:D Just warning everyone that I am back to work and may not be online as much as before. But, I am still here for you when you need me. Just leave me a private message and I will get back to you as soon as I log on as I check those first.

The first week back is alway's the hardest not only can I NOT lift a 200 pnd man off the floor anymore :eek: wait I couldn't do that before. lol Actually, it was really hard going back all of the employee's are new I'm the only one left from the original shift. But, hey clean slate right?:D

And the baby has actually adjusted to going to the sitter's house very well and is alway's happy to see me. lol Gotta love that.

I started out the week crying and I mean all the time. All I had to do was look at the baby and know I had to leave him and would start crying. Today was especially hard; but, when I went to pick him and the kid's up they were all sitting on the living room floor with the sitter and her kid's just laughing and laughing. Instantly I knew I had made the right choice in going back and am finally ready to admit it. For 8 hours a day I'M FREE!!!!! FREE I TELL YA!!!! I think I had guilty feeling's for wanting to go back to work. I had missed my resident's so much and was in dire need of adult conversation.

Hugs everyone
Cherity

p.s. this was honestly just a note to remind you my pm box is alway's open to you and if it's full my email is in my profile. lol

Hey good luck Nucking -- as you re-enter the working world....I'm sure you will do great....as you go in with new perspectives and strengths....:)

Glad to here it went well futs!!! Back to the working world can be a good thing.
Jim

Futs- we will miss you here but its good you have a life outside the home! Best to you!

yes, it's nice to get back to work - makes the weekends that much nicer (and shorter) you have my back-at-work also sympathies...

lol pembroke I love it. Thanks guys, I am having a little trouble getting the groove of thing's again so I'm sure there will be those up and down days. But, hey at the end of it all is a paycheck.

I am so glad to hear that its working out as well as it is... both at work and at home... I know this is something that was stressing you out.

Heh, I feel like posting a picture of a cheerleader here for you, but your avatar already has that covered.. :D

yeehaw ride em cowgirl! Glad things are squared away!!

Where do you work?? What kind of work do you do?? I hope that you had a good week back!

I'm a med passer in a long term care facility. My duties include assisting resident's with daily acts of living (bathing, dressing, etc.) and making sure the other member's of the team are following thru on their assigned task's.

I cannot say tonight was a good night. I seem to have a man***** on my shift who will not leave the other female employee's alone, he is very insulting and has had to be called down twice which in NOT something I enjoy doing but I do not aprove of sexual harrassement.

I also lost a very wonderful man last night. It's alway's hard to comfort the familyl when you feel like crying yourself. But, he is in a better place and his family was ready for him to leave them.

On a better note Garrett was so excited to see me this morning he gave me his very first voluntary smile. whooohooo!!!!!

Well, I hope that answer's your question's Amanda.

Hugs,
Cherity

Cherity,
Sounds like your up to your usual tricks of campassion on the job!! Just what I thought!!.

You cannot take care of a person for over five years and not get attached to the resident and the family member's. *deep sigh* It's a part of life I just wish I could do more in the pain management area's.

That is a tough area! Does Hospice get involved with your patients there? I know they did with my Father in law, but by the time they decided to start pain meds it may have been a little late. He was uncomfortabe for only the last 2 hours or so.
Jim

Yes they get involved with long term pain management. But, unfortunatly this was a sudden illness and the doctor finally agreed to sign the paper's. So, they hadn't even received them. Sometime's private insurance is not the best way to go.

I hear you there!

They must be glad to have you back!
Thats sad though loosing a friend.

it is nice to find you are appreciated in the form of a paycheck....makes it all worthwhile. that was my biggest problem while i was staying home - feeling "worthless" because i wasn't earning money, just spending it. now i don't feel so guilty about spending it. (just a little guilty)

Pembroke as a mother and housewife I KNOW exactly how much work you really do and you should NEVER feel guilty. If the truth be told I feel guilty that I can't stay home full time it's like I'm lacking in some instinct or something.

Good Luck back at work Futs :D

TY Mel

Hey The World For you Futs...cause you're the best..the greatest...you ROCK>..BTW how is work going??????

Actually really good. The guy I wrote up for Sexual Harrassment approached me the other day and asked why exactly I wrote him up...He honestly did not know this woman was so severelly abused at home and felt trully awful and promised to be more supportive of her and after discussing it with her we decided to rip up the formal warning--I alway's hold on to them for a week making sure it is the proper course of action for all parties involved. In the past two day's I have seen this man evolve and open up to the ladies about his own personal life and his own hurt's. I think he is making a true effort so he deserves a second chance. So, the tension at work has been cut in half thank goodness.

I did have words with the administrator but she finally relented. The facility got a new dog and they were insisting she be crated in a dog kennel from 11 p.m to 6 a.m I found the cruel and unusual punishment for only bringing joy. We fought it out for about an hour when she finally agreed that during down time's we could let the dog out as long as she was not allowed to have free reign in the kitchen or dining room's as this is a health code issue. She may be a hard *** (the admin.) but she does listen to us and our opinion's.

Woohooo Futs.. I am proud of ya as usual...stick to your guns sweetie!!!! You are a remarkable human being...I am proud to know ya...T-Shirt should Read that too!

lmao I thought you had forgotten the T-shirt. I think I will just keep this thread open and discuss what goes wrong in my day lol it's kinda cathartic.

Yes please keep.....a good day of venting after work:D

:o How could you think I would forget my t-shirt for shame futs!!!!!

My bad *giggles*

:nono: I forgive you anyway...you too adorable to be mad at:p

hehe iguana story on page four in PTSD forum in the Scream thread

LOL OK I have to check that one out hehe

lmao ok but no laughing AT me as if that is possible I still die laughing at myself.

I'm sorry Futs, I tried not laughing but I still love you...and I think had it would have been me I would have been doing the same thing. Love you

Don't be sorry Mel everytime I think about it I die laughing AT myself. hehe I did not even get half the story out I was laughing so hard. But, yesterday I got home and found a stuffed iguana on my gril from a neighbor who thought I could use a hug. lol What a nice guy and an even nicer wife who was screaming at him to get that **** thing out of my shirt. Never have I heard a woman order who husband to feel up another woman. lmbo

OMG I am dying over here !!!!!! Dog looking at me like I am nuts I am laughing so hard....

Hey at least he got wife's permission:p that is rare hehe

What if it would have been a :frog:

I dunno I probably would have been more successful in stripping in the street. lol

OMFG I soo wish I could have been there to see that....with a camera!!!!!!

*kicks Mel* lol

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW W Mommyyyyyyyy she kicked me!!!!!

lol Man mell I don't want to go to work in the worst way tonight. I have the wierdest feeling it's gonna be one of those sucky nights. lol I'm dragging my feet in the worst way I just know I'm gonna be late. lol

Welcome back to the work world.....Call in Dead!

Actually I called in sick!!!!!!!!! I just found out I was passed up again for the Nursing school shcolorship because they worried I wouldn't be able to do my best with a new baby and all. That's the thanks I get for the last 12 years of my life of double shift's, working while under doctor's orders to be on bed rest, working day's off and I just want to cry. God I hate life today. I could have done it I could have. I wanted this so bad. I'm so mad and ready to walk in and give my administrator the universal sign for YOUR NUMBER ONE--NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Awe BIG HUGS Cherity.....it's there loss sweetie, You deserve so much better hun.....I am so sorry:X

Oh Cherity :( I'm so sad about that,,sad and angry. How do you handle something like that? Big Huggs kiddo. Today has not been a good day for you

I am in Yahelite if you need to vent sweetie.

this sooks...try to better yousreslf and the higher ups want to keep ya down
GRRRRR I am mad along with ya hun!

I just don't even know what to do anymore. I just want to give up this scholorship is only offered every four years. It pay's the tuition, you are only responsible for books and such. I give up it was stupid anyways' i'm really too old to be changing carreer's anyways

Cherity.
Isnt it possible that he will make a way where there is no way? Another scholarship perhars, another way of getting what you want? Im no expertm but I think you'd be such a fabuolus hospice nurse. I cant think but that this desire of your heart was meant to be fufilled
Big huggs and lots of love

I've looked everywere on the net. Even though my scores are excellant on the apptitude test's most scholorships are offered to the younger generation and not working mother's. I don't know maybe their right maybe I can't do it *laughs* I'm usually the last to know I'm slipping maybe they know something I don't but I would honestly think my review's would show it.

DONT SAY THAT.....You are just as deserving as the younger KIDS ...you can do it if only they give you a chance...there has to be some other way sweetie....I know you can do it....you are smart and caring and those nitwits dont' know they are passing up a damn good person!!!!!!

Mel, I have done EVERYTHING in my power,,,paid extra for furthering my education until this scholorship came back up. Spent countless day's and hour's away from my kids and husband. Let my household chores slide just to be available to them and I don't know it's just not worth it anymore. I'm tired all this self help **** doesn't do anything in the end. I just don't feel it's fair to put the kids and Doug thru this again for another 4 years. then four year's of schooling it's not right and not fair.

I wish there was something i could do sweetie...I love ya hun..

Check TPBM game again:X

Originally posted by Nucking_Futs
I just don't even know what to do anymore. I just want to give up this scholorship is only offered every four years. It pay's the tuition, you are only responsible for books and such. I give up it was stupid anyways' i'm really too old to be changing carreer's anyways

Ummm...no you're not. Especially if you go to a commuter school. Only w/in the recent years my school has turned into a college age school. Before then, the average age of FRESHMAN was 27! Don't use your age as an excuse not to change careers. I know a few older students who recieved scholarships. Search harder. I wouldn't be surprised if there was scholarships for working mothers.

I just don't know anymore. I'm 31 by the time I'm done with college I will be around 35-36 takes a little longer because I want a specialty. Then I have the loans to pay off and Koda my son will be going to college in less than 8 year's. I don't want to steal from his education when he has an entire lifetime ahead of him. I know it sound's stupid and who know's maybe I'll change my mind once it's all settled but right now I'm just to let down to think of anything but giving up. I never would have put up with half the **** that place has put us thru or taken so much time from my family had I known this was gonna happen.

What about those online colledges futs....take you spare time to do it

You can only further your nursing degree not get one.

Ohhhh...just a thought sweetie. Hugsssss

I know Mel and it's a sweet thought....Life *shakes head* yells--I WANT A REFUND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol

Life is a Lemon and I want my Money Back!!!!!!

I'm just really nervous about telling Doug how many times can I fail at something before he realizes what a screw up he married...man he's gonna be mad I have avoided waking him up and he'll have to rush.

Sweetie you are not a failure...at least you tried...its not your fault ppl trying to keep you down..now stop talking like me!

AWWW go way lol I told him,,,he's mad cause I have dedicated so much of my life to one establishment and get nothing in return and the person who got the scholorship is really unreliable when it comes to working her assigned shift's and he's not mad at me at all. I just get nervous sometimes because I think he is too good for me which is funny because he say's he feels the same way about me. How stupid can ppl be? lol

That just means you are perfect for each other :)

Well we do work hard to keep the other from finding out what dorks we are. Probably too hard. I have to post a picture when I get them developed he is so cute with his little bald head and his bifocles. so so so cuteyful

yes Post Post....he looked nice in the Pic holding garret

he did didn't he...I had that one blown up and it hangs above Garrett's bed.

Awe that's sweet:) How is the lil dawlin? Garret I mean

He's sick I'm going to take him to the doc as soon as the kid's are off to school.

Awe big gentle hugsssss to him...what wrong???

I *think* he has the flu but he has a cough too so I'll have to wait and see. I'm probably jumping the gun and taking him in for something viral that can't be treated with meds but babies are fragile so I take the safe road.

Anyway's Thanks Mel I can alway's count on you to make me feel better and your right I will find a way. Right now though the baby is crying and needs tlc. hugs see you when we get home.

Ok sweetie....I love ya Much Hugssssssssssssssssss

Love ya too

Cherity-
I would love it if you tried to do the math- the cost of a nursing degree (with whatever financial aid you can rake up) vs. the income you'll be making once you have it. I would be thinking it wouldn't be long before you made your money back and then some. And you'll have more money for Koda's college. Just a thought.....

lol Ya know something Claudia you sound just like Doug.

I'll take that as a compliment :)

considering the fact that I adore the big lug you should.

Awwww Fanks

That is great he is being so supportive...mesa happy for ya both.Hugs sweetie!

Hey! You shouldnt be lifting anybody off the floor by yourself, not even the little bird bones ladies.;) We would get in so much trouble for doing that. Did they give you a reason you were denied the scolarship? Did it go to someone else? I just read this thread for the first time and I am hopping mad!

Yes, it did go to another girl. Don't be mad I'm still going to finish my schooling. I'm just not gonna have to sign my life away to a facility that doesn't care about it's staff. lol There are alway's two way's to look at every situation. I have missed you FG were ya been?

Hugggs Cherity. Good to see you this afternoon!

I been around.;) The little boy I take care of is going thru a difficult phase and taking up all my fun time. Teething maybe, but is seems too soon to me.

Anyway I am proud of you for continuing your education. Check if your company has a program that lets you reimburse for partial or total expense of continuing education in classes that relate to your field. Don't ask your facility manager. They are a dime a dozen and often switch companies. Regional managers would know. My company pays you back at the end of the term and the higher your grade, the greater the percentage they reimburse.

I work for a long term care facility run by nun's. They are the final word and were not happy that I was not given the scholorship. They offered to pay for my books at least out of their own pocket's. I turned them down. I think my husband is right. The less I feel I owe the facility the more relaxed at school I'm going to be and the happier I will be also. I have been researching and filling out application's for grant's. We'll see what happens.

wow, you're ability to bounce back and stay positive is inspiring. thank you!

Most ppl find it irritating; but, I have alway's been this way. I don't know maybe it's a genetic flaw lmbo

I Find it to be a blessing and one of the most indearing qualities about you futsy!

hey gang!
I missed the posts about futs and work I feel like I am missing something of the warmth in these last few posts. Would someone fill me in what happened? I am just curious. Sure other stuff will come up, just thought I ask how it is with futs or what and hope all is on the up and up. :)

OK long story short...As if I could really make a long story short lol.

I was up once again for a scholorship that would have paid all of my class expense's except my books and etc. thru the long term care facility I work at. I did not get the scholorship because they felt that while my scores were very high and I was a definate asset to the work place and would be an asset to the nursing profession I could not handle the stress of school, work and my family because of the new baby.

I was very upset for a couple of day's until I realized that it was actually a blessing. You see when you think about it I no longer have to sign away the year's spent in college plus an additional 5 years after graduating to one place.

I can now go to the CCC and get my RN in 2 years instead of 4 and go into my chosen field without any feeling's of guilt.

There is alway's two way's to see every situation. I'm naturally a positive person sometime's it just takes a little longer for the positive to come out.

Good for you Cherity. I am glad you found the positive in this situation! :D

TY WC and everyone for your support.

Penguins......ya gotta love 'em!

Cherity,

Yousa know me always here for ya...you deserve everyones support cause you are just as supportive to us and even more that SOME!

UMmmmmmmmm that is the purpose of the forum's right Melly binelli?

Yes and learn to take a compliment babay! its almost 10 am and I have not been to bed yet you want sence...read the cat in the hat!

Great attitude Cherity!! My wife has found that she feels lately the nurses coming out of the 2 year programs are stronger than those doing 4 years because the 2 year programs are giving their students much more clinical experience.
Jim

I hope she is right Jim.

Good Luck, Cherity, baby,...I wish nuttin but da best xoxoxoxo