Have any of you felt embarrassed to say too much to your boss about your mishaps? Car accidents, forgetful mistakes, careless mistakes? Do you ever feel like a fraud? Like you're just getting by. And one day someone is going to find you out and say, "You know, something just ain't quite right with you".

YES!!!

Now, I work at home away from others, my work is easily organized, and the number of people who know my screwups are limited.

i always feel like a fraud... despite always feeling like i haven't lived up to my potential i am still in a fairly good position in life... i keep thinking i just lucked out!

and you know what.... there is something not quite right with me! but i am VERY good at acting the part society think i should be... is there such a thing as real life oscars??? cuz i would have a whole room full of them.

Mostly I got contradictory comments, such as "Verbally you seem so brilliant, but your written work is somewhat poor." (e.g. teachers; professors)

For me it seems like I make mistakes of 'omission' or not seeing something that I should of not outright making a blatant error. But many times my mistakes are treated catastrophically where I am put on the train track to termination. This is in accounting where the work is really boring & repetitive and it is hard for me to stay focused without ADHD Meds, Anti depressants, Energy Drinks , other stimulants. As a result, I am in a constant state of dread & hysteria. It gets to the point where I dread going into the office where it feels like I am going to criminal court to undergo a cross examination

I have been... before meds (Paroxetine for OCD/Depression)... now, I don't get anxiety over it. But, without meds for ADD I have trouble with (like now) not getting off the computer... forums and games, etc. (esp. Tetris and Solitaire, oh and online checkers).

Anyway, I'm mostly embarrassed when I'm late for anything... always have to think of a good excuse (yep, sometimes I have to fib a little to save myself - but I don't like that either). I had been late for class a lot. I'd oversleep.

But at work... I had made a lot of mistakes at just about every job I had. I used to get really upset when that happened - to the point of tears, sometimes, worried that I'd get "let go".

I am unemployed, and I am still trying to live down the mistakes from a job I lost 3 years ago. Well, the intervening 2 jobs were mistakes all by themselves, but that is another story.

Yeah, in life too. It seems sometimes that my life is just one big mistake.

I have a problem with my attention to detail but my boss usually forgives those mistakes. But when I am inconsistent it seems to cause problems. I can go for awhile doing really good and not making mistakes to making some whoppers that make me nervous. I am always paranoid I am about to get fired. I have been fired 3 times and I just don't trust corporations. They will just get the knife. My boss now knows I have adhd and she really likes me so I feel fairly safe. But she did tell me that I need to try a little harder w/ my social skills and my relationship with co-workers b/c it is getting embarrassing to have to cover for my interpersonal skills. she knows I produce pretty good work but others have their doubts. It is hard to work where people have a bad opinion of you. Plus I have a big mouth and say things I shouldn't and then regret it afterwards. Work is the area of my life that is most affected by my adhd.

I am a fraud. They did figure it out, and I can't do the "act" anymore.