Okay, I have to stop taking hte Zoloft again... ive given it a few weeks and Im getting the akithisia again... the inner restlessness bad, worse than is usual, or perhaps its because it makes the dexedrine not work at all... I am so ****ing bored right now and all I want to do is something stimulating fun and exciting... im sick of being depressed and bored and ****... I want to right now meet some people, have some sex, abuse some drugs... only have dex here so thats..., or do something dangerous and thrill seeking, or be an ******* to random pedestrians... or pick a fight or something... anything to break out of this numbness boredom bull****... im anxious and bored at the same time, not good combination.

Please suggest something exciting I can do here... Im not at home im at my uncles far away... there is nothing to do in the house that is fun so suggest something i could go out to do...

how can i have some sex tonight? maybe i spend my money on something stupid quick and pleasurable? How can i meet random ppeople and have them like me?

please hurry i cant take it much longer... i want to do something!!! argh!

how long have you been have you been having these symptoms?

The last few days, did you see my thread where i mixed alcohol with the dex and blacked out... it ws for the same reason... i cant feel anything..... i want to feel something. i want to be excited and surprised and happy and have a ****ing relationship with another ****ing hiuman being m so lonelyl.

wow, take it easy buddy! are you joking around? I hope so. Anyway, if your NOT joking, and you want to do something exciting, I would reccommend a hooker. I have reccomened this before to MovingShadow(he didn't like it). Anyway, if your horny, this is the best quick fix. If your a REAL good looking guy, I would reccommend going to a club(s) or bar(s), sometimes you can get lucky that way and save money. There you go. A MUCH better solution is to go see your doctor or talk to a REAL person who can help you with your frustrations and issues!

no joking. dont know where hookers are this is a strange town for me. I am good looking, but am socially inept... so bars and such are out... besides its not exciting... i cant see my doctor because he just changes meds... there is no one to talk to dont you get it...

maybe go outside and run as hard and as fast as you can, until you can't anymore...
....and leave the feelings behind you.

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I all ways thought I would do crazy things if I was rich like pay people to go over Niagara Falls in a barrel. So how much cash do I have to raise Mincan? :)

all I want to do is something stimulating fun and exciting... normal, yer 21




im sick of being depressed and bored and **** normal

... I want to right now meet some people, have some sex, normal




abuse some drugs...

bury your feelings? you know, garbage dumps and land fills soon become "no man's land"
the more you bury, the more you have to bury, the worse you feel.

I have the grasp on my emotions of a 17 years old....why?
....I did a drug everytime I had an uncomfortable feeling

only have dex here so thats..., you're life line to sanity for the rest of the month?

or do something dangerous and thrill seeking,

how about bungee jumping?

or be an ******* to random pedestrians... or pick a fight or something...

that's not true.


anything to break out of this numbness boredom bull****... im anxious and bored at the same time

lift weights, move the refrigerater to the living room, swim
.......after you skim the top off, just sit and try to clear your mind.

whats really bothering you?

I love your spirit, please be good to you.

there is no one to talk to dont you get it...

you want my phone number?
...just ask.

dude, masterbation might actually be helpful here..
...I'm serious....you want naked pictures? ...got a webcam??

LOL!

that does'nt matter I got one!

...are you smiling?? *hopes*

I rode my bike as hard as I could since my last post. I feel very angry at everything right now. I feel like telling everyone how I feel and how ****ing stupd they are.

I cant masturbate here, i forgot my lube at home and have searched this house up and down 3 times for anything suitable ith no results, plus there is no locked private areas so i wont bother buying any...

I feel like telling everyone how I feel and how ****ing stupd they are.

..life is full of mirrors.
.....whatever you love about someone is true about you.
whatever you hate is also true....so how stupid is "everybody"
get my drift?

I cant masturbate here, i forgot my lube at home

hair conditioner works well...

I talked mincan to death on IM, so ya'll know, he's not out starting fights

Drugs only mask the problems, they don't get rid of them. By the end of the day you will feel just as bad as when you started.

If getting messed up is the route you want to take though, might I suggest mushrooms or LSD, you might just find the enlightenment you where looking for.

i forgot my lube at home and have searched this house up and down 3 times for anything suitable ith no results, plus there is no locked private areas so i wont bother buying any...

Crisco - {sorry medication wearing off.}

Honestly mincan you have been kind of angry, bored and wanting sex for about a freaking week or two now - it is like you don't know what to do with your self.

Having no girlfriend is mentally damaging.... if it never has happened by this time in someone's life... and shows no signs of changing. Like frustrating and saddening all at the same time.. I have a lot of love to give... but no way of getting it out.

I only wished you lived closer. I too crave getting out of my head and doing something in the world, something to help me feel different than I do. If you ever make it to the west coast let me know and I can show you fun things to do around here.

What helps me (you may or may not find useful) writing. I write every d**n thought in my head until my hand goes numb or cramps up.

I watch movies to unplug my brain for a while.

I take a long drive (not so easy with gas prices) or a very long walk. Go somewhere I can sit and be close to nature. I practice deep breathing and grounding exercises to clam myself and release any unwanted energy.

Have you thought of trying a dating website? (although I don't recommend craigslist) Sometimes that can be a great way to meet someone in your area, and you can introduce them to your personality and eventually maybe even meet. At least it would be the start of something.

i know you posted this yesterday, but if you're having the same feelings, i would seriously run.
i run about 4-5 miles a day.
i get really angry and i will take some adderall (ritalin now), until i get that fiesty high and run until i cant run anymore. and when i get more ****ed, i run harder. and i scream things in my head.
as far as the sex goes, i understand being frustrated.
the first time i took adderall i concentrated so much on masturbating that i did it for over and hour. and really i dont know why i am saying this, being the lady i am...but... if you have any porn that might help.
but these are all quick fixes, and you should know that by know.
you have to get to the root of the problem
but who am i to talk.. i just went into a manic state yesterday and today i feel depressed and ****ed off.

oh yeah. someone mentioned craigslist...that would be good if you are just wanting to hook up. but be careful.
also ive been doing yoga for months and months now, it is helping keeping me centered.

Another suggestion, if you feel like you can be around people, go out to a concert if there is one near by. See a local band or if you feel that you are angry and enraged maybe try a heavy metal concert and 'hang out' in the mosh pit. Maybe not the most constructive idea, but it could be a way to let out some aggression.