Is this normal? She has done this before and I think it's bazaar. She is diagnosed with bipolar & gad (I'm ADHD which is why Im here) and anyhow, this last week she has been moody as heck, since going on Xanax and spent the last week formulating thoughts that she was thinking of cutting again, suicide via overdose and other crazy thoughts. She is searching on the internet about stuff, almost like she is prepping her information or stories to insure her entry into the hospital.

She goes to see the doc tomorrow afternoon. She has on her to do list to get a haircut, earplugs and other things she needs while in the hospital. She has been their 5 times in the last 2 years, and this preparation is not uncommon for her, one or more time, got a manicure before going in.

Sadly, it's not a fun place to go and she is ready to leave after a day because its very structured and she hates that. But, she seems to forget that she gets NO help at the hospital, the goal is just to stabilize then they send you home.

One time she went to her doc having done a lot of "prep" work only to not get the recommendation, and she responded with cutting herself and then call the doc office to say she was going in and basically making the decision for herself.

Is this normal thinking for those with bipolar?

I'm not sure, but if she started doing this since on the xanax.. maybe it's not the right med for her. I hope others will have answers. In the meantime, hugs!

Boy oh boy, Zapped.

I don't know if it's normal, either, but I sure understand why you feel Zapped. Sorry for you. Hugs from me, too.

Sandy

Sounds like borderline stuff to me. What a nightmare.

Is it like she needs a break or something? I used know a client who used to pull stunts when she wanted to go to the hospital just for a change of pace.

Yea, I think she has BPD, but it's not official. I have got hints that she is set on going to the hospital, and hints that she has no intention of going on, with about equal weight. Has plans for the days ahead, not trying to wiggle out of them... yet makes a list of things she wants to get done, does get her hair cut.

So... I don't know. I give up. It's like this every day... up and down, up and down, up and down, up and down, many times per day.

Xanax is a terrible drug for anyone with mood issues....