Feeling the chaos take over. Overwhelming. My bedroom is scaring me!
I have asked for help today my bf is coming over. I thank him and the universe.

So I took the radio active iodine pill and although the first couple of days weren't great it was much better than I had anticipated. Thanks to my daughter getting me to sign up for a free trial for next flix I was not bored during the 5 day isolation period.

But the best thing is that the scan at the end of the treatment was clear!!

I am slowly moving towards the end of this tedious and somtimes anxiety ridden journey to health.

Tommorrow I start the low iodine diet so that when I take the radioactive iodine pill it will have the greatest chance of getting into those cells and destroying any lingering thyroid cancer that may have spread elsewhere as I no longer have a thyroid gland. So, Yeah, I want any traces of cancer to be gone but it begs the question * what else is destroyed *.


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Procrastination is just a way to get stuff done.

I put x off then suddenly realize that some looming deadline or other highly unpleasant thing is getting my attention. It speaks through the comfortable layers of denial disturbing my cozy - i don't need to deal with that right now - cloud.

Then peals of thunder and blinding flashes of lightning jolt me into reality - adrenalin pumping, thoughts racing and panic fills me.

Then, I am sufficiently awake to...

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I didn't know you well despite having been neighbours for some years. I passed you in the hall, saw you in the elevator. And you seemed very alone, always friendly-polite.
Those short exchanges to acknowledge each others existence.

And one real conversation:
I saw you in the laundry room. You were greiving for your brother who just died of cirohsis of the liver. You said you...