Just sitting here thinking, in a rare moment of silence in my house, about just about everything. Most specifically about why/how things that are so "set in stone" become so definative. Who made them that way? Did you yourself have part in carving the beliefs ideas or feelings into the stone? You almost certainly had to. Someone may have helped with concept, influenced your thinking or given you many valid reasons why it should be forever carved for everyone to see. What happens when the...

When I walked into your room I saw you, and you already died.

I wanted to be with you and hold your hand when it happened but .. that was not to be.

So, I sat with you, I held your hand, I stroked your head. For half an hour I just sat and looked at you.

I asked to have time alone with you. I spoke, it's not that I had anything left unsaid. You knew you were loved and there was no unfinished business.

I just wanted to honour you with...

I will never hurt you.
I will watch over you, protect you, keep you safe from the fire. I will not abandon you to your fate. Nor will I forget you are in my life, not even for a second. You will be the envy of all that have come into my life before you, for you will be the saucepan that survivies.

So. Finally he finds the time to log on to the forum again.
What has he been doing in the mean time?
I guess he hasn't been around here for a month or two. Ignoring all the reminders flooding his e-mail box, but never really forgetting the friendly people here.
He's been waiting and waiting for easier times.

Why wait? Wait for what, I hear you think. People who wait are always too late. And there will never be easier times. Times are as difficult as you make yourself...

When will I trust me and not what others say?

When will I trust my gut that amusement is at my expense when I feel that it is.

When will I trust my feelings?

I'm dry, I used to describe my emotional life as a rain forest.. but it's not like that anymore. It's dry, now, it's too much.

It's a rain forest that died..

And dry forests just don't give a **** ..