Went in to see the doctor this morning, as he had previously proscribed me effexor 2 weeks earlier. Told him straight up - I have no attention span, concentration, highly impulsive, lack ability to read social cues, failign school etc etc.

He asked what I would like to try - I replied that Ritalin worked, but it was intense and then a big crash (I was 12 the last time I took ADHD meds)

Doc proscribed 20mg Adderall xr, once a day for 1 month as a test run.


WELL THEN. At 10 am I took my first pill. Within 45 minutes, I was energetic, had mental clarity, concentration and motivation. All the multiple thought processes/noise shut up, and I was able to actually control what was going on in my brain.

Walked around, talked to people, and grinned like a Cheshire cat.Had a brief dip (but no negative effects) then another rolling high.

Around the 3rd dip, the next "high" continued with the mental clarity, but my body became restless. This is 5 hours in (3pm). Quickly it went downhill, as suddenly I was getting hot/cold flashes, sweats, and jitteryness. Between 5-6 hours in (3-4pm) my body suddenly went into (what I woudl best describe) a panic attack.


The best way to explain this divulges personal information - a general BODY (not mental/thoughts) feeling of DREAD. My father was abusive as hell, and beat the **** out of me on a regular basis as a child. The last time I felt like this was when I got expelled from school, and was waiting alone in my room for my father to come home......the door opened and he started walking upstairsto my room. Pure terror.


After that was a light sadness, combined with a feeling of emptyness/drained energy.


Ate around 2500 calories throughout the day, am 5'10 134 lbs. Dranks a ****load of water, as I was getting constantly dehydrated.



Is this normal?