This happened a week ago..
....I did'nt want anyone to stop my self loathing parade.
I tend to brood, and pour it over myself ( I call this "self basting")
.......I do it until I think i understand well enough, or have been punished enough.

I've always done it, since I was a kid.
....my parents would tell me not to run with scissors, and I'd sit in my room....under a blanket held up by 2 chairs....and just "be with me"
.....I still go somewhere and absorb something heavy alone.


they would have to MAKE me stop punishing myself...brooding...

"suz, just don't do it again, you can come out! stop it!"

the outside static is too much when I'm listening to all the voices raising hell....
........when they stop...I'm done.

well.

my boss called me and said she was "letting me go"
....I said WHY???
(I work my *** off there)

she said...

"some people just don't get you suzie, you know you're a little different."

now that I got another job, and i'm not tripping on that.

....it hurt my feelings.

I've been trying to isolate my "differentness" and look at it.

.......I'm friendly, and I go out of my way for people...
on my own time...and at work.

I don't drink beer, fish, nor was I home schooled like the rest of the town.

they're different.

aww..I'm sorry they hurt your feeling Suzie..I vividly remember that feeling of being "fired"

anyway..what's wrong with "different" ? :) we like it

I don't understand the concept either tracy.

.....it's possibly a new way to meditate.

my mind goes blank when i think of everyone being the same.

What was your job? Was it something you had to be really social?

SuzzanneX, I'm sorry you got fired.

SuzzanneX,

Sorry for you. That blows. Blows, blows, blows, blows, BLOWS.

Sandy

Suzie, I'm sorry you got fired. But did I see you post that you have a new job? If so, what does that involve?

I was a cashier 3pm till 11

...MY NEW JOB, I'm a cashier, 11pm to 7 am.

to me it's social.
.......I guess it's not to everyone!

LOL!

I was a cashier 3pm till 11

...MY NEW JOB, I'm a cashier, 11pm to 7 am.

to me it's social.
.......I guess it's not to everyone!

LOL!

Good luck on the *new* job!!

Imnapl, and everyone..
....you can call me suzie or suz.

suzzanneX is too long!

when i regsistered, it was taken, that's what my friends and family call me.

suzanne is my tax name
X is my middle name.

....my parents put "X" for no middle initial...and it's on my Identification.

they don't call me ZannX for nuthin' LOL

suzanne is my tax name
X is my middle name.

....my parents put "X" for no middle initial...and it's on my Identification.

they don't call me ZannX for nuthin' LOLFar out! :cool:

Too bad your parents put an X instead of a Q.

OMG...
....I'd be the first infant to jump off the empire state building on purpose.

LOL! ...people call me that anyway.

the stones, dead flowers is my favorite suzie song...
......but, creedences suzie Q is hard to find fault with.

suz
suze
suzie
suzette
forgetsuzette
rocket suzie
suzarthebarbarian
suzar
ZanneX
heysuz (like jesus in spaniish)
suzie Q

....and smilie, is universal for me.

from the ghetto to the country club...
...people greet me as smile alot.

I got alotta nicknames

OMG...
....I'd be the first infant to jump off the empire state building on purpose.

LOL! ...people call me that anyway.

the stones, dead flowers is my favorite suzie song...
......but, creedences suzie Q is hard to find fault with.
It's a fine line between pleasure and pain:D

LOL..oopsie..wrong quote..sorry S :)
duh!

"some people just don't get you suzie, you know you're a little different."

now that I got another job, and i'm not tripping on that.

....it hurt my feelings.

I've been trying to isolate my "differentness" and look at it.

.......I'm friendly, and I go out of my way for people...
on my own time...and at work.

I don't drink beer, fish, nor was I home schooled like the rest of the town.

they're different.

Sorry your boss thinks your different

For the record, BOSS spelled back-wards is "Double SOB":D

Ya know, the world would be an awful boring place if no one was different.

Keep on being you and don't change! And quit analyzing, we do way to much of that attempting to make sense of things.

Its there loss and your gain Suzie,good luck with the new job,I hope the roof fall's in on your old place of work.Having been lucky enough to secure a new job so quickly maybe your luck's in,why not have a flutter on the lottery,promise if you win,no begging letter's.

I didn't know that being "a little different" was grounds for being fired... ? I don't know if you work for a large corporation/company such a Walmart, but I'd think about writing a letter to the head office asking them to clarify the exact reason you were fired - as that will go on your work record if you have to use that employer for a reference in the future.

Congrats on getting a "new" job so quickly!

the more I can't find a job, the more I resent myself and my "differentness"
...I struggled for individuality my whole life, and this is what I win.

suicidal daydreams, and low self esteem.
...I feel like garbage.

garbage I can't put a lid on, that keeps spilling out.

I did'nt get the last job, because I'm on meds, I failed the drug test.

Wwwwwwwwhat?????!!! A prescription medication?

I dunno, Susie. Were you gonna fly airplanes? Operate freight trains? Drive a bus? Perform neurosurgery?

That doesn't sound right to me, Susie..... A routine job screening tool that systematically eliminates a certain disability? That does NOT sound right.

PM me, wouldja? Give me more details. Or did you not want it anyway? If it's not something on which you had your heart set then I won't get my underwear in a bundle over it, but that just does NOT sound right.

Sandy

....I ran out of valium....I usually never do... my mom gave me a few of
her XanneX, since she lost my script..

.....there was the drug test day right behind that.

I don't have a prescription for xannax.

this town is so limited....
.....I don't know what to do.

I worte a book I dunno how to publish, I can't pay attention long enough to learn..
......no matter how hard I try.

it's in chapters and everything..
...but I don't know how to use word processers, so it's stashed in a hidden forum
on my website.

I'm all creativity, and no structure.
........I get to a certain point with things, and it sits on the shelf.

I have about 20 inventions, I use everyday, and I just wait for someone else to
come up with it.

I even paid a lawyer 100 bucks to help me.

....he gave me the patent website.

like i can find something like that.

I'm just so frustrated.

everyone who see's the book freaks out.
.....they tell me I have GOT to get it out....it's a documentation of addiction
in vivid detail, with illustrations.

I HAVE the target audience, I run a recovery website.
......it's my lifes work, and I feel like i have to die holding it to get it published.

I know someone who had a book published, and I sent her chapter 1
....she wrote me.

Dear Suzie,
This writing obviously comes from your very soul. I'm glad you don't worry about typos and spelling because this is the type of writing were something takes over and you have to type until the voice within tells you that it's okay to stop.

I talked to Mike last night on our way to Professional Writers. He may be able to help you. He can definitely talk to you about publishing options, including booklets that people can order online and are very profitable. I'm forwarding your writing to Mike so he can see your style of writing and also your talent and message. I fully agree that this needs to get out there and Mike will talk about the different ways to promote your writing.

Good luck and keep in touch. People need to hear and read what you have to say.

Warm hug,
Carol


...I have'nt heard anything except there's a writers meeting, I don't have gas to get to....
....it's in another town.

I know I'm skipping around, I do that when i'm upset, but this job, I failed to get
......was 11pm to 7 am as a gas station cashier, in "crack town" which does'nt
intrest me...not my drug of choice.

...............my mom is very relived.

my roomate is having a fit.

I feel I could do so much more with myself....but what???

I think that your art is outstanding, frankly. Have you sold it much?

how??

that's what i mean...
...I don't have the smarts to figure out how to sell it, when you can just print it.

right here.

I've got a friend who owns a framing shop. She and her partner are both artists. They make a pretty good living, BTW, and framing IS its own art. What about working in a framing shop? (Not a chain, mind you, an artsy one. My friend and her partner, for example have nose rings and dreadlocks, you know? They're not slapping black frames on high school diplomas and calling it at day...)

I'll make a note to call up my friend and ask her about how one breaks into selling one's art, 'cause I don't really know. I know this, I'd buy some of it! :)

My hubby is a freelance writer and the publishing company that he works with (Motorbooks Int'l) is owned by a larger publisher that does other stuff than car books, so he's going to ask around about whether someone might be able to look at your book. If so, I think you'd probably want to spring for a color copy of it. In fact, while you're at it, if it's not too expensive, make two copies so that you can copyright one. (Unfortunately I don't know what's involved in copyrighting something like that, but I suspect that it's not very complicated; and I have a friend who will know that answer off the top of her head.)

I'll PM you when I know more. Feel free to PM me to bug me to remind me. I am an ADDer, after all! :D:rolleyes::o

Sandy

As far as I'm concerned it's your ex-bosses' loss. I hope your new job is one where the appreciate your uniqueness and all you have to offer :) Good luck!

I'll be glad to send your husband a sample, and the whole book if he thinks he can help me..

thanks aloha *smiles*

....sandy, I'll PM you chapter 1

Got it. Thanks. Feel free to follow up with me, and I'll follow up with him. He's a little slow and I'm a little... uh.... distracted, at the moment (and always, heh heh heh)!

Sandy

no problem...
......it will be here.

Hey Suzie, sorry to hear about the string of bad luck. I know what you mean about small Fl towns. Lots of ignorant and bigoted people down here in these parts. Good luck with the book and job search. Don't sell yourself too short (coming from one who does this).

*note: grammatical rules will not necessarily be observed by me on this site!*

thank you dying inside, I would'nt notice if you're grammatical anyway. *smiles*

S-X (a new one!): What really struck me is your question and observation about being "different."

We seek to differentiate ourselves from our parents. We may value uniqueness in high school, college or beyond. When we work, we seek to be valued for our accomplishments.

Yet, upon being diagnosed or branded ADHD, we get handed a difference we weren't prepared to accept. We are neither unique nor really protected. We are not the diversity they were looking for!

Go figure ...

beautifully written.

welp, I'm up at 6:30 am...
............I'm going to a job fair.

jeez...I hope.

I have been kicked out of a lot of things including a job and given the same kind of "similar" excuse.

I know that hurt feeling exactly.

This happened a week ago..
....I did'nt want anyone to stop my self loathing parade.
I tend to brood, and pour it over myself ( I call this "self basting")
.......I do it until I think i understand well enough, or have been punished enough.

I've always done it, since I was a kid.
....my parents would tell me not to run with scissors, and I'd sit in my room....under a blanket held up by 2 chairs....and just "be with me"
.....I still go somewhere and absorb something heavy alone.


they would have to MAKE me stop punishing myself...brooding...

"suz, just don't do it again, you can come out! stop it!"

the outside static is too much when I'm listening to all the voices raising hell....
........when they stop...I'm done.

well.

my boss called me and said she was "letting me go"
....I said WHY???
(I work my *** off there)

she said...

"some people just don't get you suzie, you know you're a little different."

now that I got another job, and i'm not tripping on that.

....it hurt my feelings.

I've been trying to isolate my "differentness" and look at it.

.......I'm friendly, and I go out of my way for people...
on my own time...and at work.

I don't drink beer, fish, nor was I home schooled like the rest of the town.

they're different.

We all need to be aware of the times we are in. We ADD'ers are in that "last hired, first fired" category. Well, it's firin' time. Be sure that resume is up to date...