Not doing well. Not at all. I don't need any fussing, i dont need seventy five pm's, I just need to say it and get it out and over with.Im just not doing well.

I got a letter from the counceling agency. Could be as early as six weeks they might be able to see me or as long as six or more months.Its already been four months without meds. Im tired of all this, though I am having some good things happen to make me grateful.

That sucks! Can't you try to get in somewhere else?

OK - so you didn;t want pm;s. So here goes 'my humble opinion':
A few weeks ago I was seriously p*ssed off (mostly at myself), felt the same, didn;t want 'pick me ups' or advice.
My extremely ackward way of saying been there, done that.

Thank you for both of your kind replies and not making me feel indebted. i appreciate it

I know how ya feel, I get depressed sometimes too. Its no fun.

Hey thanks for being so honest with us Crissy....where so many times it's easy to isolate and NOT "let on" what's happening......

Chrissy, your other posts over time throughout this forum have been filled with insight and poignant shared experiences that have been helpful to me and many others who read them. I am genuinely sorry to hear that you are currently in such pain. I can only say that you are clearly not alone in this world and that perhaps this support from others can help brighten your situation at least a bit.

I will add you to my prayers because that is my way of doing the most I can for you because my faith is at the center of who I am and what I do.

Please try to be good to yourself and find a hopeful spirit within you.

Ed

Thank you all. I found a bottle and a half of effexor in ( of all places) my linen closet, I am taking a leap of faith and began again yesterday. The effect has been immediate. Im not jumping for joy Im just in less pain, thats all i need right now til they can get me straightened out. Thank you for allowing me to be here.

Just a note to thank everyone for handling me so well. The small dosage of effexor seems to be taking the edge off the living hell sadness and self hatred. But now , of course, i see my issues and not so sure I want to deal with them, lol. I hope they get staffing fixed over at county mental health so i can get my meds again. I have no spare money for even certain bills let alone hundreds for meds. I am grateful for your caring and time. It helped alot.

So glad you found something to help.

Effexor kinda works that way for me. Takes the stress & worry away but I'm not particularly motivated either. And almost no dreams for more than a month.