I will try to make this short. I have recently come to realize that I am an anger addict, as well as an internet addict. My husband & I have been together for 15 years. I am often hard to get along with but he is easy going.

Last night I was feeling kind of crappy and sleepy (because of my internet addiction). I spend appox. 7-8 hours a day on the internet. I had a bit to drink and I felt even worse. My husband was feeling "in the mood". I told him I wasn't feeling too well. I decided to lie down in the closet. He tried to look for me. I came out later when it sounded like he was asleep.

He woke up and pushed me out the door, locking it. This morning, when he and I were up, he locked the door of every room he went into. He also left the house without kissing or hugging me goodbye. This is something he always does. He has been gone for hours with no phone call. We have always worked everything out before. So I know this will pass, too.

Respectfully....
....You know you are taking advantage of his good nature.

you have to give love to get it.

....listen to more beatles, and get a punching bag.
I don't know what else to say, you already know what you need to do.

sincerely. softly, and with feeling.

change your attitude.


the idea is, make it easy to be near you.

If YOU feel upset, imagine how your husband feels.

I want to rid myself of this. I am going to see a psychiatrist because I do not want to be this way. I am seeing a therapist who recommended the psychiatrist to see if I can get on some combination of medications that will calm my intense anxieties.
I do a lot of nice things for people. My work involves helping those who are less fortunate. The people I talk to tell me I am a good person when I ask them. Even my husband and my therapist tell me that. Everyone has a "not so nice side". I am a human being who is trying to change. I don't want to hurt others feelings.

I have probably exaggerated the amount of time that I am on the internet but I am on it a lot. I feel a strong need to look up information, use message boards and send emails to internet friends. I use it to find articles about mental health, too.

If hubby is feeling the need to have a locked door between you either


There's something wrong with him or
He can't stand the toxic nature of the relationship.
It's only a small step from being in a locked room away from you to a locked front door and gone for good. I've been there - I had a bi-polar girlfriend and even though I loved her to bits it got to a point where I couldn't take it anymore and had to walk out.

You know there is a problem and you make it sound like hubby is not to blame. Realising that it's up to you to do something is a big step - hurry up the next ones so you can have a relationship with a bit more balance.

And stop reading this and go give the fella a hug. It's a great ploy for us internet addicts. I have a kitchen timer that goes off every hour and I have to leave the computer room to do something else before I'm allowed back - using that break to go give him a hug or make him a coffee or just anything that shows affection will take you a very long way.