View Full Version : Urgh, struggling...


sarey
12-02-08, 03:23 PM
I've purged so much today and it was all in the morning
I'm now avoiding food
I feel so weird
Dizzy
Weak
Heart is acting strange
Numbness
Headache
Sicky feeling in throat/chest
*sighs*
I told my ED Specialist to
"**** off and never come back"

I didn't even want her to go
Why did I do that???????????
:(

I feel so tired
so low
want to just sleep
make me sleep
forever

I don't want to be awake anymore...


I'm so f*king stupid

sarek
12-02-08, 04:45 PM
Hey Sarey,

We hear you.

sarey
12-02-08, 04:51 PM
:(
thank you

made myself sick again just before
avoided eating during day
but ate before
a lot
(to me...)
and threw it all up
(i hope... it looked like i did)

im so fed up
can i have a hug or something
:'(

EYEFORGOT
12-02-08, 04:56 PM
(((hugs)))

You're not stupid. You're in pain. I'm sorry we can't make it all go away.

sarey
12-02-08, 04:57 PM
:(
hugs is enough
thank you
i know
no magic wand
but hugs mean a lot to me...

sarey
12-03-08, 03:28 PM
stupid ******* school!

EYEFORGOT
12-03-08, 04:32 PM
Hey, that's how I felt when I was in highschool. It sucked. The stress there was certainly a contributor to my food binges. I didn't purge, I just didn't stop eating, and unhealthy food at that.

sarey
12-04-08, 03:11 AM
no its not that
we went ice skating
i wanted to go
they said to me
"you havent ate all day, if you dont eat, you cant go"
**** sake
so i had to eat
i ate
i went
i hope i burned off calories
and then i ate on way back
*sighs*
thankfully i didnt binge as much
i had "normal" portions
however,
i still feel as guilty
because i didnt purge it

i couldnt though
i was in the damn car
stupid damn school
not eating today
i should have hid it
but they said
"if you faint on the ice, you could get your fingers chopped off, its dangerous"
i guess he spoke some sense
as i was feeling very ill...

sarey
12-10-08, 10:17 AM
ok obv no one cares if no one is gonna reply abck

ndnbutterfly
12-10-08, 10:51 AM
I am sorry to hear that you are feeling down.

((Hugs))

I know that things can be pretty rough sometimes. I've never had an eating disorder, but I do overeat most of the time on junk food!

I haven't posted to you before, but I've read most of your posts.
You seem like a bright, able young person who is going to get through this.

Just remember that we are here for you and we care about you.

I hope you feel better soon.

Nikki