I feel horrible! Everything I touch turns to crap! Everything I say comes out wrong. I try to help, and people get hurt. I feel like people have the waaay wrong impression of me, and it's getting worse. I have literally cried over this...Why do people assume that what they hear is always right?

I really am a nice person and I would never hurt someone on purpose! I honestly would do anything to help anyone. When I say I care..I really do. But nobody knows this because they don't give me a chance. Or if they do....they are gone within a month. I am usually annoyingly chipper, but I can't fake this...it makes me sad!

MJ

MJ... are you seeing a counselor about any of this? Sometimes, heartaches don't go away or ease until we seek a professional who's trained to see what others can't.

I don't want to assume anything, that might be wrong... but if it is a situation here in forums, sometimes it's best to take a step back from online relationships. Continue talking with those who don't put pressure on you, or demand more than you're able to give.

As always, if you need to talk. You can pm me. *hugs*

MJ, I know you are having a hard time right now, maybe with misunderstandings and judgments. Those that know you understand you and care....In fact I bet they post on here for you! Too bad the whole world can't see your kindness...but those who can are luckiest! :)

MJ,

I'm sorry you're struggling just now. It's obvious to us who read your posts that you are a caring considerate person. Maybe you're just trying too hard to be what you think others want you to be. Maybe you are trying too hard to please everyone. We all know that doesn't work. Maybe it's time to work on pleasing yourself. I discovered that when I'm happier those around me seem to be happier too. Might be worth checking out.


A story you might enjoy -

The Miller, the Son, and the Donkey

The story is about a miller and his son who were driving their donkey to market. They had not gone far when some girls saw them and broke out laughing. "Look!" they cried. "Look at those fools! How silly they are to be trudging along on foot when the donkey might be carrying one of them on his back."

This seemed to make sense, so the father lifted his son onto the donkey and walked along contentedly by his side. They trod on for a while until they met an old man who spoke to the son scornfully. "You should be ashamed of yourself, you lazy rascal. What do you mean by riding when your poor old father has to walk? It shows that no one respects age anymore. The least you can do is get down and let your father rest his old bones." Red faced with shame, the son got down and made his father get onto the donkey's back.

They had gone only a little further when they met a group of young fellows who mocked them. "What a cruel old man!" jeered one of the fellows. "There he sits, selfish and comfortable, while the poor boy has to stumble along the dusty road to keep up with him."

So the father lifted his son up, and the two of them rode along. However, before they reached the market, a townsman stopped them. "Have you no feeling for dumb creatures?" he shouted. "The way you load that little animal is a crime. You two men are better able to carry the poor little beast than he you!"

Wanting to do the right thing, the miller and his son got off the donkey, tied his legs together, slung him on a pole, and carried him on their shoulders. When people saw this spectacle, they laughed so loudly that the donkey was frightened. The animal kicked through the cords that bound him, fell off the pole into the river and drowned.

I had forgotten that story, Rose, thanks. But it shows that you cannot please everyone... no matter how hard you try.

Better to try and do what makes you happy. Thereby making those around you happy. I know when I"m sad and unhappy... it brings everyone around me down, too.

My suggestion... as I already suggested to someone else on the net recently. Distance yourself for a bit....take a break. Do something fun with your family. Go camping....I'm sure there are some tiny kids who would enjoy Momma playing in a sandbox with them .... rather than fretting over something she has no control over.

If it's family.... says parents, siblings, inlaws (or outlaws as I sometimes call them).... you can distance yourself from them, too. Within reason, of course.

As always... pm's are open. *hugs*