I haven't smoked cannabis in over a month now!!! :) I have been smoking heavy amounts all day everyday since last August... so this is a big step for me... I know some users that can't go a few days without.

I thank it all to Wellbutrin... as soon as I started taking it I got apathetic about taking it... now I do not get any psychological cravings, only impulsive urges once to do it for some fun.

I think of all the things I'm getting back so painfully slowly.
-My old thought processes
-more clear headed
-better lung health and less bronchitis type stuff
-improved short term memory
-a personal sense of power and control and a retaking of my life back and expression of my true personality

I told all my friends that I would smoke on Halloween... back a month ago when I stopped... I didn't actually think I wanted to stop or anything, it just sort of happened and then the longer it went I just said I wasnt going to smoke more. I'm really wondering if I should make myself not smoke on Halloween... (my costume is the stoned killer mask from the first Scary Movie and a hoodie) because if I do that I may feel like I'm being withheld and then at an impulsive moment decide to give in all the way again.

I think it's an all or nothing thing with me. So I have argued to myself to be simply a "responsible drug user", understanding that this only applies to non-physically addictive drugs of course, as one can be psychologically addicted to anything that promotes dopamine release, chemical or activity.

I have decided that cannabis is not a good drug for me. I continue to hear case reports of those that "went strange/weird" after years of chronic use. I don't know whether to believe these case reports or the multitude of peer-reviewed scientific articles that can find no correlation between chronic cannabis use and cognitive decline... or causing mental illnesses in those not already having them/prone to them.

I don't want to be so dependant on it anymore. Lately I've been trying to get into activities I can do well in and not being so stressed about everything, like video games, watching movies, and designing homes and families on The Sims 2, and actually spending quality time talking and being with my girlfriend. I try to extract joy from everyday things and not fall into an anhedonious rut. I think using it too much makes you feel that nothing else will make you feel good.

So I may use occasionally... maybe I won't. We'll see how I feel when the time comes. There is no wrong. Everyone needs to take risks and just let loose sometimes.

Mincan,

That’s great. Congratulations!

Way to go, Min. Another interesting success story about Wellbutrin.

Personally I've never tried anything like that, I don't even smoke. But I have a young niece in rehab right now dealing with stuff. Habits, any kind of habit, is hard to break but not impossible. I wish you well.

wOot WOot!

Yea, Mincan!!

I for one, know what a victory this is.
.....congrats mincan.
I'm trying too.
I make it a month and fall, now I'm back to 2 weeks dry.

good job.

I've been about 3 days free of it hahaha. i just do it when the opportunity arises, which is very rare so it's good. usually it's a once a month thing.

good job mincan

keep it up. especially when times get hard & you think you can handle doing it just once or whatever

then you'll think you can do it just once more

then you'll convince yourself it's ok to start up again... or you will just start up again without ever really even thinking about it.

I use to be a heavy smoker for years. I recently stopped smoking about two months ago - finally got help for ADHD/BP II. There was a dry spell for about a month or so, so I decided to stop smoking since I couldn't find any anyways. I always get EXTREME levels of anxiety at first, when jumping back on that train. So that's most of the reason I just decided to cut it out completely.

The WD symptons were't that bad for me, other then extreme irratibilty for a few weeks. Now that I'm on my ADHD/BP meds, I'm doing fine.

ANYWAYS...

Congrats on quiting.

Been about a month and a half now. No plans, no cravings.

Congrats! That's awesome!

I can feel it coming back... I think I need to up my meds, Im starting to get cravings Im starting to legs restless legs again and Im getting nasty anhedonia... NOOOOOO! I dont want to use this... gonna take more meds... I have some leeway there.

hang in there ... !

I can feel it coming back... I think I need to up my meds, Im starting to get cravings Im starting to legs restless legs again and Im getting nasty anhedonia... NOOOOOO! I dont want to use this... gonna take more meds... I have some leeway there.

You just need to fight it bro. I know it sucks but you can do it. I was an ex benzo junkie and that was the HARDEST addiction to kick. If I can do that, you can definitely kick this. I found that working really helps with this. Try to get in as much cardio as you can handle. Also try some weight lifting as well, but the cardio seemed to help more.


I saw that you posted that yesterday. Did you jump back on the MJ train?

:D

No, actually I took 5mg of Dexedrine at 22:45 and it was just what I needed! I got calmer within 20 minutes or so and then was able to watch a movie better than I have in eons. I also got pleasantly tired within 40 minutes and went to sleep, and feel really good this morning. Energised yet very controlled and calm.

Congratulations and keep up the good work!

I know how strong addictions are. I have just quit smoking cigarettes and am having cravings. It is especially hard not having a smoke first thing in the morning.

Hang in there. You can do it!!

You know what they say about staying clean and sober, Avoid the triggers- people, places and things. That for me is the hardest part of staying clean. My brother and sister both smoke weed and drink. My best friend has turned into crack head and is always calling me when he is high.
I have been clean and sober now for a month, for a while I was drinking every day.
Congrats and if you go back to smoking don't beat yourself up. Almost everybody has a relapse now and again.
:)