Not_All_There
09-20-08, 05:09 PM
I have been using these forums for some time as a source of information, so I thought I should probably return the favor of providing my own experiences up to this point.
I have always had attentional issues, as well as anxiety and mood issues. I went through most of my life without any of this dealt with in a clinical fashion.
I had terrible grades through high school, and not that much better in the earlier going in college. I eventually got through grad school and have been moderately successful in my career.
My current job puts me in a much more public position though, and I felt that I had no choice but to deal with my attentional issues to enhance my learning a new job and being "on task" when I deal with folks in the public.
I tried SSRIs some years back with some improvement of my OCD. I developed problems with SSRIs including hives, sun sensitivity and the sexual issues, so even though I needed something, I had to quit. I am a ruminator and someone who twists hair and rubs their eyebrows repeditively. I have also suffered quite a bit because of social anxiety at several times in my life.
My first drug on this go around was Adderall XR. It worked great at first to make me alert and focused. I couldn't deal with the tight chest and elevated BP and hyperfocus. I switched to generic Dexedrine, and have found it much more smooth. The focus isn't quite as good, but it doesn't play hell with my system the way Adderall.
I have eventually noticed that my anxiety has been increased by the Dex however, and I have most recently added Wellbutrin to the mix. I started with 150 for a week with no noticable effect.
The first day I tried the 300, I felt great in the morning, sort of high, and then something set me off in the afternoon and I had anxiety the rest of the day.
The next day I took the WB and did not take Dex. I had no anxiety during the day, but not great improvement in focus.
I DO think this is a good drug, and I am looking forward to how what I feel is a slowly improving emotional landscape for me. I have now taken the WB at 300 strength for less than a week. I am taking Lunesta at night so that I can rest, otherwise I will be up half the night.
I think I am going to take less than the 20mg a day of Dex to see if I can get the attentional benefit without the "tipping point" into anxiety. Maybe I will cut the dex in half for awhile and see if I get the benefit while my body adapts to the WB.
Anyway, there it is at the moment...
I have always had attentional issues, as well as anxiety and mood issues. I went through most of my life without any of this dealt with in a clinical fashion.
I had terrible grades through high school, and not that much better in the earlier going in college. I eventually got through grad school and have been moderately successful in my career.
My current job puts me in a much more public position though, and I felt that I had no choice but to deal with my attentional issues to enhance my learning a new job and being "on task" when I deal with folks in the public.
I tried SSRIs some years back with some improvement of my OCD. I developed problems with SSRIs including hives, sun sensitivity and the sexual issues, so even though I needed something, I had to quit. I am a ruminator and someone who twists hair and rubs their eyebrows repeditively. I have also suffered quite a bit because of social anxiety at several times in my life.
My first drug on this go around was Adderall XR. It worked great at first to make me alert and focused. I couldn't deal with the tight chest and elevated BP and hyperfocus. I switched to generic Dexedrine, and have found it much more smooth. The focus isn't quite as good, but it doesn't play hell with my system the way Adderall.
I have eventually noticed that my anxiety has been increased by the Dex however, and I have most recently added Wellbutrin to the mix. I started with 150 for a week with no noticable effect.
The first day I tried the 300, I felt great in the morning, sort of high, and then something set me off in the afternoon and I had anxiety the rest of the day.
The next day I took the WB and did not take Dex. I had no anxiety during the day, but not great improvement in focus.
I DO think this is a good drug, and I am looking forward to how what I feel is a slowly improving emotional landscape for me. I have now taken the WB at 300 strength for less than a week. I am taking Lunesta at night so that I can rest, otherwise I will be up half the night.
I think I am going to take less than the 20mg a day of Dex to see if I can get the attentional benefit without the "tipping point" into anxiety. Maybe I will cut the dex in half for awhile and see if I get the benefit while my body adapts to the WB.
Anyway, there it is at the moment...