I am wondering if anyone has experienced what I am experiencing and how they coped. I was on adderall xr 20mg for about a year. Then I quit for a year, then just recently, I started a new prescription of 30mg. Don't ask why the increase in dosage, it was just a mistake between my psychiatrist and I of forgetting the prior dosage amount.

Anyway, now you know my Adderall history. So, I have been taking it for a few days and having trouble adjusting worse than I did the first time around. Things were fine, at first and then I had one really long busy day that I was carrying out only had 2 hours of sleep from the night before.

I had no trouble crashing when my schedule finally let me sleep, but I had terrible nightmares. I remember waking up in my bed feeling completely scared, insane and not myself. Like I had lost my mind. It was the scariest feeling I have ever had in a dream.

I am not sure if I really woke up feeling that way or if it was only part of the dream that seemed to be real. Dream or not, I went back to sleep because I was afraid to get out of bed and have to live my life as the scary person I thought I was. Eventually I woke up a final time and felt ok. But now I am so afraid to fall asleep again and have this unhealthy aversion and dreadful feeling whenever I lay down.

I know I will go back to sleep eventually. I have been up 24 hours so far and I'm not going to keep pushing it to the point where it makes me sick, but I just wanted to come on here to vent and see if anyone else has had a similar experience. Maybe not the same dream as me of course, but bad feelings or bad dreams in general.

I have trouble sleeping anyway because I am just getting adjusted to living alone and going through life changes, so this is just miserable. I never felt like this the first time I was taking Adderalll. I just feel weird. I wonder if there are ever bad batches. Like some chemical imbalance in the composition that might have happened during manufacturing. It's probably just me having the chemical imbalance though.

I did forget to mention something though. By the time I went to bed it was late and my Adderall from the morning had completely worn off hours earlier. I thought it would be ok to have a few beers because that is what I used to do to help me sleep before I started my latest Adderall prescription. This situation could be blamed on the alcohol, but I have been drinking for a long time and I have never felt like that. When I drink, I am able to pass out and it's a long restful sleep with minimal dreams that I remember. I wasn't wasted, but I had 4 light beers so I was pretty buzzed when I went to sleep.

Any thoughts would be appreciated. Similar stories or any tips on helping me sleep. I do not want to go to my doctor and ask for sleep meds on top of the Adderall. I have some over the counter sleep aids, but I am sketchy about taking those also. I've never tried them before.
Thanks for reading

Beep! Beep! Disclaimer! I am not a professional anything!

Alchohol is a stimulant and may be contributing to your distress with the higher dosage. It is my guess there is quite a bit of difference between 20 and 30 mg dosses as the med is available in increments of 5mgs. What you're going through is enough to make me call my doc like last week sometime! I'm also a big fan of talking to the pharmacist where you got the meds. These people can be a wealth of info you don't want to miss out on. (A call to my pharmacist nearly saved my life once! Some stuff I was using was causing problems and he told my why - it was a form of pesticide (for scabbies) - the FDA banned the use of the crud later that same year!)