I am waiting the insurance companies decision about putting me on long-term disability. Both the doctor's office and therapist have said it would be a bad idea for me to go back to work, but I worry. My son has Asperger Syndrome and was just placed in a special class and that is kicking my *** as well. Plus my dysfunctional dad is still here and we have let him know he MUST leave once he starts getting social security in Sept. Finally my daughter is showing more signs of BP II, but thankfully no traumatic episodes yet.

I am on 900mg of Lithium and back up to 100mg on Lamictal. There has been no change and the PDoc says once we reach the therapeutic Lithium levels we will give it a month to see if things get better or else change the Lithium. I still cycle a lot and today..on my birthday..i am depressed. I am not sure besides a pity party what the point of this post is. I guess I just needed to write.

I feel like Lt. Dan in Forest Gump..remember when he's on the shrimp boat WHERE IS YOUR GOD NOW FOREST..and then he is on the mast raging against the storm....well that's me right now...

I am waiting the insurance companies decision about putting me on long-term disability. Both the doctor's office and therapist have said it would be a bad idea for me to go back to work, but I worry. My son has Asperger Syndrome and was just placed in a special class and that is kicking my *** as well. Plus my dysfunctional dad is still here and we have let him know he MUST leave once he starts getting social security in Sept. Finally my daughter is showing more signs of BP II, but thankfully no traumatic episodes yet.

I am on 900mg of Lithium and back up to 100mg on Lamictal. There has been no change and the PDoc says once we reach the therapeutic Lithium levels we will give it a month to see if things get better or else change the Lithium. I still cycle a lot and today..on my birthday..i am depressed. I am not sure besides a pity party what the point of this post is. I guess I just needed to write.

I feel like Lt. Dan in Forest Gump..remember when he's on the shrimp boat WHERE IS YOUR GOD NOW FOREST..and then he is on the mast raging against the storm....well that's me right now...
Hugs and Happy Birthday SD, I hope things look up for you soon

My birthday is always a "bathing in existential angst day." I believe in God and everything, and yet my birthday always makes me think about how I'm inexorably getting older and if I am really walking the path I should be walking and becoming a person of character like I think I should (and inevitably, of course, I feel like I am falling short).

BUT, you can also think of it as one more year of being such a trooper living with an illness that kicks a lot of people's butts. Just surviving for us is a pretty big success so if we can dwell on that I think we would feel better.

Happy birthday.

Happy Birthday Sponge!

Anyone, bipolar or not, would have difficulty handling the stressors that you have going on in your life right now. I wish that I could say it as well as AmieGrace did, but I am bordering on the insane and illogical side of the spectrum right now. Birthdays are always difficult for me as well. Hang in there.

I concur with ADHDdogwalker. Happy birthday, though!

Grrr... must get to sleep... 3:27 AM. :eek:

..and for my birthday my poor short-term memory forgot to take my credit card from the restaurant last night..at least that's what I think happened...they don't open until 4PM

$#%@$#$#$

Do you mean your short term memory doesn't open until 4? In my case, that would explain a whole myriad of things. Mostly, why I never lock my keys in the car during evening hours.

I am rooting for you. I suspect many of us on this board are. Please hang in there.

Happy B-day, Sponge...belatedly. We're both kind of going through the fire- It's good that there is and end in sight for the situation with your dad, even though it's still a long way off. My dad is headed off to an Alzheimer's unit today, and I got fired yesterday. Circumstances can be so danged hard.
Let's both hang in there, 'K?

Happy B-day, Sponge...belatedly. We're both kind of going through the fire- It's good that there is and end in sight for the situation with your dad, even though it's still a long way off. My dad is headed off to an Alzheimer's unit today, and I got fired yesterday. Circumstances can be so danged hard.
Let's both hang in there, 'K?

I am sorry to hear about your suffering. I hope it gets better.

I just wanted to add, for those who are new and afraid, that things can get better. Right now I have lots of bad days, I refuse to give up and am working towards improving my life. When I looked at my post's title I thought it may give someone the impression of hoplessness and we get enough of that during the depressive cycle.