I suppose that says it all. I feel like I'm at the end of it. What life I struggled to put together has fallen apart. I'm so isolated. Don't know what to do. I wish I were insane but I'm not. I'm rational in an ADHD/OCD super anxious body/mind. Of course that makes me behave irrationally because what is rational behavior in response to such disorder? Who knows. But I don't know where to go from here.

Mike

Mike my suggestion would be to seek emergency help for your depression problems. Call community mental health services im sure there is some sort of cmh in detroit..
request emergency services so you wont have to wait to be seen... If that isnt quick enough go to the nearest emergency room at a hospital with inpatient care and if the doctor suggests it sign your self in for a 72 hour hold or evaluation..after 72 hrs they should have you evaluated and perhaps started on something to help with the depression...at that point they cant hold you unless you volunteer sign in.

I worked in cmh for 14 years my self took my daughter their for emergency services once after i had left my job and they said she couldnt be seen for three weeks..
I told the receptionist that she would be seen that day.
took my daughter to the other end of the parking lot to the generals hospital emergency room and the doctor could tell her level of despair he called mental health at the other end of the parking lot and he called the doctor. My daughter was seen and hospitalised that day,,, She is doing fine now.. She has add but is finally doing quite well. Best of luck to you mike,, Call a friend who can help you get the help you need please dont wait
katts