Now keep in mind, this is not near finished. but people have asked to see some of it, so here it is in transition. Its difficult at best ti get the colors to show right on the pc, they are not as jarring as this shows.

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Its true what they say, art reflects the heart & soul of the artist. Beautiful!!!

i LOVE it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOW, It IS beautifullllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll lllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll

thanks..........it has alot to be finished

WOW, is right! Man, I feel totally inadequate again now... That's it! I'm going back to what I'm really talent at! WRITING ANGRY LETTERS TO CONGRESS!

After that, I'll go get myself arrested for running around in tights and a cape again racing trains.

It's beautiful Chrissy. I knew your work would be though.

Now, what did I do with those tights...?

You need to wear tights while you write angry letters to congress? Hrmmm

No, I wear my "Mr. Smith Goes to Washington" outfit for that. The tights are for super heroing. Which for some odd reason always gets me thrown in the drunk tank, and drunks are a mean bunch. They make fun of me for being a bit old for underoos and laugh at me when I try to burn them with my laser vision!

We'll see who's laughing next time nature calls though and they realize all their zippers have been welded closed! HMMPH!

lol

I'm not actually a full fledged super hero you know. E-boy is short for Excuse_boy. I'm the side kick for Unreliable man. I have full fledged super hero powers though because Unreliable man never bothers to show up to fight the bad guys. I just do the super stuff and he shows up in his shiny tights fresh from the cleaners, I mumble something about how he would have been there, but the game was on, and off he goes with the glory, the girls, and the credit. If I'm lucky I might get to wash the "Unreliable-mobile" a '93 geo metro in dire need of a paint job, and a retro-active engineering rethink.

This is what happens when you're non-union. Just so you know.

Now, if you wore the Union Label.....

My kids and I have a super hero, its Cat man and his side kick Hair ball (make hacking noises at the mention of his name))

Me and Stan Lee would be talking... Yeah, I think you hear me talking Stan.

I gotta tell you, I think like you and thats scarey ,I mean really can the world hold two delusional people?

Everyone should have a superhero. We invented a bunch of super hero identities for ourselves on my first ship in my shop. It was a long underway period and twidgets (what sailors refer to electronics techs as) are an odd group in the best of circumstances. That's where E-boy came from. Lucky me. :-) Hey, one guy got tagged with Trout boy. Supposedly bitten by a radio active trout while fly fishing near a nuclear power plant. I count myself lucky not to be the great Trout boy.

I'm not delusional. If the world insists on boring the pants off me though, I'm afraid I'm going to have to insist on running around in my boxer shorts and entertaining myself.

Which, if taken in the wrong context, can get you jailed in all fifty states.

Thats fine, I wear a green sparkly tut and lil mermaid snow boots, its my lucky chat outfit, ask anyone who chats with me. The tiara how ever is for special occasions.

I mean that in a figurative E-boy humor kind of way though, not a pee-wee herman night out at the movies sort of way.

Is he free yet? Im looking to head out to the movies one night soon

I like you too Chrissy, and I don't find it at all scary. You're funny, and nice, creative, and helpful, and I don't think you have a mean bone in your body.

I did have a mean bone, but Im divorcing him now.

The king of all Gnomes lives at my house, his name is Ablah. He speak gnomish
He wears tinfoil around and makes gnome tools and writes the gnome news. There is even a large gnome hole that he and other gnomes live in in my house. Well. thats our super hero

Oh lord Chrissy! I wouldn't let that guy near a crusty old bos'ns mate let alone suggest you go any where near him!

LOL janine, are you sure heisnt the pool boy? And eboy, listen its been awhile since I had a date, pee wee is looking better than my ex at this juncture

Well, Gnome royalty certainly qualifies. Don't let him get anywhere near Pee Wee Herman either. That guy has ISSUES!

E-boy, I have extra tights for you and a blue and gold cape too! (makes super hero's more visable when flying, and makes a cool popping sound when taking off!)

and tissues

But thats another thread completely

Chrissy, if the likes of me can be married in this world and she hasn't killed me (yet) then you will do just fine. Patience is a virtue, or so I'm told. Can't remember who said it because I was in a hurry at the time and just ran on by, but I do remember them saying that.... ;-)

I jotted it down on a notepad but unfortunately I cant read my own handwriting..............

Chrissy, you are BAD! BAD! BAD! BAD! BAD! I have to sleep with that image in my head now and get up early to go to the chapel to help Chaps set up the services for the various denominations and hope the roof doesn't collapse on my head over these awful pictures in my head!!!!! ARRRRRGH!!!!!!!

*DIES OF PEE WEE SHOCK*

lol isnt that in the poison control centers manual? pee wee shock? or is that just what honeymooners.......never mind

Ok I gotta go to bed now. I have to be the helpful people person in the morning. BIG SMILE!

Sleep well Eboy :) thanks for the giggles

You're terrible. *Snicker* Good night.

I like the colors you used.....Warm and sunny is the impression I get from it. Is it paints?....

Yes it acrylic, which lends itself to my detailed grpahic style.

"detailed and graphic" might describe some of my rants, but they are done in micro-soft word and not acrylic. ;-) I can't speak for whether or not the pen is, in fact, mightier than the sword but I can say, without reservation, that my pen, and my tongue too, has made many a soul want to use a sword on me! Mostly folks that needed a good reality check though.

It works wonderfully when I harness it this way. Left to it's own devices it manifests in such lovely and less than constructive ways as over defensive responses to constructive criticism and the like. Much better to lampoon the bad guys than barb folks I care about for actually trying to help me.

You are a peice of work...........what would we do without you?lol You say the very things we all can relate to

I do? Well, I am glad you can relate. I do hurt the ones I love more than I care to admit though. Or more accurately more than I realized I was doing until recently...

It's hard to listen to constructive criticism when your whole life was filled with.... Well you know.... The other kind.... The Colenel Nathan P. Jessup, don't talk about at parties kind. Yeah, that kind.

But the double edged sword ideation again............

I said "Grave danger sir" You said "Is there any other kind son" and you said, "..."

"I DON'T NEED YOU TO TELL ME WHAT I SAID!"

Now Im gonna have to look up ideation to see if its really a word, since I use it alot

Gotta watch those Jarheads!

Well the shrinks use it all the time, so even if it isn't in a common usage dictionary I think you're safe.

Says it right in my psych record over and over and over again...

"Subject denies sucidal or homicidal ideation."

They have done a couple of different self referred psych evals on me over the anxiety and these are questions they have to ask.

I did tell them I wanted to take a baseball bat to my wife's ex, but he beat her up for ten years and Doc decided that was normal, when he found out I hadn't actually done it, or laid out any detailed plans to do it. Though I did mention that if the ^%*(^%*% in question ever tries to break in while I'm there I do have a bat in the house. Personally, I think using my hands would be less likely to cause permanent issues and far more satisfying. Anyway, Doc doesn't think that makes me violent, only protective.

step awayyyyyyyyyyyyyy from the bat..............kidding

It also says that the fact my old man spanked me with a belt was physically abusive?! I can't say I concur with that. Don't get me wrong, the wife handles the discipline in our household and we are not big believers in hitting. I am just saying that I don't recall feeling that my father was abusive because of spankings or that he "messed me up" because of them. Just the one time when he was drunk, and I was sixteen and he tried to spank me. Not only was I not going to let that happen, but he was too drunk to realize he kept hitting me across the back with the buckle. That was a one time incident though. Abusive? Hell yes! Pattern abuse? Nope. He was a verbally abusive person. Intolerant, demanding, emotionally distant and undemonstrative. He had a really long fuse unless he'd been drinking, and being an alcoholic, well figure it out... He didn't understand me at all. He knew I wasn't stupid, so I must just be lazy. When he punished me and I didn't straighten out, I was stubborn and lazy. Which meant the punishments weren't harsh enough. The man tied me in my room when I was little and having night terrors, after having taken the light bulb out of the socket, to teach me not to be afraid of the dark...

You know what? I like being funny more. We're going to go back to that now... I'm and sitting here in the chapel and I'm completely naked under all of these clothes!

That was weird... Sometimes I say more than I want to... Which explains why I got the crap beat out of me so many times before I hit my growth. :-)

By the way, what you said up there, was the best compliment I have had in a really really long time. :-)

THANK YOU!

She gives the BEST compliments, doesn't she? :)

Yes she does BIG. :-)

There's a whole forum of folk here worthy of them, and if their lives have been anything like mine, we're all overdue! :-) Heh heh. I try to return them in kind, of course. I wish I could paint like Chrissy, or do a website like you do. I just chase tron's when the Navy doesn't have me classified as "broken".

man i go get absorbed by the washing machine and miss a whole good couple of posts!! Hugs Andrew by the way. And yes Eboy thats always been something I would like to see data on, how many of us ADD'ers get hit at some point for driving someone batty? Whether or not its right, is another issue. But its always been a curiosity of mine to see the numbers

http://www.click-smilies.de/sammlung0903/liebe/love-smiley-064.gif Chrissy

Chrissy,
I love your painting! I can't wait to see the details emerge, but thank you so much for letting us see the beginings!
I love you

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww andrew thats so cute!!! And claudia, anything for you.

I woke up at noon!!!!!! and guilt free. LOL i love having this time free of responsibilities. the dog ate a whole roll of aluminum foil. lol. its marvelous to have a puppy in the house.

OMG lol...........Im glad you got to sleep and were free of worries, we need that time. Lizzie was up at 6 am bright and early, she told me to go ahead and sleep as she played on the pc, shattering my sleep only a few times with NOOOOOOOOOOOO! ( to what ever game she was losing at) and hey mamma how do you spell....? and **pat pat pat on my eyes** are you awake?

LMBO I can't wait to meet you and your kids. I just did my yoga..it's making me feel great. the puppuy is my Lizzie....he wakes me up early to let him out and he wants to play,,,maybe i should teach him how to play on the puter?

with a diaper on, maybe

the puppy thay is, not you

Cute, very cute.

I have a whole day free and I can't stand myself. LOL I dont know what to do with it. I am not very good at "doing nothing" Maybe its something I need to cultivate, huh?

I clean lol

I usually end up writing something... Funny, nothing with titles these days. Last night the wife asked me to help her write some "official" stuff. She likes the way I write and I like when she asks me to tell some officious windbag off and make it sound civilized. :-) I know I shouldn't take pleasure in it, but if you knew what it was for you'd say "Give 'em #ll E-boy's wife!" She let's me know what's going on and I "ghost write". It's a good outlet for my angst and even though she writes, at least as well, as she says I do it feels good that she thinks so well of my writing and lets me "Play" too. Of course, it's a serious issue and not at all playful, but I still enjoy tweaking a few noses, even if she does edit it out sometimes as being a little "over the top". There are othere times when I get an appreciative "OOOH, I like!" that makes it all the more worth while!

I clean when I remember too, so I don't get into trouble. I didn't used to have trouble remembering this stuff! Right now all is good, just have to look after the laundry.

I guess I write too. I just wrote a pretty painful piece for the forums. I also journal a lot, and have a lot of email buddies. But when I've written to all of them and I'm still waiting for an answer, I'm stuck. Eboy, you do write very well. I always enjoy your posts.

Isnt he a trip? Always entertaining while educational :)

After years and years away from art, I just signed up for a water color class, it starts tomorrow....I've never worked with paints....I'm a bit nervous but I can't wait to start !

Paula

Oh you will do well, you'll see. watercolor is another I used to do, I thought I could only get soft looks from it, but my mother does ONLY watercolor and does amazingly strong things

I was at the book store today looking at books on water colors... I love the way flowers look painted in water colors ! I saw some roses.......Ohhhhhhh, how I dream to be able to paint that well ! :D

I'd love to see more of your work !

OMG I cleaned! I took off the slipcovers from one of the couches and am saoaking them (probably for a month,,they were GREY!_
do you think ive spent too much time with chrissy? LOL Never

Most of my work I gave away or it got ruined in storage. I try not to worry too much as it always seems to get replaced. A book that made a complete difference in my art work is "Drawing on the right side of the brain' Follow it implicitly and the way your eye sees is dramatically improved. Youre gonna do great things.

And Claudia :p prolly

Claudia,

Thank you. I just enjoy expressing myself this way. It forces order to the chaos, as it were. Sometimes there is simply too much going on though and I have to sit down and start jotting outlines and association trees before I can sketch the idea and when it's something big like that, I might go through a good many drafts to get what's in parellel in my head in serial on paper. It's the one way I have always been able to MAKE SURE I can be understood though.

I have enjoyed your writing as well. Now you are making me get all serious and stuff and I usually associate seriousness with misery. YUCK, SPIT, GAG!!!!

I had ants in my pants so bad today, I wanted nothing more than a good editor's address to send a nice long rant letter to. The kind that addresses some position the paper or news organization has taken that has greatly offended me, miffed my dog, and, for that matter, even put the poor cat off his lunch. A letter that in a nutshell tells the editor in chief that his middle initials must be B.V.D. Then explains that it must be so, because his paper is all up in my butt like a bad pair of boxer shorts! I wouldn't say it in that crass a manner, of course. I would do it in a diplomatic way. Not that it would matter. I'd have to send any really good riposte's to a competing organization if I expected them to get printed. Heh, heh... Yes, it was a slow day at the office and even running my butt off at lunch did nothing for me. I did dig up and old poem from last year, that is still my most recent work and post it today.

I love it, it's so haaaaaaaaapyyyyy! :D

Is it a mandala? Must see the whole thing!!!!!!! Oh please???

LOL as soon as its finished. its called Innocent, and is about what is deep within all of us buried under protective layers

Hey Chrissy.

Know anyone with a bus?

only a short one

Think you could load it down with bricks or something and run me over with it? Put me out of everyone's misery?

Make sure you do it right though. I have a very sensitive sense of smell and if I have to sit next to my own cholostomy bag for life it is truly gonna suck.

Or at least take me to a rabid democratic convention ralley and drop me off so I could wander into the middle of the crowd with a bull horn and screech "RICHARD MILLHOUSE NIXON WAS THE GREATEST PRESIDENT WHO EVER LIVED!" It would be quick, and they wouldn't leave enough of me to worry about burrying.

Chrissy makes a pot of tea and fresh cookies, sits Eboy down and says 'Ok kid, whats on your mind?'

Nothing good... My head hurts, rotten day... One good thing all day. I remembered something the wife has forever been asking me to do. She said, "Can't you just take a minute, get your head straight, and leave your work issues, your bad days, the traffic, or whatever else out there and be happy to be home?" I had promised to be a better listener, and not shut her out. So, I pulled into the driveway, rubbed my aching head, lit up a smoke and started doing calming exercises. I was thinking about how good it would be to see my kids, and my wife, and how all that crap that had gotten me so worked up was just crap and none of it was gonna matter tomorrow anyway...

Well, the wife comes marching out of the house about three drags into the smoke visibly angry and asks me what the hell I am doing out here? Being as she is making quite a scene out it front of the house I put the cigarette out and go in, to her yelling at me for kicking back while she is dealing with responsible adult life. I tried to explain myself, but she wouldn't let me even start.

According to her she never gets any time at all. I guess two weekends ago, when I had the kids and she was in D.C. That was a hallucination. I guess the fact that she knows that any weekend she wants, for any reason, on any amoung of notice she wants she can just go and leave the kids with me. She has done this before and I have never batted an eye. We won't even go into the fact that when she was done yelling she went and locked herself in the back room, to "cool off" with out the kids and she was in there for a good bit longer than five minutes.

Now, I'm not saying she doesn't have the kids more than I do. She does. I'm not saying she doesn't have her valid gripes about me. She does. What I am saying, is that this was a simple matter of her deciding to go off halfcocked because she had it in her head that I was somehow living the life of Riley at her expense. Chrissy, I just came home from running from one side of the bay to the other because my base doesn't have a personell detachment, I had to go to the other to get a pay problem fixed, then I had to go for an "additional" job interview at the second job I've been trying to get (I got the job, by the way). At the PSD, I stood there and got my butt chewed by some civilian GS who obviously resented being torn away from his ham sandwich, over a mistake his offive made that has so far cost me roughly a fifth of my monthly pay for three months running. It was all I could do not to reach over that counter and strangle his scrawney little butt! Apparently he thought I was a student as I was in civilian clothes. Had I been in uniform I doubt he would have had the stones to act that way. If I had seen him treat a student that way, I would still have wanted to strangle him. Who the hell does he think he is? He works for us, not the other way around! Jerk. Come to find out my command screwed me up too, so I have to go back thursday to get this worked on, which means I might have to wait another full pay period for my money! GRRRRR! Then traffic getting back was hell, complete with morons galore. Lots of accidents too. By the time I got to Lowe's for my interview, I only barely made it on time, and I had left with three hours to spare and two twenty minute trips in front of me. Yes, it was that bad.

To top it all off, the wife is telling me she is going to see a lawyer Friday. WTH?! This for doing things her way... All I can think is she must have had a worse day than me. If so, she isn't talking about it. All I know is I am so tired, and just plain numb I am past worrying about it. She is going to do what she is going to do. If she goes, so be it. If not, she's got my 100% best effort. I'm not going to go through this daily though. If this is the game, I'll drive her.

The only things I am going to say are:

1) What areas of this do YOU personally have any control over?
( seriously, this really does help us decide what to do to help us feel better)

2) What is HER issue and what is YOUR issue ( in other words, what part of this is simply her problem and what part of this is simply YOUR problem?)

3) Do you have the right to accept that her problem is hers to fix and your problem is yours to fix? Many times this sounds callous. But its a reality. We can NOT in any way shape or form, no matter how much we want to help, fix someones issues. It is impossible. We can however fix our issues.

4) You're in pain, angry, feel victimized and villified and have every right to how you feel, youre being the male in the relationship does not give any one, no matter what, the right to diminish your pain or hardship. Not even your wife. or should I say ESPECIALLY your wife.

5) The only resonibility we have in this life is to treat ourselves decently and others just as decently. If you have done that, you can look yourself in the eye and sleep at night. You can not control how she is going to receive that, thats up to her. Period.

Hugs to you, this is so painful and Im sorry you have to deal with it.

Screw it. I really am doing the best I can. I've made wrong turns, I have misunderstood, and I have had my "issues" get in the way before. I have also dealt with each and every one of these things as I have identified it, and tried to move forward. I think what is unfortunate is that my problems cropping up, aggravated hers. I am not sure any amount of progress on my part will necessarily fix this. I am not saying it won't, mind you, I am saying that I am decidely less confident than I was yesterday.

I don't like fighting. She doesn't let people walk away. If you stand there and take it you have to "hear it" because she expects responses. If she is right and you validate her and do what you can to fix the problem, all is well. If, in your opinion, she is not right, even if you validate her by acknowledging her anger and her reasons for it without agreeing or arguing you have suddenly become a horrible person. The next thing to happen would be a litany of every atrocious sin you have ever committed. Now, walking away would be the reasonable thing to do. Doing so get you the, "Oh, it must be nice to be able to walk out on your responsibilities" speech.

I love her, but sometimes I think she is difficult simply because she thinks she can be. Well like I said, she is a grown woman. She can do as she pleases. I am not going to beg her to stay in this marriage if she is that unhappy. I hope she is smart enough to know that this would be a really spectacularly stupid manipulation gesture. I wrote it out in a letter to her not 24 hours ago. Spelled out my faults, apologized for the ones she had been trying to talk to me about, but I hadn't been listening to her about because she sounded too much like my old man. Told her what I intended to do to make amends, explained that I loved her very much, but that I really was doing my best, and hopefully with listening a little better, I could do a little better. Basically I spelled out that if she was that unhappy I would not blame her for leaving, wouldn't try to stop her, and would make it as easy as possible for her to move on. Re-iterated that I would prefer it not go that route, but that I wasn't going to make it hard for her if she didn't want to be here. In short, if this is something she is throwing out, to get my goat, she doesn't read so well.

It is beautiful!!!!

ty tara :)


Eboy all i can say is hugsssssssssssssssssssssssssssss to you and your wife. Im sorry both of you are in pain, it stinks when good people are hurting

Chrissy,

Life is a beautiful thing. Even if at the moment I happen to have some difficulty seeing that, it is nonetheless true. So, I'll just keep doing my E-boy thing.

yea you're right. Im glad you got to at least vent some.

Nothing wrong with venting :) (Just open a window) jk.

Sorry things are difficult for ya e-boy. Believe me, I know EXACTLY what you're dealing with.

AWWW HUGS to you all.

Chrissy, how are ya today??

OOps sorry posted a url....I will send my blog adress

Does that mean,,,,,,,,,,,,,,dissociating?
Do you want me to call you?
Translate: If I call you will you answer?

K.. I'll try to call you then I'm gonna go to the "bark park" to run the puppy. It's a beautiful day out...warma and sunny with a breeze.

Chrissy lol I kept thinking of your art and thought how wonderful it would be with the sun shining thru it. Have you ever thought of learning cut glass? Of all the art form's I probably love glass works the best personally it NEVER looks the same. Everyday there is a new rainbow I love it. I have often thought of learning myself but can never seem to find the time. I figure I'll save it for retirement or I'll go nuts with nothing to do anyway's. lol

I had a councelor who took a liking to me in high school ( he was a hippy stoner and for some reason thought I was cool) who was a stained glass artisan with his wife out of their home. He began to teach me. It's a very expensive art but I would love to afford to do it.

That sounds truly wonderful. My wife is very much into art as well, though she prefers drawing. She is also a big stained glass fan. There is an option available you can play with that won't break you financially. There are clear acrylics one can paint over glass. At least I think they are acrylics... All I know is chemically speaking it's some kind of epoxy polymer paint. Oxygen cured clear comes in various colors. Not cheap, but far less expensive that doing real stained glass. I am sure one could experiment with it. Kits are available in many hobby shops now. My wife had one. I don't know if she still does have it or if she used it all up. Oh, any work you don't like can be peeled right off too. :-) I can attest to the fact that it looks pretty darn spiffy. Yeah, I know it ain't for the purists by any stretch. But my wife and I liked it and if you like art and interesting effects with light you could have lots of fun with this stuff.

My wife's the artist. I'm the bumbling idiot who has the presence of mind every now and again to look around and say "Honey, this is really beautiful!" Something I need to say out loud more often.

sorry It took so long to read this but that is beautiful, Chrissy!

I have done the stained glass paitn and if you get a good brand ( thick with lots of pigment) its stunning. I rent and had to leave my gorgeous door when we moved.

Awe....sorry Chrissy....It does look great and the next person will be blessed to see such great art...and you can be happy knowing that you created such beauty....mesa happy:D

I feel the same way, hopefully some linear thinker didnt scrape it off ---lol

I'd Kick some bootay if they did:D at least find out if they like and if not take it back.

lol its like stuck on the window...they either have to deal with the sun shining day and night on the window ( its a rising sun) or scrape it off

Heyyy their problem not yours;) hehehe