if you printed the thread?

Are your parents home right now? What time is it where you are?

Sandy

I'm still hangin' here, kiddo. There are others watching, too... We're all rootin' for you. Whatcha think?

i cant
i really cant tell my parent
mum
not dad.
shes not got time to bother about this crap

Why not, Sarey? Does she have to work a lot? You got brothers or sisters? Aunts? Uncles? Grandparents? A really nice teacher???

Dad's not around? (My dad died, so I'm just wondering if you're dad's still alive, or just not in the picture or whatever. No judgment intended with that question.)

a brother.(well, we are so close that we consider each other family)
a sister.
she hates me.
fights with me alot.
moving out soon because of me.
i dont socialize with any of my family.
i dont have many nice teachers.
its fine tho i deal with stuff by myself anyway.


and my dad isnt in picture.
hasnt been for a few years.
shesh hes... just...
hes kidnapped me before, brainwashed me, lied a few million times, hurt me, not just emotionally....

I hear ya.

I'll bet your mom actually would MAKE time if she knew what you were feeling and that you felt badly enough to take 5 (6?) Concerta at once.

You're 15, right? At 15 I took care of things for myself, too. By 22 I was melting down. You're a little too young to have to take care of things for yourself just yet.

How old is the surrogate brother?

she wouldnt
we talk but we dont get on
probably my fault because of that, im short tempered and lose it too quickly
shes more of a 'i love the other daughter more than her, shes better'
i used to be a daddys girl till he went
but she found out yesterday about all this because the school found out, went docs nd got checkd over nd everything, but she just... she was so mad at me and completely ignored me and tried to make me seem like a really bad person infront of my doc.

i always take care of things myself, just how i always have been. if somethings wrong, ill try to fix it. if something goes on, ill try to deal with it myself. just. u know..
shes an alcoholic but shes doing better
she got worse when my nan died, but she getting better now

my bro is 25.
hes really awesome but my best friend(also considered her family, she used to call me lil sidder and i called her big sidder) died on the 23rd of march and they were engaged to be married so we've hit a real hard patch and its difficult on both of us specially him... but he still is all like are u ok whats wrong he can usually tell if something is wrong and stuff

Mmmmmmmmm, that sounds tough. My mom's an alcoholic too... I'm glad that people know about the meds. Don't assume that your mom's JUST mad, though. She was probably frightened, too, and she probably isn't terribly good at sorting all that stuff out and only showing you the better parts, you know?

i guess.. i dunno..

Lots of us adults aren't terribly good at those things, as you probably already know, but it bears repeating. Just because an adult says or does something that hurts you doesn't mean that you bear any responsibility for that. Sometimes (usually) it's all on them.

I pm'd you, kiddo. Will you pm me back?

i pmd you back
thanks for the pm... and the friend request...

Take care, I wish you well.

well its not as if i was gonna tel my mum is it? no.
she expected me to take my daily dose in morn , so i did
i dont tell people what i do a whole load of time thanks.

jeez


nd i doubt i will 'pay for it' in anyway cuz ive overdosed quite alot of times nd ive got off 'easy' from it nd ive not had any long term effects

You may not pay for it today, in a month, or in a year, but probably not longer, if you keep this habit up there will be serious permanent issues you will have to deal with. While off the drug, your lows will become lower, and while on it the highs will also be lower... you will see the effects.

Good luck my friend.:(

Hi Sarey,

First, I want to commend Sandy on how she's helping you out... she really is a wonderful woman.

Secondly, often parents act like this because they don't understand. If you reach out to her and try to tell her what it's like, she may begin to get why you act the way you do. As long as she knows you love her and appreciate her at the end of the day. It's hard when you're fighting all the time.

As an alcoholic, she may understand why you do things to excess, and if she's begun to recover and do better perhaps she can help you find the best path.

I'd say that day she was very frightened and scared for you because maybe she though you might go down the addiction path too?

The fact she was there with you speaks volumes. If she didn't love you she wouldn't be so worried. At the end of the day, no matter how much you fight, parents want their children to be happy and healthy.

Good luck and if you ever need to chat you're in good hands here.

Kristen

I can tell you from experience the less you tell your parents the worse off you are.
I used to hide my haibits and drug use from them. My mom once asked me to try and stop using for a few weeks and I just laughed inside my head because I knew I couldn't. I just didn't know then how much trouble I was getting my self into.

I thought my parents wouldn't care or understand anything I was going through. It wasn't for them to understand, they just need to leave me alone so I could get on with my life with out them. I would also fight with one of my older brothers and my mom almost every day. It got to a point where I would do everything I could not to interact with them unless I needed money or something from them.

In the end, once I told my parents everything I was doing, we worked together and got help for me (ok it took more than that but thats another story). Now I have some sobriety time and I have my life back. I actually have a relationship with my family now too.

Stimulants are nothing to mess around with, I did Crystal Meth for a couple years and what started out as fun experimentation lead to me dying inside. The things I did for the drug, I wont go into. Just know you are riding a thin line of experimentation and addiction.

I would use because I did not want to feel any more, I didn't like the "normal" feeling I had. After a while, I couldn't function unless I had the drug in me. I had to use to feel normal.

I wish you the best of luck. If you feel safe enough, find an adult (maybe not your parents) but someone you can talk to about how you feel and how you overdose on your meds. Maybe your doc or a counselor at school.

Hang in there. The road does get easier if you let others carry some of the load.