Wits end

No treatment, losing my sight, 2 children, not enough money, rocky marriage, extremely depressed, mind raising, living in complete silence. Okay where do I start? Lately I have spent SO MUCH of my time in my own head that I NEED to unload. I haven't been on treatment for ADD for over a year due to the fact that I just had a baby and was nursing and couldn't find it in me to stop after repeated claims that I would. Well I have finally stopped and set up my appointment first thing next week. The problem that I also face is the fact that I have a new diagnoses of a degenerative eye condition that has substantially affected my vision here to date. There is some amount of peripheral and light vision lose and I don't know how the medication will affect the process. I was diagnosed while I was 8 months pregnant last November. A week before delivering. I have talked to a therapist once, missed my second appointment, two days later I got a letter in the mail stating that she resigned. The story of my life