Its 12:43....
AM!

Saterday night. My boyfriend had buisness plans tonight. I went to a speaker meeting at 8pm came home and have been doing stupid stuff. mostly making a mess, starting something then walking away amuzed at something new.

my appartment is a mess!! I dont even know what im doing right now.

cognitive dissonance-thats what I have

Im going to the gym. Get out of here !!!

Im going to wake up in the morning to...

Im definatly gaining weight, dont know if I can contribute it to seriquil since my living (and eating) habbits have changed over the last year. But come on! 20 lbs!!! No way im accepting this.

Another thing....When I was taking seriquil in a high dose (300-400) I seriously heard voices and got mega parinoid once it kicked in. I tolerated it because I knew they were side effects and i was asleep after 20 min so I didnt suffer much.

The reason I was perscribed seriquil...

oh well,

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