Hi, my name is Jennifer & I'm 23. Last week was just so bad. Well, my ADHD takes a huge toll in everything that I do. I'm on Ritalin, 1 tablet (20mg) 4-5x/day. I feel it work but sometimes, I wonder. Well, last week I was constantly angry and I couldn't focus at work, home, and in my relationship. Everything suffered.

Well, I got angry I took it out on my boyfriend. I didn't mean to, but I did the whole week pretty much. I got to the point on Friday night where it got so bad I texted him I could care less about our relationship and that we're over. I didn't mean it. He does his best dealing with my ADHD. I wish I could say that about any of my ex's or friends w/benefits (@ the time), even my friends in general. I don't know how to describe it except it felt like a volcano in my chest (the lava being anger) and then flew threw my mouth before I had a clue as to what I just did.

I hurt him and myself so bad. We're back together but, that anger then extreme sadness. It scared me. The sadness was so bad I didn't want to get out of bed...we were on vacation too.

My emotions fly and I can't ever seem to get them under control. I get anxious and worried over small stuff. I've tried talk therapy and so much more, but it just doesn't work. The only medication I havent tried is Vyanese (sp?). Im at the end of my rope. The only thing left that I'm going to be trying and blog about is the neuro feedback.

I cant keep dealing with the very high & rollercoaster like emotions every day despite medication. I'm just ready to pull my hair out sometimes! The impulsive feeling I'm having right now...sheesh! I bought a phone last night and Im getting impulsive because its the, "I want it now dog gone it!" feeling. Ok, hopefully I'm done, lol. Not sure, but if anyone has advice, it would be great. Thanks!

If you are still struggling so much with your impulsivity (the phone, the saying stuff you shouldn't), your medication isn't working obviously. I would not say that it's the wrong medication, so much as that you might need a higher dose.

That said 'being on an emotional rollercoaster' isn't really a typical descriptive of ADD. Combined with the impulsivity and anxiety, it might be something else like Bipolar. Either instead of or along with ADD. Co-morbid (co-existing) mood disorders and learning disorders are almost ubiquitous among ADDers. "Talk therapy" isn't going to help if you've got a biological or chemical cause of one of these problems, any more than it's going to help if you've got a broken leg or a thyroid imbalance.

Talk to your psychopharmacologist! Or get a new one.

I'm sorry you're struggling so much. Lots of us have been there and I know that simply not finding solutions can make you miserable in and of itself. You are entitled to good medical care that will make you feel better, even if the emotional rollercoaster says otherwise sometimes.

it was very bad day to you ok any it is also great experience.
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If you are still struggling so much with your impulsivity (the phone, the saying stuff you shouldn't), your medication isn't working obviously. I would not say that it's the wrong medication, so much as that you might need a higher dose.

That said 'being on an emotional rollercoaster' isn't really a typical descriptive of ADD. Combined with the impulsivity and anxiety, it might be something else like Bipolar. Either instead of or along with ADD. Co-morbid (co-existing) mood disorders and learning disorders are almost ubiquitous among ADDers. "Talk therapy" isn't going to help if you've got a biological or chemical cause of one of these problems, any more than it's going to help if you've got a broken leg or a thyroid imbalance.

Talk to your psychopharmacologist! Or get a new one.

I'm sorry you're struggling so much. Lots of us have been there and I know that simply not finding solutions can make you miserable in and of itself. You are entitled to good medical care that will make you feel better, even if the emotional rollercoaster says otherwise sometimes.


You took the words right out of my mouth! It sounds a lot more like some type of Bipolar disorder.

I have one question just out of curiosity. Are you tired all the time, or do you feel like you have a lot of energy?

Its like right in the middle between tired & energetic. Its like I could go both ways so I could go to sleep or I could get excited enough as if I were going to a concert & seeing my favorite band. Hope that makes sense.

The one true thing in this world that makes me smile and where I am actually happy is my my rabbit, Moka. Idk how to really explain it. After my grandma passed away this past April 6th, even though it was one of the toughest things I've had to go through and around my family, friends, and boyfriend, I hardly smiled but around Moka, I just couldn't stop smiling.

When I'm cleaning his room, he goes and climbs up the stairs and looks back to see if I notice. So right after I do, I pick him up and put him back on the floor and then he runs so fast to the other side of the rug, poops out and lies down with a royal cheeser smile on his face & in his eyes.

Best part, is that I receive lots of kisses from him no matter what kind of mood I'm in and usually that puts me into a good one.

Sorry for the rant lol Hope I answered your question.

Animals have an extraordinary ability to bring us into the present moment and put things in perspective, don't they?

chartreuse, they do.