I was hoping someone could help me with understanding this.

Is this an ADD thing?

I have always had racing thoughts, no matter how much I want to conform to one track, I always jump around and have many things I want to do, or think about on a regular basis.

It is driving me crazy, not being able to focus and forgetting things way too often because I am lost in my thoughts all the time. I am quite inattentive, though I do have potential on a number of things I can bring from memory (usually things of great interest stick with me).

Every day this interupts with my functioning.. like in the morning today, I had to go on errand, and 2 times forgot something in the house after locking it.. and it just keeps going from there.

When talking to people, I have an affect of just overwhelming them and getting strange looks because I lost them - since I can wrap around on my conversations so fast covering multiple subjects - or recalling something that just causes me to wonder from my main point...

I was originally diagnosed with Bi-Polar (but I don't have split personality issues) moodswings yes, but I didn't feel I matched past treatment or issues as before. I am just not the same as back then - quite different now.

So doctor just recently put me on Methylin (generic for ritilan) I thought from what I had read that this was going to fix my problem with racing thoughts, was I wrong in what it is for?

I talk to my doctor again today, and he insists now that the ritilan is not going to fix my problem, but he did not tell me what it was suppose to fix!?!

He is putting me back on Risperdal, has anyone else every taken this medication? I tried it a few months ago, at 5mg and yea it worked, but then doctor cut it down to 1mg but then it didn't seem to work after that. Though I tried to get this medication just to find out it costs better then $500 per month!

Is there a medication for what I am needing that is cheaper that anyone knows of - one that is suppose to stop Racing Thoughts?

I don't know at this point, it is all confusing, I think if I can fix the racing thoughts I would have it made - that seems to be the core of my problem.

Racing thoughts definitely are an ADD thing. Ritalin usually helps, if you take the correct dosage. But anxiety is common in ADDers, and it will contribute to the racing thoughts too. If your doc suspects that anxiety is making your problem worse, he might want to try a non-stimulant to see how you respond to it. I've never taken Risperdal myself, but I know a few children who have gotten good results from it.

If the cost is prohibitive, it might pay to talk to the doctor about it, and be honest about what you can afford. He may be able to prescribe another med that isn't so expensive!

For now he is going to keep me on the Methylin, combined with free samples he give me for Risperdal...

I did tell him about my financial situation... (we just make to much to get financial help) and I am a single employee w/ no insurance. Suddenly faced with a whole bunch of new problems this year, things that elude me on the meaning or knowing if they need delt with (how serious it is to ignore).

Though he did pretty much told me there was no other medication he wanted me taking other then this one.

I am not sure at this point, what to do, I want this problem fixed, even if I have to kill myself financially to get it, I am tired of trying to stay ahead on everything as I have been doing. But even if I quite, I know I can't get my disability back, because husband makes too much. I am trapped by the system as I see it right now.

Already sunk well over $5,000 in medical this year for the first time (and that was still managing to stay up on all my other bills), and it don't look like it is going to get any better. I just don't know what happens when I get to the end of my rope on finances to draw from - I am afraid that I will just be refused service by that time. This is seriously depressing me.

I have been stressed quite a bit lately - to the point that I have had headaches and stomach aches the last week. Overwhelmed on my job, and looking for new work. But I can't get the pay I am making now w/ any new jobs that I know of, so that will hurt my finances as well. My doctor told me to stay no matter what were I am.

Sorry, I just keep reviewing this horror story over and over - I know it is not getting anywhere.