In the last 2 years ive learned, adapted and accepted so much about self. About the new me. The new life I'm intended to lead. Though I cant helpbut miss pieces of the old me. The unaware, misguided, blissfully ignorant me.

Without going into the horrifically long story of how I got to this point, this may seem a bit scattered and nonsensical but I'm okay with that.

Ive reached the point in my post-diagnosis period that I'm starting to mourn the loss of my old self....

no emotions felt, no words spoken, no definitive real... no self to identify with, no narrative explanation, defined or undefined purpose. all trust placed in that cheshire cat grin floating in the abstract. A world of appearances, of trust in probability, of unshaken belief, of outstanding lies and misguided truths. everything crumbling, crumbling...

A single shrill may disrupt all comfort found in the following silence.

A final breath may burst the childs balloon...

addr68: How does my brother weigh this fine day

sarek: Hence the vixere fortis? Shall I compare thee to a summer's dream, thou art etc..etc..

sarek: its not a dream, its a day...

addr68: Aye! thy eye have seen, that which is been written...glorious in deed for they speak that which they wish to say

sarek: Its great. forsooth, a lost art indeed.

addr68: True! Lost are the flavor of such words that can be savored by the taste...

Like many AD/HD humans, I've been riding the creative lighting all of my electric life --- writing and painting and sculpting, and screaming and laughing --- following my own demented straight-razor muses or suffering at their delicate, deadly hands.

It's *****ing brutal and beautiful, lovely like a black chrome...

I believe children today are allowed to watch too much television. Most kids will say they have a TV in their bedroom where they can watch whatever programming they desire, at any given time, and for as long as they choose. Some parents allow the TV in their children’s room to be a “nightlight” that will keep them from being afraid of the dark. I have made the decision that my kids will not spend numerous hours a day watching TV. Besides not having televisions in the bedrooms of my house, another...