I just got "home" (I'm staying in Bradford, Ontario for a week with my grama to watch some cousins) from a bicycle ride to a supplement store to get some magnesium...thankfully they had some citrate ones, I have to wait to get more taurate... anyway... I was riding home and these guys sitting at a bar table (by the sidewalk), "playas" (by the way they looked, acted, and dressed) pointed and laughed at me as I rode by and said I had a flat... which is wrong and I know so I didn't look at the tire as I guess they wanted me to, I looked right at the guy with a neutral expression while I rode by (like to point out I wasn't looking at them when they started)... anyway just as I passed these guys someone else joined in and yelled "f****t" to me. I suppose like kindness ******* is contagious as well.

It kind of got me down for a few minutes, you know, I was wondering what was wrong with me, the way I dress (Bradford is a yuppie/******* small city and I dress like a "loser") etc... until I realised that I'm letting a******* like these win if I'm depressed all the time because people like THEM judge me... I don't give a flying **** what people like that think of me... in fact I only care about the sort of people that seem to like my company... because obviously there is something there.

Anyway... I feel like hitting these people but I won't. I'm not a fighter in that way... but I am one hell of a mental fighter... my ADHD perseverance is about the only thing that's kept me from going compeletely over the bend.

So anyway, I'm finished with the social anxiety again... kind of like the first time I said that... it's back again. The depression as well. I just gotta be myself again.

Way to go! You've got the right attitude although no one blames for feeling like you want to hit them.

Typically, when people behave like these ***h**** it is because THEY are ***h****, not because you are. I'm not sure why our brains switch that around when we have been verbally attacked or something similar.

Don't let them change who you are. Have a great evening.

FIVE

Its odd and I do not know the mechanism but pedestrians trigger something
in people in cars that they think gives them the right to name call or honk,
etc. Maybe its the nature of the protective shell of a car vs a person not in
a shell. I mainly walk now since I crashed my car and lost my job years ago.
So I get the rare name call. I usually take paths and go out at times that has very low number of people.

I do not think magnesium citrate is all that well absorbed. I made my own.(did not have to go out in public and face ridicule :) )

NaHCO3(s)----heat--> Na2CO3(s) + H2O(g) + CO2(g)
(baken soda) -------> (sodium carbonate)

MgSO4*7H2O(ag) + Na2CO3(ag) -----> MgCO3(s) + Na2SO4(ag)
(epsom salt) --------------------> (magnesium carbonate)

Magnesium carbonate + citric acid ----> magnesium citrate (I did this step by adding magnesium carbonate to citric juice(OJ etc) I never tried to make a pure powder)

until I realised that I'm letting a******* like these win if I'm depressed all the time because people like THEM judge me... I don't give a flying **** what people like that think of me... in fact I only care about the sort of people that seem to like my company... because obviously there is something there.



exactly.

Thanks guys.

Just a note - Magnesium sulfate and Magnesium oxide are supplements that are much better absorbed by the digestive track. I have to say, Magnesium Citrate is the main ingredient in a fairly powerful laxative - however if you were seeking that effect....

Glad to hear that you didn't let those losers make you lose it.

Magneisum oxide is 4% bioavailable, no thanks, Citrate is quite a bit more than that, which is why it causes the stomach stuff. Magnesium taurate is more than 90% bioavailable and causes no digestive disruption whatsoever, which is why that is what I get... and will when it becomes available to me once again.

Well done you for not letting this get to you!
9 times out of 10, those who ridicule others aren't happy themselves... I guess it just makes them feel better by putting someone else down. By being strong it just shows you're a much better person than them.