Emotional Train Wreck
<HR style="COLOR: #d1d1e1" SIZE=1><!-- / icon and title --><!-- message -->I feel like I'm an emotional train wreck! I have always been overly sensitive and emotional, but in the last year it has gotten significantly worse. My self-esteem is nonexistent, and the more that goes wrong (whether it's my fault or not) the worse I see myself. The more I cry, the more I see myself as a burden on those around me because I'm always crying or feeling so worthless. I keep running the negative loop in my head; I feel pathetic because I'm a slave to my emotions, then I get all sad and teary and feel burdensome and stupid, which in turn makes me feel more stupid and pathetic.

What's wrong with me?

I'm sorry to hear that you're having such a sad time.

Are you seeing a psychologist? Are you taking any meds?

Everyone goes through times like this, although it seems to be worse for you.

Talking to people that understand can be very helpful.

Have you been diagnosed with depression?

We're here for you.:)

I am very new to this as I was diagnosed yesterday. I could have written this post, really. I am so sorry you are feeling this way, it is SO uncomfortable to always be in that loop of emotional upheaval. I have always been 'overly emotional' and I have always taken everything personally.

I am really new to this ADD stuff, just want to let you know that you aren't alone. Yesterday morning I was literally a crazy train of emotions...FULL SPEED AHEAD! Crying, yelling, pulling my own hair out of JUST being so damned frustrated. I saw a Psychiatrist yesterday and after 25 years of a Bipolar diagnosis and NO med helping my crazy maniac emotions, I tried Dexedrine. I have been on Dexedrine for 48 hours now and haven't yelled, cried, or felt out of control once. Please think about meds maybe? I can already see that this is a miracle for me...and it could be for you. <<<HUGS>>>

The scary thing is that I already see a psychologist...well, I did. The night I wrote the original post I had gone to see him. Granted my appt. was at 5:45pm and he'd probably been seeing patients for the last 8-9 hours, but his behavior with me was unexcusable. During the 15 minute appt., where I was noticably distressed and in tears, he rubbed his eyes as though bored, and looked at his watch several times, giving me the impression that I was wasting his time. Then, in the midst of my emotional break, he reminds me that our time is up and that he has another appt. He listens to me for a few more minutes when the phone rings and he takes the call and sort of scoots me out with a wave of his hands.

Maybe I was overreacting to my emotions, however, I think his behavior was uncalled for. You can only imagine how much worse I felt walking out of his office. When I got home, I was able to talk to my boyfriend and he was able to help me make a little sense out of my emotions.

The really scary thing, I already take 400mg Wellbutrin, 80mg Ritalin, and 30mg of Cymbalta each day.

I have gone back to reading a book I got last summer, "Women With Attention Deficit Disorder" by Sari Solden. It is an awesome book!! That book and some other reading I have been doing on this site about ADD and PMS has begun making a lot of sense. I actually have an appt. with my GP to check into this and see if there is anything I can do to ward off these "psychotic" emotions that rule my life, on a fairly regular basis.

Today was a good day. So I'm trying to focus on that. This forum has been so helpful for me.

Megan

Megan, at 46 I can tell you with certainty that your emotional roller coaster is probably being driven by your estrogen levels at any given time. Estrogen has an impact on your stimulant med. I know that your GP will be able to help you work through that.

I know other ADHD women who are very successful using a low level birth control pill in addition to their ADHD meds. If that isn't an option for you, consider adding B Complex to your regime.

I'm doing the menopausal shuffle and I know darned well that it messes with, not only how well and long my Adderall works but where I am on the emotional scale at any given time. When you find yourself in that place, try just allowing yourself to feel whatever you feel at that time. I call it cave time. I hang out on the couch, cry when I want to, and just generally allow myself some time. If that is something you can give yourself, please do. I believe it helps.

Thanks for the thoughts. I never thought about B complex, I'll give that a try. I am already taking bc pills, I'm not sure about the dose though.

I'm currently looking for a new psychiatrist, preferably a woman who is familiar with ADD/ADHD. I think this will help a lot, someone to talk to that more closely understands what I'm going through.

Although I'm just past my period for this month, and I was beginning to see the world in a less threatening light, I find that I am yet again treading water with my head quickly going under. Sometimes I wish someone would press the pause button so I would be able to catch up for a little while before the craziness starts all over again. :confused::confused::confused:

Oh well, maybe in my next life.

Marnie