Well the specialist psychiatrist said I do indeed have ADD mixed up with a whole batch of other things. Hpmh, that's what I told him. Agh, I need to be more assertive. The new psychiatrist says need to call him back & get a better answer like what kind of anxiety is he talking about. He says depression too. I don't know, it's all mixed together. I want to figure out how each part works and what's causing what. At least she has the patience to listen to my endless rambling and didn't sigh when I produced the 18 page personal history complete with pictures and circles and a diagram on the back of each one explaining what each one was to be used as evidence against me or the 29 page ADD self diagnosis checklist & notes I put together.

Anyways he put me on effexor which I was hesitant to do when I looked into it before. He says it's a combination of neurotransmitter effects and he'll add a stimulant later if warranted. I actually kind of like the effexor so far (relaxing/relieved) but I do feel drugged. Wellbutrin made me feel icky even if it did give me more energy. We'll see. I sure need to get my act together and I'm desperate enough to try it for a while.

We're pulling for you, Paul.

I have to grin at your hyperfocusing on your own diagnosis. It matches my own in so many ways. :D

Did anyone catch the "Alice's Restaurant" reference?

Well I called him and he was pretty wishy-washy. I'll admit I'm a complicated case. Here's my translation of what I was able to wrangle out of him:

"repressed generalized anxiety that causes depression and exacerbates some unknown level of underlying inattentive type ADD"

AKA comorbid somethingorother with inattention.