well ive gone through a lot of changes with medication and stuff and last week my psychiatrist had brought up the idea of me being bipolar but said shed put it on the back burner till she can figure out what im like further...i came home and looked up on information, took those little questionaire things, looked at symptoms for practically everything lol and printed them all out and circled and underlined the things that were basically describing me..all arrows really point to bipolar disorder but even though i have a lot of the mania tendancies i dont feel like it is mania and it would be hypomania cause i dont think its really actually anything big yet talking to one of my friends she seemed really worried a couple of times when i talked to her and asked when i was going back to my psychiatrist...i dunno i guess im just nervous about tomrw because i dont want to go on another antidepressant that is not gonna work cause ive tried 3 and i havent had a goods night rest in ages...either i sleep 2 hours or i sleep but wake up every hour and have the weirdest nightmares that are so vivid and sometimes i actually think they're real...i dunno i guess im just nervous to see how tomrw goes..

Hi there . . .

It is really scary to think about having bipolar. The thing about mania is, it's easier for other who know you to judge if you are manic than to judge yourself because one of the classic things with mania is lack of insight, or the inability to figure out that you are indeed acting out of the ordinary.

Hang in there with your doc. And remember that there is good treatment available for BP, and it's better to be diagnosed and treated than remain in the dark about what's going on.

yeah..i guess your right...when i went back my psych kinda looked at me weirdly cause i had wanted to be a superhero for 2 days and had no care in the world but she thinks that was caused by my increase in the SNRI so she put me on an SSRI for now and i guess i just gotta wait for a bit and see what happens with that..its all a big pile of patience i guess